He remembers the stories that had been told--of the great Rebellion, of his brother’s fall from grace. He remembers reading Milton’s Paradise Lost and finding it curious how closely it mirrored the tales told up Above. He remembers the comparative youth he experienced, afraid and hateful for his brother, as all angels were wont to do. His Father, when faced with questions He could not answer, turned Castiel away and for a time--this made him resentful. But he was an angel, a soldier, and he would fight the good fight.
Until the good fight led to ruination--until it led to death and much of it. He remembers one of his Father’s earliest condemnations, Ye Shall Learn Of Nothing But Grace And Mortality, For Ye Exhibit One and Humanity The Other. It was his mantra for a time, until it wasn’t. Until Angel Radio turned into a thousand little screams in his head and all he could hear was death--and none of his Father, his Father who was now absent. And still he obeyed--still he obeys, even now, faced with the Rebel, his Brother, the Light Bringer himself. All these years and all these deaths, the angel of Thursday-that-was had for Lucifer the same question he had asked Father, all that time ago.
Contemplative and quiet, but not meek-- ‘ Why? ’
@fallaen the throne has clawed its way into my consciousness and i shall take it