By The Firelight (Part One)
(A Fading Lines Christmas Special)
Pairing: Lewis Hamilton x Reader
Summary: Lewis swore he’d switch off this Christmas, but you caught him scrolling, and gave him something worth looking up for.
Word Count: 10,044
Warnings: SMUTTTT. Soft suuuper fluffy plot. Lewis in a Santa hat. Pregnancy. No use of Y/N.
A/N: Surprise!! Merry Christmas my loves! I've been feeling sooo clucky these past couple of weeks, so I thought I'd indulge in this little Christmas fic! This is set in the Fading Lines AU, but can be read as a standalone! This will be just a little two-shot, so I'll get a part two posted soon! Then it's back to business on The One!! Please let me know your thoughts on it, if you'd like to be added to my taglist, or if there's anything you'd like to see next! 🤍 (Also how cute and cozy does he look in this gif oh my hearttt)
Christmas Eve.
5 weeks before the wedding…
The kettle clicked off. The low hiss of steam slowly ebbed into silence, fogging the kitchen window enough to blur the falling snow outside.
Your hand stayed wrapped around the handle of your favorite mug. It wasn’t one of the sleek designer ones Lewis always lined up neatly in the cupboard, but the slightly chipped one with the painted reindeer and crooked candy cane you’d insisted on bringing back from the Christmas markets two years ago.
You traced your thumb across the rim absently, letting the warmth seep through the ceramic into your palm while your eyes drifted just beyond the kitchen archway.
The fire in the living room crackled low, and the air smelled like cinnamon, clove, and the gingerbread diffuser Lewis had insisted was “too strong” when you’d first unboxed it, though he hadn’t moved it since. The Christmas tree blinked quietly in the corner, lights reflected off the baubles you'd hung side by side, in an array of gold and red.
You glanced towards the couch, where you found your fiancé curled up in a nest of cushions, hoodie sleeves pushed to his elbows, and the soft grey sweatpants you wouldn’t dare let him wear in public slung low over his hips. His socked feet rested on the cushions, while the firelight licked golden across the bare skin of his throat and the slope of his bearded jaw.
He looked unfairly cozy.
His curls were out, loose, thick, and a little wild, the way they always dried when he didn’t have them braided. The way you loved them best. You could see the soft coil at the nape of his neck, where it always frizzed up when he got too warm, the ones your fingers ached to play with.
He was scrolling idly on his phone, his thumb moving slowly in upwards motions. The glow of the screen lit up the soft apple of his cheek and the curve of his nose. Every so often, his brow furrowed, his other hand reaching to tap his thumbs against the screen, typing something out.
He wasn’t supposed to be online tonight, he’d said he wanted to completely unplug this winter break. That he’d throw his phone away and be completely unreachable, but you knew how he was, and you didn’t mind.
The season never really stopped for him, there was always something needing his attention, whether it was Ferrari end-of-year meetings, a late gift drop off for the kids at the hospital, another Lululemon post, or just his friends wanting his opinions on their outfits. He’d tried, he always tried, and the fact that he was here, in the home you’d made together, was already everything you needed.
You smiled to yourself, watching the way he shifted slightly on the sofa, his eyebrows pinched, and his head tilted at his screen. Your fiancé. Five weeks from now, he’d be waiting for you at the end of an aisle, ready to become your husband.
Tonight though…you had a secret.
Your stomach fluttered at the thought, that same fragile swell of a truth that had been aching in your chest all day. One you would have feared in the past, flinched at even the thought of.
It had become a joy you hadn’t known how to carry just yet, not when your wedding was only five weeks away, not when you hadn’t even figured out how you were going to get through the fittings, the travel, the scrutiny. You’d spiraled for a moment that morning, sitting in your parked car outside the clinic, your hands pressed to the steering wheel like it could make everything make sense again.
You’d gone to your doctor first thing, a quiet appointment with all the lights still dim in the waiting room, and the receptionist wearing a tinsel headband. You hadn't even told Lewis you were going. You’d been feeling under the weather, an exhaustion that felt unfamiliar. It was just supposed to be to “check,” to “rule it out.” You’d said it to yourself so many times, the words had lost shape.
Now though, there was no ruling it out. It was confirmed, real. A tiny, flickering truth that had already changed the shape of the next forever.
You hadn’t told him yet. You hadn’t known how to, not until now, watching him snuggled cozily on the couch, cheeks warm from the fire, curls falling over his forehead like some kind of dream. Not until you’d felt the tug of mischief tighten low in your belly, the same one that always lit up when you thought of him.
You poured the hot water slowly, letting the steam rise up around your face. Chamomile and lemon balm, the same blend you’d been drinking every night lately, ever since the nausea started swirling early in your stomach, ever since peppermint started making you gag. You hadn’t told him that either.
You stirred the tea gently, watching the swirl of colour bleed into the water. Then, carefully, you picked up both mugs and crossed the room.
The soft pat of your feet against the wood echoed quietly under the music playing faintly from the speaker on the windowsill. An old, crackling, sweet tune. The bottom of your oversized knit jumper brushed your thighs, warm air skimming your knees as you made your way toward the couch. He looked up when you neared, offering you a soft smile, one that barely curved his lips, but always softened his eyes.
You placed the mugs down on the coffee table coasters, and moved behind the couch. You kissed the top of his curls as you leaned in, lingering for a moment to let the scent of his favourite leave-in conditioner wrap around your lungs like a ribbon. He tilted his head toward you slightly, eyes warm as he reached for the tea.
“Mmm. That smells good.”
“I know you like it when I make it,” you murmured against his skin, brushing a hand down his arm before pulling back.
He sipped, then groaned quietly. “Perfect.”
Your heart kicked in your chest. It was so easy to love him, even when he was distracted. Even when you were holding a secret so big it made your chest ache every time you looked at him.
“I’ll be right back,” you whispered, already backing toward the hallway.
“Where you going, baby?” he asked, glancing over the back of the couch.
