I literally drew so much porn and jacked it so much I gave myself a Condition
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I literally drew so much porn and jacked it so much I gave myself a Condition
I just have to say I’m really grateful for the followers I’ve gotten in the past few months, it’s nice to know people enjoy my art! That sounds super obvious like of course that’s a good thing but in the past couple of years having a full time day job I really haven’t set aside as much time to draw as I used to, and for the past 5 months I’ve been struggling with bad chronic nerve and muscle pain in my arm and shoulder. Now the fact I draw less frequently isn’t because I just don’t feel like it but because it hurts!
But that has kind of made drawing more precious to me, every time I draw, even if it isn’t anything particularly impressive, I’ve gotten to do something I enjoy that I really can’t do a lot right now. Drawing also takes me longer now too, though more likely that’s just because I’m out of practice. So when you guys all like and reblog and comment and everything on any of the things I’ve made recently it means a lot. I know generally you only see the end product but to me it feels like you’re cheering me on for the entire effort that went behind it.
I really appreciate everyone who has commissioned me lately too, I know every artist has different pacing anyways but I feel like I’ve gotten so slow, yet everyone has been so patient with me! It makes me want to practice and get better and faster at drawing, and take care of myself too.
Please take care of your bodies, listen to it, when you’re in pain it’s trying to tell you something is wrong. Even if you’ve had a mild pain for years doing something it can suddenly backslide into something worse. And PLEASE exercise!! It doesn’t have to be anything crazy, but I might not have this problem if I worked out my shoulders, arms, and core on a regular basis!
Anyway that’s my long semi-rambly post :]
3 balls inside?? yeah, there's about to be a couple more...
you guys don't even get it i can't draw OR jack off cause i fucked up my arm so bad
I have to remind myself sometimes that I am in fact autistic and disabled and it's not some kind of complete moral failing to take a day or two off of a full time day job cause I don't feel up to it
this could sound backwards at first but having a partner that is not into the same thing as you but just likes seeing you horny is...in itself kind of hot. they're not into the same kinks/fetishes but they have such easy control over me cause they can just bring it up and I'm immediately embarrassed and it's easy to get me worked up with minimal effort on their part.
I love and worship parts of them that other people probably wouldn't think of. like watching them lick a plate clean. and I think I'm slick and not making it blatantly obvious how much I love seeing them love food, so they use it against me for shits and giggles and I can't help but feel excited.
some of it isn't even kinky I think seeing someone you love enjoy themselves is really nice too. coming from someone who recovered from a restrictive ED I love to see someone enjoy food without a semblance of guilt, and you can tell they've never had that kind of anxiety over what they eat. someone naturally engaging in intuitive eating is great I want people to love themselves and enjoy food!
doctor said I'm a good boy and I eat my din dins
going on a run and then eating a slice of cake is really living out my faux fit-to-fat exjock "where did all of this weight come from?!" fantasies