To Be Loved Is to Be Changed (whatever that means) || Gabe Froehner, FASA's 2023-2024 Co-Social Chair
After years of having felt restricted by the rural nature of his hometown, Gabriel became somewhat averse to change. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to change, but he wasn’t necessarily ready for it—he was afraid of what change would mean for him.
But still, Gabriel came into college with many expectations. He expected to find people he could look up to and learn from (1), he expected to pursue new interests he couldn’t back at home (2), and he also expected to be in a relationship (3). However, despite all these expectations, he didn’t expect to become active in the Filipino American Student Association. He also didn’t expect that this organization would be the place where he'd fulfill all his expectations, and perhaps it is where he would learn to understand what change really means.
The day of Festifall was before Gabriel would be worried about the potential risks of sun exposure without sunscreen, and it was certainly a day that should’ve raised some concern. The sun’s rays pierced through the surface of his neck, the skin emanating heat whenever he rubbed it for some brief relief. Despite his discomfort, Gabriel felt rather ambitious. Now a sophomore, he had become more open to the idea of exploring new interests after a shaky first year. He walked through masses of people, passed through crowded tables, and grabbed whatever the organizations had to offer until he spotted a very familiar flag in the distance. It was attached to a particularly tall stick with blue and yellow bands, which was being held by a particularly tall, presumably half-Filipino man. He had found the Filipino American Student Association’s table.
Gabriel had somewhat of a rough start with FASA. When he was a freshman, he wanted to attend the FASA Fall Mass Meeting, but since COVID was still an issue, spots were limited, and the RSVP had closed before he was able to fill it out. That semester, he would only attend Tinik at the Diag where Shane Yamco, that year’s Treasurer, refused to take his membership dues because of “rules” and “policies.” Because of the false belief that one had to be a paid member in order to attend FASA events, a belief that could’ve been prevented if he filled out the Mass Meeting RSVP any earlier, perhaps he would’ve become active in FASA from the start. But because of this, Gabriel would only start being active in FASA during the winter semester.
Gabriel's First FAM Lin Reveal
Now at their Festifall table, Gabriel mentally prepared some questions. He regretted not being very active in FASA when he was a freshman and was worried if it was too late to do so. He went up to one of the people at the table and gave some background about his experience of FASA and asked, “How can I become more active?” The person he talked to, Amanda, who he later learned was the co-president of FASA at the time, responded, “Literally just show up to everything.” And so he did. He would show up to almost every FASA event that year (4), he would attend KK’s, he would go to FACT, he would become a FASA intern, he would go to Battle (5), and he would help run the intern capstone, and he would later be on board as Social Chair.
Gabriel hadn’t expected that sophomore year would pass by so quickly. He came into FASA with such a warped perspective that it was sometimes hard to process his surroundings as well as his identity in FASA. It felt strange to him that he was suddenly in such a major role as Social Chair. But regardless of his inability to process his new circumstances, he still enacted upon the vision he had for FASA.
Social Chair had a reputation for being one of the more demanding positions. Gabriel prepared himself for this by only taking 12 credits his fall semester of his junior year. Unfortunately, even with this precaution and the best co he could’ve ever asked for, his first full semester of being Social Chair was quite the struggle. His time management, organization, and communication skills were put to the test, and from his perspective, it felt that he was barely holding on. He was afraid of how people, especially his fellow board members, perceived his abilities and work ethic, further adding to the mental stress. He had doubts about whether he was even worthy of his position.
But over time, he began to understand how to properly navigate his role on FASA Board. With his co, they felt that they had found a balance. Social Chair was indeed a lot, but they knew that they were the Social Chairs. Gabriel finally acknowledged the importance of his position, and a new sense of confidence emerged. He had even led a social event by himself when his co wasn’t able to be there, and he realized that he had a place on FASA Board after all.
Epilogue
Whenever I look back and think about who I used to be, I can’t help but think of that version of myself as a completely different person. Sometimes it’s hard to believe people can change so much. It’s so interesting to think about how I’d have to mentally prepare myself before attending or planning a FASA event when now it feels so natural. Now, I love that I can look forward to seeing the people of FASA almost every day, whether it be through the events, KKs, Board, the Fishbowl, or anywhere else, I love that we’re able to have such a close-knit community, I love that I was able to be a part of it and make an impact as Social Chair through hosting events, managing P.O.T.T.E.R., and pitting the FAMs against each other, and I love that I was able to be a part of such an amazing Board (6).