“Just getting something,” you replied with a wink, then turned on your heel, vanishing down the hallway as his soft laugh followed you into the bedroom.
Inside, the closet light buzzed gently as you opened the mirrored door and stepped in, finding the shelf where you'd hidden the small satin box.
You’d had the idea weeks ago, maybe even before the test, when the December nights started cooling your windows and you realised this was your last Christmas Eve as a fiancée. That in five weeks time, you’d be standing in front of him as his wife. That you wanted to give him something tonight that felt just as intimate, just as meaningful.
The red lingerie shimmered under your fingertips, a delicate, lacy set, trimmed with soft white faux fur at the hem. Barely-there straps, a plunging front, and a little sheer skirt that floated like snow. It looked more like a costume than anything practical, designed to fall off in seconds.
You pulled it out slowly, your pulse thudding like sleigh bells in your chest. This wasn’t how you’d planned to tell him, but now, it felt right. You were going to give him everything. Your body, your forever, your heart, and now this. A new kind of future, already growing slowly inside you.
You reached for the Santa hat hanging off the doorknob and grinned.
He wanted to doomscroll on his phone? Fine.
But you were going to make sure the only thing he’d be swiping for the rest of the night was his hands across your skin.
You stepped into the set carefully, pulling it up over your hips, adjusting the soft cups at your chest, and smoothing the sheer skirt over your upper thighs. Then, you swiped on a tinted lip balm to moisten your lips, and adjusted your hair in the mirror, the glow from the hallway lights catching the glint of your engagement ring.
Your other hand settled low on your abdomen, just briefly. One more secret, waiting to be unwrapped.
You smiled to yourself, heart fluttering as you slipped out of the room, Santa hat in one hand, and tiptoed back toward the living room, where your future was already waiting, tea cooling on the table, phone forgotten, arms ready to wrap around every version of you he’d ever get to love.
The Santa hat was warm and soft in your hands, the little white pompom swinging gently as you crept down the hallway on silent feet. You paused just outside the living room archway, leaning against the cool edge of the wall, peeking around it like a child spying on Christmas morning.
Lewis was still exactly where you’d left him.
Blanketed in amber light, his curls catching the glow like strands of burnished gold, legs stretched across the couch, hoodie bunched around his waist. One hand held the mug you’d handed him, while the other still gripped his phone, thumb scrolling absently through whatever had managed to hold his attention longer than your kiss.
You bit down on a smile as you continued down towards him.
He had no idea what was coming.
The little red lingerie dress you wore skimmed against your thighs as you moved, the soft fabric whispering with every step. You hadn’t even made it halfway there before your heart was racing from the giddy anticipation of what you were about to do.
You closed the distance in silence, the fire crackling softly as you approached the couch from behind, your fingertips already inching toward the curls at the crown of his head. You leaned in slowly, lifting the Santa hat above him, and with the gentlest motion, dropped it right onto his head.
The little pompom hit his cheek, and Lewis flinched slightly, startled, then reached up to bat it away, but froze mid-motion.
You came around the side of the couch just in time to see the look on his face shift, confusion melting into a smirk, eyes sweeping up and down in a slow, appreciative drag that made your stomach flutter.
“Ho-ly shit,” he murmured, sitting up slightly. His voice was a mix of laughter and low heat. “What’s all this?”
You didn’t answer though. Instead, you stepped right into the space between his knees and turned, backing into him deliberately before lowering yourself onto his lap, where you playfully perched sideways, your knees together, back straight, hands folded sweetly in your lap like you were waiting your turn for a Christmas photo with Santa. His thighs were warm and solid beneath you, where you felt the shift of him as he adjusted instinctively, one hand still holding his phone, the other hovering for half a second like it wasn’t sure where it was allowed to settle.
You reached up and adjusted the Santa hat on his head, tugging it down just enough that the brim dipped low over one eyebrow, like this was all part of a perfectly innocent Christmas tradition.
“There,” you grinned, settling one arm along his shoulders, and cupping his cheek with your other hand. “You’re the perfect Santa now.”
He laughed as his hand settled at your hip at first with warm fingers, before sliding lower to cup the bare curve of your ass beneath the hem of your set, his thumb brushing the skin there. His phone remained in his other hand, screen still lit, forgotten but not dropped.
“Have you been good this year, love?” he asked quietly, leaning closer, the brim of the hat brushing your hair.
You smiled to yourself, nodding as you bit your lip. “I’ve been really good.”
His hand flexed beneath the hem of your outfit again, a palm full of bare skin, fingers spreading slowly over your ass like he was reacquainting himself with a favourite memory. He exhaled low, as if the touch alone soothed him inside.
The room flickered gold behind you, firelight casting shadows up the walls, the faint scent of gingerbread mixing with the body lotion you’d slathered across your thighs hours ago. Your playlist was quiet in the background, and the tree twinkled like it had been waiting all day for this exact moment.
You leaned in, your nose brushing his, the heat between you subtle, teasing, suspended by tension that didn’t need to declare itself out loud. Not when it lived in every small shift of your hips, every pass of his thumb along your bare ass.
Then he dipped his head, his breath warm against your cheek as he whispered, “Come here…”
His lips barely grazed your ear, his voice rich with that playful lilt he only ever used in private with you, the one that made your stomach flip like it had all those early months when falling for him still felt like a secret.
“Tell Santa what you want, baby.”
With a sweet smile, you leaned back in and brushed your lips along the sharp line of his jaw the barest pressure, a slow drag that ghosted heat into his skin. Your fingers feathered upward, slowly skimming along the fabric of his hoodie, every movement intentional.
Then, softly, low enough to melt, you whispered into his ear.
“I want you…to get off your phone…” Your hand reached for the device still gripped loosely in his hand. “And let me love you.”
Your words sank into him just as your fingertips curled gently around the phone. He didn’t resist. He let you slide it from his hand like it was nothing at all, as if it never mattered in the first place. You leaned to the side and placed it face-down on the coffee table. The screen lit up once as it left your hand, then dimmed again, as if even the technology knew it no longer had his full attention.
