#faixfaddy

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I dreamt that I dreamt you went for some major surgery and currently recovering without you telling me.

So in that dream, I went to find you and visited you & saw that indeed you were recovering from some surgery.

You asked me how I knew, I said I dreamt about it & you were amazed but not surprised because why? You're a believer of Allah swt & you know He can do so much unexplained things.

If this dream is telling me something about what you're facing then May Allah swt grant you ease. Aamiin.

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Thank You

You asked me why i was so sad, was i not happy to see you? Because you were happy to see me.

Of course i was happy to see you, even though it was just in a dream. Even Nusaybah was happy to see you in that dream, she woke up from her sleep in the dream to run to you and tell me "I wan to sleep with aunty Zani" . Which i told her "Aunty Zani has to go to work soon".

In my half wake, half sleep state. I could hear Naila (2nd born) coughing in real life & for a moment i saw you there, pushing up your jacket sleeves like you always do, then carrying Naila to comfort her. I went back to sleep again for a moment, knowing Naila was in safe hands then realised that was not possible, and i woke up for real.

And then for the first time in a long time, i let it out. The sobbing cry, while prepping Naila's milk.

I was grieving, still am. Grieving the loss of you, even though you're probably still alive and well somewhere, i hope. In sha allah.

May Allah swt give you strength to carry on with life despite it being hard for you, may Allah swt ease your affairs and always protect you. Aamiin.

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I dreamt about her.

I was at her workplace with my 1st daughter.

Not sure what we were doing there but thats all i remember.

She was my ex, then a close family friend, my daughter's favourite person. Then she had to be away, to heal. Didn't hear from her for some time.

Recently, had some misunderstanding and just decided to stay away and give her that space she needs.

And thats it.

My daughter still mentions her sometimes. But in order to not give high hopes to my daughter about seeing her favourite aunty zani again, i had to stop speaking about her to my daughter.

May Allah swt ease all our affairs. Aamiin.