As Social Chair, I realized how easy it is to become critical of oneself in hindsight. This is something me and Izzy experienced after almost every event we hosted, and perhaps even now there is some residual negativity. But it’s also easy to see how much fun people had during the events, and I think this is what made being Social Chair feel so rewarding. We recognize the impact we had on FASA, and we are so grateful to have had this opportunity. Perhaps this is partly due to sunk-cost fallacy with all the lows and highs of being a Boardie, but I truly believe that despite my initial struggle, my time as Social Chair was well spent, and I wish I could do it all over again.
Well, perhaps not.
But you know what I mean 😋
Footnotes
(1) Amanda and Celeste Amanda, you may have been the reason why I became so active in FASA in the first place. You had such a welcoming vibe when I met you which further encouraged me to become active. I am so grateful I was able to talk to you that day. Celeste, I feel like I really got to know you through the intern program. If I’m honest, I used to be a little intimidated by you, but through our many intern meetings, outside interactions, and our trip to Battle, I really appreciate your presence and your sincerity. You both were such great leaders for FASA and you were great mentors for us during the intern program, and even though I don’t see you two that often anymore, I feel like you both had such a strong influence on FASA that it still seems to reside within the organization today.
Adrian Hi Kuya (AJ). Having a kuya who used to be Social Chair and is also FAM Head feels interesting not going to lie. I appreciate all the guidance you’ve given to me with your unique perspective, and it’s helped me so much. I might not entirely understand what it means to have a sibling, but I think if I were to have a kuya, it makes so much sense for it to be you.
Jolene and Autumn I’m not sure if y’all are reading this, but I really wanted to write this anyway. Jolene, I know we’ve had our differences, but I really appreciated having you as an ate. After being sorted into Bakunawa, I feel like you really encapsulated what our lineage was all about (and that happens to be many things). Autumn, I really wish I had the opportunity to talk to you more. You might be one of the kindest people I’ve ever met, and I think if I became active in FASA earlier, we could’ve been good friends. After my coffee chat with you two, I felt that I learned so much about FASA, and I felt that I got to know you both as well. You two were the inspiration for so much of my vision for FASA, and I’m so grateful that I had the opportunity to meet you.
Emily Paras Even though I started becoming active in FASA my winter semester of freshman year, I never met you during that time. So when I met you during the Buwan ng Wika picnic last year, I thought it was so surprising that you were on Board. During that picnic, I learned so much about FASA and Board from you, and even though I was still a bit nervous about going to FASA events, I felt so much comfort talking to you. You made me feel that everyone has a place in FASA, and I thank you so much for that.
(2) I never would have expected to learn about my culture in college. Having gone to the Filipino parties in my area, I falsely believed that I learned all that I needed to know. After having immersed myself in the many cultural aspects of the Philippines that FASA explores, I now know how much there is to learn. I learned dances, history, songs, Filipino words and phrases, and so much more. I love that FASA allowed me to explore parts of my culture that I was never able to before.
(3) LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
(4) I got COVID during the beginning of fall semester, so I was not able to go to mass meeting 😔I finally went to my first fall mass meeting when I was a junior though!!! (because I was running it)
(5)
10/10, would get left behind in a Speedway again.
(6) Let’s go in constitutional order for this one.
Alyssa Even though we both got sorted into the same lineage, at the start of our term, I still felt that I didn’t know you that well. Over time, I got to know you a bit more. I realized how naturally you conduct yourself as a leader, and I really admire that. I’m glad to have had my kambal as President.
Bryson I was really looking forward to working with you after elections. Even though the only thing we had in common was League, there was something about you that made me envision you as president. You helped make Board feel like such a fun and safe space, and I love that even though you were President, you contributed to FASA as if you were still Performance Chair.
Nicole I really appreciate how you are the comic relief of Board. You cheer everyone up with your presence, and it’s understated how much work you put in as Secretary. You were always so on top of it and able to fulfill our needs as Board. Although I’m sad we were never able to get WMPR as a room, perhaps the real WMPR was the friends we made along the way.