Lewis’ now free hand lifted without hesitation to your thigh. He slid his palm along the soft skin slowly, possessively, fingers gliding upward to meet the edge of your lingerie, slipping just beneath to make you shift slightly in his lap.
Your lips found his neck, pressing against the warm, honeyed skin just beneath his jaw. He twitched slightly beneath you, and your hand slipped up the front of his hoodie, under the soft fleece, tracing over the tight ridges of his abs.
He was warm and solid beneath your palm, his body carved to perfection by years of discipline, and the little catch in his breath when your fingers brushed his obliques only made you smile against his skin. You planted a kiss to his throat, slow and open mouthed this time, then dragged your teeth lightly over the edge of his jaw, before trailing towards his soft, full lips.
You crushed your mouth to his like you had all the time in the world, as though you weren’t sitting in his lap in the softest, naughtiest thing you’d ever worn, with a secret held tight in your chest and his hand already sliding higher up your thigh.
Your lips brushed in gentle sweeps, then returned, a little deeper as his fingers flexed on your skin. The air between you warmed instantly, scented with woodsmoke and sugar, heat unfurling.
Lewis moved with a hunger that startled even him, as if your kiss had flipped a switch inside him. His hand curled possessively around the back of your thigh, holding you firm against him, while the other rose to your jaw, angling you closer. He kissed you like the fire behind you wasn’t hot enough, as though you were his heat source now, his oxygen.
His mouth opened against yours, and your lips parted instantly, welcoming the flicker of his tongue, and a soft gasp that escaped you when he bit down on your bottom lip just hard enough to tease.
You melted into him, but not completely, because even as his mouth devoured yours, your hand slipped lower, over the fabric of his hoodie, then down, fingers tracing slowly over the outline pressing against his sweats. You could feel him through the fabric, thick and hard, twitching under your palm like the kiss alone had sent him spiraling. He hissed softly into your mouth when you rubbed over him with a light, teasing stroke.
"Fuck..." he breathed against your lips, head tilting back just slightly.
You smiled into the kiss and kept your hand moving. The fabric of his sweats was soft under your fingers, but he was anything but, straining already, the outline of him clear, eager, perfect. Your fingers pressed firmer this time, your palm rubbing upward in a slow stroke that made his breath catch in his throat.
Still, you didn’t break the kiss. Not when you shifted forward to straddle him fully. Not when his hand slid higher beneath your skirt, fingertips grazing the underside of your ass. Not when the Santa hat tipped sideways and nearly fell off his curls. You just kissed him harder, deeper like you needed each other to breathe.
Then, slowly, you rose and stood in front of him with your lips still on his, bodies parting by inches reluctantly. Your hand slipped under his hoodie, dragging your fingers over his abs, and you caught the bottom of it as you moved.
His hands lifted instinctively to help, and you broke the kiss only long enough to pull it over his head. The hoodie came off in one smooth motion, his curls ruffled in its wake, and suddenly he was bare chested in the glow of the fireplace, golden brown skin glistening faintly where your kisses had lingered.
Your mouth watered at the sight of him. So perfect, so chiseled and handsome…all yours.
Leaning forward again, you kissed down the center of his chest, soft and slow, lips brushing every ridge like you were tasting the aftermath of all the work he’d put into being carved like this. Your hands slid along his ribs, thumbs grazing his sides as your mouth followed the trail downward.
He groaned low in his throat, head tipped back against the couch while your lips traced his navel, and the firm dip of muscle just beneath. You eased to your knees in front of him, the fluffy hem brushing the tops of your thighs as you slid down between his legs, palms dragging up the outside of his thighs as your breath ghosted over his stomach.
You paused for a breath before moving, still kneeling, nestled between his thighs, you looked up at him in the flickering firelight, and took him in.
The way he sat there, warm and glowing, his hoodie now discarded beside him, curls a little tousled from where you’d pulled it over his head. His chest rose and fell in a slow, steady rhythm, the built lines of his torso catching every lick of light. The soft sheen of heat at his collarbone, the subtle twitch in his stomach muscles, the slope of his shoulders that always made you want to press your face there and just stay.
He was so beautiful like this.
Not just sculpted and stunning, but present. Here with you, in this quiet moment where everything else had slipped away. Nothing but Lewis, watching you with that look in his eyes that made the rest of the room blur.
You touched the inside of his knee, and ran your palm up the length of his thigh slowly, feeling the tension ripple under your skin.
Lewis reached gently for your face, fingertips brushing along your jaw, then curling tenderly under your chin. He cupped your face fully in his palm, thumb sweeping gently across your cheekbone, the softness of the gesture at complete odds with the way his body thrummed with tension beneath it all. His gaze dipped down, lingered on your mouth, then returned to your eyes like he was trying to memorize this exact second.
You leaned into his palm, kissing the inside, and your lips lingered, before you turned your head and nuzzled into it gently. His throat worked on a swallow, as his other hand twitched slightly where it rested beside him.
At last, your fingers moved to the waistband of his sweats.
You tugged them down slowly, the fabric sliding along his thighs, hips lifting just enough to help you, his breath stilling like he didn’t dare break the spell. When the waistband dipped low, you watched as he sprang free, hard, thick, and waiting.
A quiet breath escaped you, in both awe and hunger.
He was solid, the head already slick with a creamy bead of arousal, resting heavy against his abdomen, curved slightly toward his navel, so perfect in the warm light. The air between your bodies felt hotter now, tighter as if gravity had shifted and pulled everything toward this moment.
You dragged your fingers up the insides of his thighs again slowly, drawing invisible lines into his skin with your nails. He shifted slightly, legs parting wider, a low exhale falling from his lips. You smiled softly, eyes never leaving his as you leaned in.
Then, your lips found the crease of his thigh, just beside where he throbbed for you. You pressed an open mouthed kiss there, before moving to the other side. The thick heat of him pulsed against your cheek, but still, you didn’t touch.
