big man told me tonight that i'm not fat and shouldn't call myself that (not even if i were bigger) so had to explain to him that it's not an insult but just a descriptor. teaching the music men of the world about body neutrality one man at a time. anyway then i was weird at him again but i shan't beat myself up over it cos that is how i get a psychotic episode. at the end of the day (it's night) he is nice and i like him












