#failed med4

[meaningfulprocrastination]

Today is the first day of Med5. My friends start classes today. But here I am, at home, lost, confused, scared, and dont know what to do. I have to admit I am jealous. But it is what it is. They passed their exams and I did not, even though I worked so hard through the year. Maybe I did not work hard or smart enough. No matter, I will soldier on. I am not a quitter. I want to be a doctor and I will be a doctor. I have to repeat Med4 again, so that is what I'll do. The situation I am in is not permanent, it will pass and I will be a doctor. Someday. One day. I just wish that day will come sooner.

[meaningfulprocrastination]

My last few hours on Australian soil. I can't believe I have been here for 5 years. 5 years - a huge chunk of my life. Oh well, everything comes to an end. My time here is up, no point in looking back now. Onwards to new adventures.

[meaningfulprocrastination]

Someday

So I'm returning back to my home country. I failed my exams, and so I am returning back to my home country. I am leaving Australia. I can't believe I'm leaving this beautiful country without a degree. This is not supposed to happen. This is not the plan. I was supposed to study, graduate, be a doctor, get a job, and live a life. Here. Or maybe New Zealand. Anywhere, just not my home country. I don't see myself living in my home country. I don't see my future there. She will always be home, I will always love her, but somehow, I just can't see myself living there. No matter, I'll soldier on. What other choice do I have? This is just a small hiccup in my journey. I will graduate. I will be a doctor. It doesn't matter where I graduate from, all that matters is that someday, I will be a great doctor. I keep telling myself this, I keep repeating it over and over again. Hopefully someday I'll believe it. But for now, I guess I'm heading home to my own country. Someday, someday in the future, I will venture out again. Someday.