Your mouth trailed around him like a constellation, kissing along the edges of his pelvis, then down toward his hipbone, and back across the place where his thigh met his groin. You could feel him twitch, feel the air tremble with restraint.
Until finally, your hand slowly wrapped around him, and his dick jumped in your palm.
You felt him fully now, hot, heavy, and solid, your fingers curling as you gave him one slow, languid stroke. His breath hitched audibly, hips shifting forward just enough to betray how badly he needed more.
You looked up at him through your eyelashes, and the way he gazed down at you, lips parted, eyes dark, hands still twitching like he didn’t know whether to grab your hair or just fall apart, made your pulse throb in your throat.
Kissing just beneath the head, your lips parted slowly, then wrapped around the swollen head of his length, tongue gliding along the underside as you sank down inch by aching inch. He pulsed against your tongue, the heat of him dizzying as you hollowed your cheeks and eased forward until your nose brushed the dark line of soft hair at his pelvis.
Lewis let out a sound that barely passed as a breath. A sharp, fractured exhale, as his head dropped back against the couch and his fingers finally moved. One hand slid from the cushion to the back of your head, his palm broad and warm, gathering your hair gently in his grip.
His fingers weaved through the strands like he needed the anchor, as if the only thing keeping him grounded was the feel of your mouth around him and your hair tangled in his hand.
“Shit, baby,” he rasped, voice frayed and chest rising faster now. “That mouth...”
You hummed contently around him in response, letting the vibration tease through the length of him. Your fingers tightened slightly around the base of his dick, stroking in time with your mouth. Every movement was measured, intentional. You weren’t rushing anything, you wanted to take your time. You wanted to drive him crazy in the way you always did.
Firelight danced along your bare shoulders, casting reflections against the sheen of your skin and the sparkle of the ring on your left hand as it tightened around him. Diamond and devotion caught the glow each time you adjusted your grip.
He looked down again, and the sight of you there, kneeling between his legs, lingerie bunched around your hips, eyes fluttering shut as you took him deeper, engagement ring glittering as your hand stroked the base of his length, drew a groan from deep in his chest that made your thighs press together.
“Fuck, you’re so beautiful,” he whispered. “Can’t even look at you right now without-”
His voice cracked, head falling back again.
You pulled up slowly, letting him slip free with a wet pop, your tongue swirling gently over the tip before you kissed just beneath the head. Then lower, your mouth traced him in lazy circles, painting every inch of him with your lips and breath. Your hand continued its rhythm, tight, warm, and patient.
He was leaking again, thick at the tip, and you licked it up slowly, lips wrapping around him again as you slid back down in one smooth motion.
His hand tightened in your hair with enough pressure to signal for you to keep going.
You moaned softly at the feel of him filling your mouth again, and the sound tore a reaction straight from his lungs. His thighs twitched beneath your hands, muscles trembling as you picked up your pace, cheeks hollowing and squeezing him tighter with every pass, tongue flattening along the underside on the way down.
Every reaction he gave you, the ragged breath, the stuttering inhale, the way his grip faltered for just a second like he was losing composure, made you wetter, hungrier, more determined to make him fall apart completely under your mouth.
You could feel it building in him now, that subtle shift in tension, in the way his hips began to move restlessly. The way his breath shortened, quiet swear words falling from his lips. The way his abs flexed beneath the firelight, trembling with restraint.
“Baby…” he groaned, his voice thick and warning.
You didn’t stop, sliding your tongue around the head, then sucking him in again, deeper this time. His grip in your hair tightened just enough to make your breath catch, firm, and possessive. You reached for his balls with your other hand, massaging gently in the way you knew he loved.
His hips bucked, and you felt him twitch hard in your mouth.
So close.
You glanced up at him through your eyelashes again, and the way he looked down at you, hot and, desperate, told you everything.
He was about to fall apart, and he wanted it to be you who took him there.
So you shifted forward slightly, sinking lower onto your knees as you leaned in closer, deliberately arching your back, letting the little red set ride higher over your hips. The fluffy hem lifted just enough to bare the curve of your ass, the soft candlelight painting your skin gold, the shadows pooling in every dip of your body.
You knew he saw it, you felt the reaction before you even glanced up.
The sharp pull of his breath, the way the hand in your hair faltered just slightly, and when you flicked your eyes up, lips wrapped around him, you caught the helpless look in his face, jaw slack, eyes dark and awed, like he couldn’t believe the sight of you, kneeling, glowing, mouth full of him, lace clinging to your body, the stretch of your back teasing him with every curve.
"Fucking love you so much..." he groaned, barely above a whisper.
You rewarded the sound with more, sliding down deeper, stroking him faster with your hand, twisting just slightly at the base in the way you knew drove him crazy. You pressed your thighs together for relief, desperate for some friction of your own, as you worked him with single-minded focus, your lips slick, jaw aching in the best way, the wet sounds growing messier as his breathing turned ragged.
His hips twitched again, more urgent now, and the hand gripping your hair pulled slightly, his breath catching.
"Baby, I-"
Before he could finish his sentence, you felt him pulse hard against your tongue. His abs tightened, and his thighs locked under your palms, his grip in your hair turning possessive and frantic as he reached his peak with a deep growl.
You moaned softly at the taste of him, warm and thick, some catching on your tongue, while some spilled out past your lips and dripped onto your chin, your chest, your fingers still curled around him. You swallowed what you could slowly, savoring him, licking gently around the head as he jerked beneath you, still panting, still trembling.
The fire continued to crack in the hearth behind you. Your diamond ring shimmered faintly in the orange light as you reached up, fingers gliding across your chin to wipe away the mess, the pad of your thumb slipping between your lips to lick off the last of it.
Lewis stared down at you, still breathless and warm. His chest heaved with a thin sheen on his skin, curls loose around his face, eyes locked to yours with a raw, overwhelmed kind of awe.
You gave him a moment to find his breath, then, with the same patience you’d used all night, you reached up and hooked two fingers into the chain around his neck, the one that always sat just right above his chest, that had your name etched somewhere against his skin, and tugged.