Andrew I was a bit nervous to be working alongside you this year. I was worried you would hold us to a higher standard since you were previously Social Chair, but I appreciate that you put some distance between us but gave us guidance when we needed it. I’m also glad we got to know each other a bit more. I now know you’re just a silly lil guy, and I really do think I could beat you in a fight 😛
Philip After meeting you at the Buwan ng Wika picnic last year, I had a feeling our paths would cross again eventually. I love that I was able to work alongside you for one and half years. I really admire how you remain composed and kind to everyone, even when a certain someone might be instigating. There’s so much to your personality, and it’s been fun continuously learning about you throughout my time in FASA.
[L]izzy I’m so grateful to have been an intern because if I hadn’t, I may have never gotten so close to you. You’re so kind to everyone, you’re so sincere, and you have such a powerful presence, and I appreciate all of it. Whenever I see you, I feel so comforted, so I always look forward to seeing you. P.S. Sorry for making meowing a habit 🐱
[M]izzy I’m so glad to have had you as my co. We supported each other through the ups and downs of being Social Chair, and this made the term so much easier. It was so enjoyable planning every event with you while we would get random songs stuck in each other’s heads. Whenever I felt stressed and we met up to work on events, you reminded me how much fun being Social Chair can be. I’m glad we started as friends and still remained friends until the end.
Eli There’s so much to you, Eli. Your honesty, your silliness, your passion, I admire all of it. I admire how you were able to say what others couldn’t, I admire how wild you can be sometimes, and I admire how much effort you put into the projects you care so much about. You have such a contagious energy, and I’ll miss it after my time on Board is over.
Therese I feel like I never truly appreciated how kind you are. You compliment so many people on Board well, and you have been such a great boardie to work with. I feel like we as an organization have been able to accomplish so much because of you and Sofia.
Sofia Out of all the board members, I probably know you the least. But regardless, I think you’re such a funny person, and I appreciated your presence on Board. I really admire your work ethic and your dynamic with your co, and it’s clear how much you give for this organization.
Kendra I first got to know you through Adrian’s PCN dance last year. I remember learning why you became invested in FASA, and I admired you because of that. After that, I knew if you were to run for Board, I would be quick to support your endeavors. I appreciate how much work you and Ash have put into FASA; it’s really amazing what you two have been able to accomplish in just a year.
Ash Hey bro. Learning about you has been really interesting. Even though we were interns together, I never would’ve thought we’d become close. I suppose it’s been somewhat of a recent development, but I’m glad I was able to become closer friends with you. I love how much passion you put into FASA, and I also love the little dances I’d learn from you.
Zainab There’s so much I admire about you. I admire your professionalism, your aura, your work ethic, and your humor. I feel like you really put the “P” in “PD.” Even though we’re in the same grade, sometimes I find myself looking up to you. Well, that is until you say “meow” for your one-word check-in during Board. P.S. I also apologize making meowing a habit for you as well 🐱
Taryn Even though we don’t know each other that well, whenever I talk to you, it feels like we’ve been friends for a really long time. You always make me laugh, and you’re such a bright presence to have on Board. Even though my term with you will be over soon, I hope I’ll still have the opportunity to get to know you better.
Kayla It took a long time for it to register that you were my ate. Now, I realize how comfortable I am speaking to you about literally anything, as if you really were my ate. I’m grateful that I was able to work with someone like you. You’ve been such an important part of Board. You always give us your input and advice, and I’ve learned so much from you throughout our term.
Epilogue Pt. 2
When I started becoming active as a sophomore. I remember being distraught that I wasn’t able to be on Board with my fellow sophomores. But now, I think being on a Board as a junior makes so much sense. If I hadn’t, I may have never gotten to know you all. As a Board, we have done so much together; looking back, I can’t believe we thought it would all be feasible, let alone make it all happen. I thank you all for making my time on FASA Board so enjoyable and worthwhile. After writing all of this and remembering how much I loved my time on Board, perhaps I retract my previous statement of not wanting to do it all over again.
Who knew people could change so quickly.








