A WARM HEART BUT CAN SHE HEAR IT BEATING ? he wants to object , wants to tell her of all the bad things he’s let himself dream of . but she looks at you , with warmth , like you’re the sun ——– and she’s desperate to feel something . so he won’t disagree , because he has nothing to give / nothing but the swelling in his chest , nothing but the butterflies that keep him light . so if he has nothing to give to her , he could do this . but your gut , how it twists , how you long ———– ( for something more ? something less ? ) because , god / if anything he said was real , this colossal feeling , this downright , stampede in his chest , IT HURT . ❝ i don’t know vee , sometimes it feels like someone’s dropped an anvil on my chest .. ❞ because that poor little mortal heart loved so damn easily . because , he could never keep it in check / because his emotions got the better of him . that’s the thing though . vampire , mortal , witch ——- and whatever the hell else was out there .. it didn’t matter to him . ❝ i thought i couldn’t live without sabrina . until one day , i just .. i did . and i don’t want to make the same mistakes again . i don’t want to wait until it’s too late , because i’ve been … ❞ for lack of a better word ? his lips pursed , jaw clicking , loosening the muscles . ❝ i've been pretty damn selfish . ❞
his shoulders shrug , and that tight knot kinks in the back of his throat again . ❝ i don’t want to end up —— disappointing anyone . . ❞ especially you , he thinks / he swallows . because disappointing veronica , would gut him from the inside . she was GOOD . and not in the conventional sense of the word . ❝ sometimes i just wish . ❞ he chewed the words around , because … regret was a heavy drug . ❝ sometimes i wonder what it would be like , to turn it all off . but then i remember --------- i could never forget you , veronica . ❞