His hand slipped from your hair as he leaned forward, and you met him halfway, lips crashing into his in, the faint taste of him clinging to both your mouths. His hands came to your waist, dragging you up slightly so you could meet him better as your breaths mingled.
You didn’t let him go far though, not when he kissed you like that, as if he still couldn’t believe you were real, like his body needed to stay tethered to yours or he might unravel completely.
You stayed tangled in his arms, your hands cradling his jaw, your lips softening just enough to whisper against his. “Down here, baby.”
He followed, he always did.
You guided him down with you, your back brushing the edge of the rug as you sank into it, warm and soft beneath you, thick enough to cushion your spine. The fireplace cast soft amber shadows that danced across his cheekbones as he hovered above you. The Santa hat was long gone, his curls falling loose now, framing his face like a halo, your fiancé looking at you as though you hung the moon yourself.
He braced himself on one hand, the other reaching out to shove the coffee table back with a careless grunt. It dragged over the rug and scraped faintly across the floor, pushed out of the way as if the rest of the room had fallen away, and maybe it had. Maybe the whole world had narrowed to just this. Just the two of you.
You gasped when he pressed his thigh between your legs firmly, the friction of the soft cotton of his sweats dragging perfectly against the lace beneath your little red set, the heat of him right there, right where you needed it most. He grinned, as he felt you shift, instinctive, desperate, your hips rocking to chase more pressure. His palm slid up the side of your thigh, fingers spreading over your skin, before he dipped in to touch his lips to yours again.
His kiss left you breathless, every sweep of his lips tasting of firelight, faint chamomile tea, and the memory of what you'd just done to him.
Then, he moved, and you barely had time to whimper before he flipped the both of you, hands strong at your waist, lifting you like you weighed nothing, until your thighs were straddling his chest and the rug shifted beneath you. The world tilted, and when it righted, you were kneeling over him, the Christmas tree flickering behind you in soft golds and deep reds, its lights twinkling like stars catching in the glossy wrap of unopened gifts.
He laid back against the floor, curls splayed over the edge of the rug as he looked up at you. His eyes trailed over not just at your body, not just the way the little red lace clung to your thighs or the way your chest still rose with breathless tension, but at you. Your face, your mouth, your eyes, as if he needed to memorise the way you looked in that moment, lit by Christmas lights and firelight, wearing that damn lingerie and a look that made him feel like he’d already unwrapped the only gift that mattered.
“Come here,” he breathed, hands gasping gently at your hips. “Come ride my face, baby. Don’t make me ask twice.”
Your breath caught in your throat, but your body moved before you knew it, already aching, already soaked, already unraveling just from the way he said it. The fabric of your set brushed against his jaw as you shifted forward, one knee planting firm beside his shoulder, the other easing over until your thighs framed his face, and you hovered just barely above him.
His hands gripped your thighs, eyes dark with hunger as he looked up at you like you were divine. He didn’t rush though. Didn’t lunge, didn’t devour, not when he had you like this.
Knees pressed into either side of his shoulders, the fuzzy hem of your set dragging over his cheekbones, your body trembling just above his mouth like a lit fuse waiting to ignite. His hands stayed firm, thumbs sweeping up and down the curve of your skin in slow strokes.
You could feel the warmth of his breath, fanning over your soaked lace, ghosting along your inner thigh, and then, finally, the press of his mouth.
You gasped at the sensation.
The soft drag of his tongue was gentle at first over delicate fabric, then under, nudging it aside like it offended him. He wanted nothing between him and you. Nothing but heat, skin and wet, aching want. When he tasted you properly, no barriers, no hesitation, he groaned low against your core as though you’d knocked the air from his lungs and replaced it with only you.
Your fingers sank into his curls before you realised you’d moved, clutching gently at the thick coils, nails grazing his scalp, the heel of your hand pressing to the crown of his head as your other hand scrambled blindly for something to hold. You found the edge of the couch, the fabric warm beneath your palm, bracing yourself as the first wave of heat rolled through you.
He took his time, sucking gently, lips sealing around your clit in slow, maddening rhythm, tongue rolling in circles that had your hips stuttering, and your thighs trembling. When you rocked forward, needing more, needing deeper, he let you. He met you halfway, groaning again as you began to grind against his mouth, desperate and barely restrained. His grip tightened at your hips to anchor you as you moved above him, lost in the slow roll of your body and the delicious friction of it all.
“Fuck, Lew-” you gasped, your voice cracking.
His only response was a growl low in his throat, muffled, hungry, and thrilled at your reaction.
The room blurred. Firelight danced behind your eyelids, the tree twinkled in your periphery, but you couldn’t focus on anything except the wet heat of his mouth, the way his tongue flicked and curled through your slick folds, the way his hands guided your hips like he needed you more than air. His nose bumped your clit each time you rocked forward and you whimpered, thighs starting to tremble around his face, curls tangled in your fingers as your spine arched involuntarily.
You didn’t mean to cry out that loudly, but it tore out of you as the tension inside snapped. Your whole body shuddered, and you gripped his hair like a lifeline, hips jerking forward once, twice, before stilling as the pleasure crashed over you in wave after wave, hot and blinding, rushing down your spine and curling your toes against the rug. You slumped forward, chest rising and falling in jagged staccato, your hips twitching with the aftershocks.
Lewis remained there, still holding you through the aftershocks, still kissing you like he wasn’t finished yet.
You blinked down at him, vision still hazy, curls of his hair tangled between your fingers. Your voice came out hoarse, breathy, your lips parted in a dazed kind of smile.
“Baby…” you whispered, hips twitching when his mouth brushed you again, slower now.
His eyes flicked up, dark and full of mischief. You let out another soft sound, between a soft laugh and a moan, as your fingers ran through his curls again. He kissed your clit again slowly, more languid, like he couldn’t bear to let you go just yet.
“F-fuck, feels so good,” you whimpered when he drew another slow pass with his tongue, slowly building you back up.
