ashley_waterman_ Come out of a dance class and who do I see?!? OUR LORD AND FREAKING SAVIOR CHLOE LUKASIAK. This girl is seriously mine and @libbiswan freaking life. And seriously, what a kind, stunning, caring and beautiful human! ( also Sarah from the select team was beautiful too. Love you girl.) CHLOE YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE TOP OF OUR PYRAMID.
They’re going to end up in more than tears someday
Feb 13 2017
Feb 13 2017
J upset
(So I was advised to catch up on some tapes, so today we started with the 13th. That was Stella’s pick. )
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“A little circle.
You’re taking your time
That looks like Jakk! (these beginning lines are about how each person had a different signature with the pendulum. Stella spun in a circle, jakk moved like he had his pockets full of change, etc.)
(Laughs)
But Jakk usually comes in through Stella. (This was how it was originally presented to me that Jakk could psychically talk to me; he would go through Stella. Apparently because of their past-life connection.)
….
It’s 8:30 In the morning.
(Softly) is this Jakk?
Hi.
Are you doing ok?
…
Is that a no…?
What’s going on ?
….
What’s going on?
Is it blond?
….
You just have to know that it’s all gonna be over in nine weeks. Nine weeks from tomorrow. It doesn’t matter what she says or what she does. Listen to me, OK? OK? In nine weeks from tomorrow, it’ll all be over.
And you’re gonna be spending most of your time at work anyway.
And after the 17th we’ll be able to see each other. After April 17th. And….I know she’s trying to break us down, I know she’s trying to break you down.
And let her think that she has, let her think that she has. Let her think that she’s won. But you’ve got me and you’ve got Stella and you’ve got the spirits and you’ve got work. And I think the hardest part is going to be the weekends, when she’s home during the day, and so what you have to do is you have to get to work early, and spend as little time… You just have to not be with her at all. Do you have days off from work, is that what happened? Is that why you’re… Beaten up? So what you need to do is you need to ask Random to help you. And I wasn’t around at all yesterday because… I didn’t check on you at all yesterday because I was working. I mean I asked Stella “is Jakk doing OK… “ Yeah, yesterday was my first day of really working. And you need to make her think that… Tell her that I got a roommate or something I don’t know. But what you need to do babe… I know you’re what you call a casual atheist, but… And you’re gonna do what you want with what you want with this information but the only way that I’m getting through this, is I’m doing what God tells me to do. And you need to rely on the spirits, because Blond is a very disturbed woman, and she’s out for blood. And we still have nine weeks to go. And the only way for us to get out of the situation….the lengths that she’s willing to go to to keep you in that marriage and to keep us apart and not let us communicate, it’s like mind blowing.
So that’s what I say. Ask random and we just have to make sure that we have our.. that we connect with our sexual practice every day, and we’re gonna have to figure out something different for…, For the weekend, because you need something to sustain you. Did you see what Beyoncé did on the Grammys? No. you need to see it. Because Stella and I were watching it before we went to bed last night, and just happen to… It was on Facebook and she loves Beyoncé and I feel very strongly about that album and she said some thing about… “The magician, because you are the magician. And you cut me in half and you’ll put me back together and if we are going to heal let it be glorious”, and Stella started freaking the fuck out and I was sobbing. And Stella was like “See? See?” She was saying that it was a sign. Beyoncé singing that on stage was a sign for us. You have to watch it. Number one you have to watch it because it’s really beautiful and amazing and she’s pregnant, and the spirits are working through me. I went to the tree and I asked her to good customers, and I got two good customers and I made $500 as magdalene. I’m gifted, I’m having an experience. It’s gonna be OK. we’re gonna get through this. You don’t have a love like ours and not get to be together. It’s…it’s not that you were a coward, it was that you were protecting me. And you couldn’t tell me because she would’ve had me killed. I mean,… I understand. It wasn’t until you said that her father was connected to the Jewish mafia… That you had said it along time ago and it popped into my brain. And God came to me the other day because random was showing me the high priestess reversed and Random was saying “you’re gonna have to come to terms with your actions, and her pregnancy is going to come undone and she’s going to go crazy and she’s gonna kill her self and that’ll be on you”…and I was like…. Fuck!