When your head dropped back with a soft moan, the firelight kissed the side of your face, casting your skin in gold. His hands held you steady as your body slowly relaxed, warm, sated, trembling above him, lips parted, still trying to remember how to breathe. You felt wrecked in the most beautiful way, hair messy, thighs slick and aching, your heart pounding so hard it felt like a drumbeat in your throat.
He didn’t let go though, he just kissed you through it until you sobbed his name out, grasping at the couch to keep yourself steady as ecstasy blazed through your body, hips pressing your clit down against his mouth, the friction all too much.
You stayed like that for a moment, perched above him, legs barely holding you up, your skin warm and glowing, with his hands still anchored at your thighs like he couldn’t bear the distance.
After a few seconds, he eased out from beneath you, careful with your legs, brushing his hands along the back of your thighs as he moved. You let yourself tip forward, breath stuttering, bracing one hand on the couch cushion as the rest of you slumped. Your chest pressed into the edge, cheek resting against the cushion, limbs heavy and warm.
Behind you, Lewis gave you a moment, resting one hand gently on your lower back as if to anchor you to earth again, until he shifted, and you felt the solid press of him, bare, warm and ready again, sliding behind you.
A quiet gasp caught in your throat when you felt him nudge against your backside, already hard again, the thick weight of him undeniable as he leaned in to kiss the curve of your shoulder. His hand smoothed up your side, up the slope of your arm, until he found your hand gripping the cushion, and laced his fingers over yours.
“Think you can give me one more, baby?” he asked, his voice wrecked and dark, lips brushing your ear as he nudged closer, the tip of him teasing gently where your thighs met.
You nodded shakily, whispering a yes you barely heard yourself say.
He nudged his nose along your cheek and kissed it once. Then his hand came up, fingers curling at your jaw, tilting your face toward him. When he kissed you this time, it was slower, deeper, as though he was pouring everything he had into it, like he was trying to tell you something he didn’t have the words for.
You turned into it, lips parting as you melted into him. He kissed you again, and again, and you felt his breath hitch when your body arched slightly, pressing yourself closer. The soft fabric of your set rode up again, baring more skin to him. He groaned quietly into your mouth, hand sliding lower, before he lined himself up.
He kissed your shoulder again, then your neck, and slowly pushed inside.
The breath punched out of you in a stuttering exhale.
The stretch was so deep, thicker from this angle, and you clutched at the cushion beneath you with one hand while the other reached up and back, fingers blindly finding the curls at the nape of his neck. He groaned into your skin when you gripped them, and thrust a little deeper, slower, filling you until your hips met and there was nowhere else to go.
His hand shifted again, cradling your jaw and tilting your face toward him as he rocked into you again.
The engagement ring on your finger glimmered like a shard of starlight against the crushed cushions of the couch, glittering each time your hand jerked forward with the rhythm he set, a deep grind that stoked everything all over again.
“You feel so…” He couldn’t even finish the sentence, a growl in his throat.
You could feel him trying to hold it together behind you, his breath hot at your neck, fingers tightening over yours as he fucked into you slow and deep, every motion completely maddening in its control.
The world felt small. Just you, him, the golden flicker of Christmas lights tangled with the orange flicker of fire, and the slick sounds of your bodies moving together, his length soaked between your folds. The couch groaned beneath you, your voice tight in your throat, and all you could do was hold on, to him, to the rhythm, to the way this felt like something you’d been aching for far longer than you cared to admit.
“Fuck, that’s my wife,” he rasped against your skin, his hand stroking down your front, circling your clit.
Your fingers curled tighter into the sofa cushion at his words, tugging him closer to kiss his lips again, still gasping softly with every deep roll of his hips. Your ring was now slipping slightly down your knuckle from the force of your grip. His other palm was still cradling your jaw, thumb brushing just beneath your cheekbone, but his pace was starting to unravel, that perfectly restrained rhythm beginning to slip.
You felt the stammer in his breath. The twitch of muscle under your palm when you reached back blindly and pressed against his thigh. So you shifted, a subtle tilt of your hips, enough to change the angle before you threw it back on him in a hard, deliberate grind that made him swear against your skin, his hand flying down to grip your waist, like he needed the grounding or he’d lose his mind.
“Shit, baby…fuck-”
You didn’t stop though. You rocked your hips into him with purpose now, the sound of your ass clapping against his hips, matching his rhythm and then taking it over, letting him feel every inch, every squeeze, every stutter of your slick heat wrapping tight around him. You could feel how much he loved it in the way his hips stuttered, the way his fingers dug in. He was buried so deep it made your head spin, every movement pulling a choked moan from your lips.
His necklace dangled forward, brushing your spine as he leaned in closer, forehead pressed to the back of your shoulder, breath hot and trembling.
“I’m not gonna last if you keep doing that,” he hissed, and it came out broken, as though it hurt him to admit it.
You smirked through your own whimper and did it again, slow and deep, clenching around him just right, just to feel the ripple of restraint snap under his skin.
The hand on your jaw slid forward again, threading over yours where it still clutched the couch, and laced his fingers through yours. The other wrapped tight around your middle, keeping you flush to him as his thrusts grew harder now to catch back up to you, urgent, greedy, edged with that raw sound of someone right on the brink.
You were nearly there too, the steady friction of the fabric brushing your front, the full stretch of him hitting every place that made you tremble, it coiled sharp and hot inside you, ready to snap.
“Look at me,” he groaned, voice absolutely shredded.
You tried, turning your head slightly over your shoulder, and his eyes caught yours, wild, glassy, desperate, just as he pushed deep and held, twitching hard inside you.
He came with a gasp against your skin, one hand splayed flat over your stomach, the other still laced with yours, holding you to him while his hips pulsed in slow waves, filling you with creamy ribbons that dripped down your folds.
That’s what tipped you, the feeling of him buried deep, the heat of his breath, the sound of his voice breaking on your name, it sent you careening after him, gasping out a cry you barely recognised as your own, your body tightening and shaking with the force of it.
You slumped forward, panting against the cushions again, legs trembling, the aftershocks fluttering through you like a second heartbeat.
Lewis was still breathing hard when he pressed one last kiss between your shoulder blades and slowly, carefully, eased out of you. The motion made you shiver, sensitive and still shaky from the echo of it all, but his hands were there in an instant, one on your hip, the other steadying your thigh as he whispered softly.
“I’ve got you, sweetheart.”
You let him guide you, pliant in his touch as he gently turned you around and lowered himself to sit against the couch, legs stretched out on the rug, now warm beneath him. His hoodie lay somewhere in a heap beside the coffee table, the heat of the fireplace enough to keep you both warm without extra clothing. With a quiet pull, he drew you down into his lap, straddling him, skin to skin as the red set still clung high on your waist.
You melted into him, arms sliding around his shoulders, your cheek brushing against his, hearts still pounding in an almost matching rhythm. His hands found your back, fingers tracing lazy shapes along your spine like he never wanted to let go.
For a while, neither of you spoke.
You just stayed there, tangled together in the quiet. The fire crackled in the hearth, the faint scent of gingerbread still lingered in the air, sweetness clinging to your skin. Somewhere behind you, the fairy lights twinkled softly across the tree, casting little glimmers of colour on the ceiling. You could feel the press of his necklace against your collarbone, and your ring caught the firelight, a glint of diamond against the solid warmth of his chest.
That’s when you felt the shift. The one you’d been holding off for a couple of days, now pressing against your ribcage like a secret too big to hold inside anymore.
There, in the aftermath of it all, in the silence, in his arms, you didn’t want to wait any longer.
Not when everything felt this full, this right. Not when your whole body was still wrapped in the echo of how gently he’d touched you. Not when you could feel the future you’d both dreamed of, anchoring itself in the center of your chest.
You tipped your head back, brushing your nose along his until he turned his face to yours, and his lips met yours in a kiss that was softer this time, like a sigh into your mouth, gratitude, wonder, and devotion folded into a single breath.
When you pulled back, your gaze drifted over his shoulder, landing on the clock above the mantle.
11:57PM.
Almost a new day.
This wasn’t about the time though. It wasn’t about calendars or countdowns.
You’d known for a couple of days now, but something about this moment made it feel safe. Maybe it was the way he looked at you, like you were his whole world and more. Maybe it was the steady thrum of his heart beneath your hand, or the way he held you without needing to speak, like he already knew there was a tiny secret growing between you.
You couldn’t carry it alone any longer, you didn’t want to.
Your throat felt tight. Your heart knocked against your ribs like it wanted to jump out, and your fingers curled slightly into his shoulder.
“I…” you started, but the words came out too soft. So you cleared your throat gently, and tried again. “Lewis, I need to tell you something.”
His eyes found yours immediately with focus, as though the world could’ve caught fire behind you and he wouldn’t have blinked.
“Okay.” He nodded, already tucking your hair behind your ear, his thumb brushing against your cheek. “Tell me.”
The words were frozen in your throat, too afraid to escape, so you just looked at him.
This man who’d held every version of you over the past three years, the raw, the tired, the triumphant, the terrified. The one who stood you in front of a mirror and pointed out every part of you that he loved, when you’d been drowning in reasons he might leave. Who believed in you even when you couldn’t find your own footing. The man who filled every room he walked into, but had always made space for you in it. Who chose you, and this life with you, every single day.
Your fingers fidgeted gently where they rested over his heart, your touch featherlight, as though your body was trying to speak before your voice could. Your nails traced slow, uncertain shapes across the warm plane of his bare chest, each curve and edge drawing breathless paths into his skin. Beneath your palm, you felt the rhythm of his pulse, the one you’d come to know by heart after countless hours spent laying on his chest.
Steady, strong, grounding.
Until, a stutter. The rhythm shifted in a flutter beneath your hand, like his heart had tripped over itself, as if it already knew
Still, you hesitated, because this was big. Because it was forever.
Because part of you still remembered every doubt, every fear, every voice that had told you that your love was too intense, too much, but he had never flinched from any of it. He had chosen you through the storms and the stillness alike, and right now, looking at him, you knew he always would.
Still, the words tangled on your tongue.
“It’s…big,” you whispered with a shaky exhale. “And I know it’s soon. The wedding’s in five weeks, and I know we said we’d-”
“Hey,” he interjected softly, a furrow of concern between his eyebrows. “You’re not getting cold feet, are you?”
His hand rose slowly, cradling your jaw with that same devotion he always held you with. His thumb brushed the apple of your cheek, anchoring you back into the moment, back into him. There was a flicker of worry in his gaze, but only for a brief second, softened almost instantly by the curve of his lips, the way he was trying to make space for your heart to settle.
You let out a soft, breathless laugh that broke through the tension like the first chime of midnight on New Year’s Eve.
“No,” you replied instantly, shaking your head as your palm flattened again against his chest, right over his heart. “No, baby. Never.” You leaned in, brushing your nose against his as your whisper turned softer.
You stayed close, nose to nose, in a closeness that made the world around you dissolve, leaving only the soft light flickering across his cheekbones, your bare thighs still curled around his hips, your fingers tangled lightly in the curls at the nape of his neck. The rise and fall of his chest beneath your palm steadied you…but only just.
Because now that the moment was here, the words caught in your throat.
You swallowed once, then again.
Your mouth opened, only to close softly, lips brushing his as you faltered, your breath shivering against his skin. He stilled completely, sensing the shift, the tension, trembling behind your eye lashes.
“I’m trying,” you sighed, your voice barely holding shape. “I swear, I just…I don’t know why I’m finding it so hard to say.”
His hands didn’t leave you. One stayed cupped against your jaw, thumb brushing softly beneath your eye, while the other curled around your waist, his fingertips stroking the small of your back in quiet circles, anchoring you.
“Take your time,” he reassured you gently. “I’m not going anywhere.”
Your eyelashes fluttered, and your lip wobbled slightly. “It’s not bad,” you added quickly, voice cracking with a teary laugh. “It’s not bad, I promise. It’s just…big.”
He smiled in return, but the look in his eyes was all softness, all love. “Bigger than marrying me?”
You laughed again, this time a watery sound, and shook your head as tears finally gathered along your lower lashes, shimmering under the lights.
“No, nothing’s bigger than that.”
His hand moved to cradle the side of your face, the pad of his thumb catching a single tear as it slipped down, while his fingers traced the outer shell of your ear,
You let out another shaky exhale. Your hand came up to rest over his again, fingers threading between his gently, the warmth of his skin soothing your nerves slightly.
“I just love you so much,” you whispered, leaning in to press a trembling kiss to the corner of his mouth. “And I don’t want to mess it up, so I’ve been waiting for the right time…”
His lips brushed your temple, his voice thick now too. “Baby, whatever it is, please just tell me.”
Your heart was racing with a deep, thunderous pounding that seemed to echo through your entire body. You were acutely aware of it where your chest pressed against his, as if the force of it might give you away before you even spoke. Each breath felt shallow, too small for the fullness swelling inside you, the love, nerves, awe, fear, joy, all braided together until it almost hurt to hold.
You realised then that this was why you were telling him now. Not because it was perfect timing, or because it was planned, but because you were wrapped in the truth of him, held in the quiet aftermath of love, and you didn’t want to carry this alone for another second.
You could do this.
You leaned in just slightly, brushing your lips against his mouth softly, like a promise you were sealing before the words arrived. You felt his breath stutter faintly at the contact, then you pulled back just enough to speak.
Your voice was barely more than a whisper, fragile but sure, slipping into the space between you quietly.
“I’m pregnant.”
The words didn’t echo. They weren’t loud, or dramatic.
You felt the impact instantly though, the sharp intake of his breath, the way his entire body went utterly still beneath you, as though time had paused to let the truth settle.
His brown eyes widened, glassy in the firelight, fixed on your face like he was trying to take you in all at once. As though he was seeing you, and the future, rearrange itself right in front of him.
Then his mouth parted, his voice breaking slightly as it finally came.
“Are you-” He swallowed hard. “You’re serious?”
You nodded, tears spilling freely now, slipping down your cheeks without shame. Your smile trembled as you laughed softly through them, overwhelmed by the enormity of it all, your secret finally free from where you’d locked it away.
When he stayed quiet, your hand slid instinctively to your unchanged lower abdomen, a tiny flicker of guilt settling in. Your fingertips brushed the area with a tenderness, like you were holding the soft echo of a heartbeat that hadn’t yet begun.
“I’m sorry.” The words cracked under the weight of your breath. Your eyes dropped to your lap, lashes wet, voice barely audible over the crackle of the fireplace. “I know we said we’d wait. You’re still figuring things out with racing, and I didn’t mean for this to happen, I didn’t-”
“Hey.” His voice cut through immediately, like gravity pulling you back from the spiral.
His thumb caught your tear before it could fall, his touch warm and steady.
“Don’t say that,” he continued, firmer this time. His brows were drawn with conviction, a soft outrage on your behalf. “Don’t ever apologise for something this beautiful.”
You blinked at him, lips trembling under as your throat tightened. The lump there made it hard to speak, but you still needed to know.
“Are you…” Your voice faltered again, almost drowned out by the rush of blood in your ears, by the pounding of your heart against his chest. “Are you happy?”
A smile spread across Lewis’ face, as though it had been built from the centre of his chest outward. His eyes shimmered with a glassy sheen, and when he finally let the breath go, it sounded like a laugh, like disbelief wrapped in joy.
“Am I-” He shook his head softly, breathless. “Baby, I’ve never been more happy in my whole fucking life.”
That completely broke you, tears pouring out faster, warm, unfiltered, but your smile came too, radiant, stretched wide across your lips. A soft sound escaped you, between a laugh and sob, as your forehead fell against his, your fingers threading into his curls. He laughed too, watery and soft, his arms wrapping tighter around you like he could fold the whole moment into his chest and keep it there forever.
“You’re really carrying our baby?” he asked in disbelief, as though the words tasted different the second time.
“Yeah, I am.” You nodded through your tears.
Lewis closed his eyes for a moment, as though he was imprinting this moment into his memories. He reached for where your other hand laid on his chest, and covered it with his own, lacing his fingers gently through yours, holding both of you in the quiet storm of emotion swelling between heartbeats.
His palm was warm and steady, a quiet vow in its own right.
Then, without a word, he leaned in again, like he wanted to remember it, and pressed his lips to yours, in a kiss that spoke all the words he couldn’t say without breaking. That he was here, that he wasn’t going anywhere. That you’d never be alone in this, not for a single moment.
You could feel the emotion swelling in him too, in the way his hand trembled slightly against yours, in the way he exhaled shakily when he pulled back to rest his forehead against yours.
“I love you,” he whispered, his voice crackly and thick with adoration. “God, I love you.”
You felt it in every inch of your soul, so you nodded as your fingers tightened in his.
“I love you too,” you breathed.
Slowly, he brought your joined hands down between you and pressed them both against your lower belly, as though he wanted your tiny baby to feel the weight of that love too. As though he needed the three of you to be touching, connected, wrapped together in this perfect, surreal moment.
He stayed there for a second, breathing you in, his thumb brushing softly over your knuckles, before he let out a laugh. A soft, disbelieving huff of breath that shook his chest beneath your palm, pure joy pouring through every inch of it. His forehead tipped forward until it rested against yours again, curls brushing your skin as his voice dropped to a whisper.
“Best Christmas ever.”
The fire continued to sway behind you, while the tree blinked quietly in the corner, and with his hand still warm over yours, over the tiniest beginning of forever, you closed your eyes and let yourself melt completely into him.
Your wedding was in five weeks.
Tomorrow, Lewis’ family would fill his mum’s house with laughter, noise, and far too many questions you weren’t ready to answer just yet, but none of that mattered tonight.
For now, in this quiet, glowing moment before morning came, you just held him.
And let the magic last a little longer.
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