and then God came to me and I was like “look I was told by the spirits to do that”. He’s like “no we did not want her to have that baby, you were told”…he’s like “You’re cleared. You did what we told you to do, she’s not supposed to have that baby, that’s her karma.” So… Whether it feels like it or not, we are fairly innocent in this game, Jakk. We just fell in love. (Looking for his picture) Where are you? Oh your pictures over there. We just fell in love. you know? Who were friends to each other, you were my friend, I was your friend who tried to point out that you didn’t have the best relationship, and that she was kind of controlling, and I kind of love you a lot, you know? And I just wanted to be with you. And I was willing to fight for it. We just knew we wanted to be together. We knew we wanted a full-time relationship.
She was not good to you and every single reader who ever read us said that she yelled at you a lot and that she got this low self-esteem in you. And she made you think I was bad. She made you think the things that I taught you to want were bad. But they’re not. Drugs are not bad in moderation..sex is not bad in moderation..enjoyment is not bad in moderation. We get to be happy.
We do. And will get there we just have two more months. Laughs. Two more months, nine more weeks. Don’t worry. Just what does she think, she thinks that… Does she know that you’re gonna divorce her?
No she just doesn’t know when. Well wait until after her birthday. I mean I guess the thing to do is like wait until April 1..for like four weeks before the 17th. Five weeks before the 17th ..that seems right. So march 13th is when you should file. Right?. Are you gonna go somewhere else once you file? Yes? Do you know where you’re going to go yet? You do? Lauren’s? Did Lauren move back? Good. Does lauren know that we’re going to be together? March 13. A Monday. Again… I always saw you going on a Monday. Whoa. Go on March 13. Was that you waking me up in the middle of the night? I woke… In the middle of the night, in the middle of the night, I woke up, I was on my back, my hand was in the air with the pendulum up, swinging. (Laughing). Is that what you were trying to tell me? That you were… Oh babe. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry. What happened yesterday?
She was just being sadistic? They said that, they said that if I start to go to the tree and on one of the tree rituals, if I put my hands on the tree, you can start channeling stuff to me and I can start to hear the thoughts in your head. because I told God that I wanted to hear you better.
I love you so much. I can’t hear you right now. Do you want me to go to the tree. Well the first tree Has to be the normal one but the second tree will be yours. I think what I’m gonna do is… It’s 9 o’clock. I’m going to get dressed, I’m going to get coffee, then Stella and I are going to walk to the bank. Don’t worry. You probably feel this way because we didn’t get to… Can’t you go back to a six day work week?
You probably feel that way because we didn’t get to have sex. So I’m gonna go get coffee do the ritual walk to the bank, and then… And then (starts laughing ) did you see me kiss you? Oh my God I did a session on the guy who owns storytellers from VH1 he liked me a lot. It’s gonna be OK. I’m going to work it out. People love me as magdalene. People love it When I tell them I haven’t had sex in seven months cause I’m waiting for my boyfriend to be divorced.. they are like, “is he waiting?” I I’m like “I think so. “. Are you waiting? How do I explain to them that we have sex every day? OK so I’m gonna go to the bank and go get coffee, go to the tree, come back…we’ll do our ritual, sex ritual, and then you can go to work and then I’m gonna go to the tree again probably or maybe I’ll go to the tree while you’re at work and that’s when I’ll channel you. OK? OK. Do you feel a little better? Watch the Beyoncé thing. I wish you could go with us to get coffee. One day, before your birthday. I love you. It’s gonna be OK. I mean… You revived me it’s getting better. Today what I want you to work on is …I want you to work on sending me what happened this weekend. I want you to send that to me in the tree today. even though it will be hard I want you to send it so I can get it. All right? And I’ll try to clear some of it out of your body. After sex! I love you try to get more sleep if you can. Well actually go to the tree with us first. OK bye.
J daytime after tree 2/13/17
(Heroes is playing as the tape starts.)
Jack… I saw what Blond said to you and it’s not true. Jack none of it’s true. None of it’s true. I don’t let anyone touch my pussy, and I don’t have sex with anyone. I haven’t had sex! Since July because I’m waiting for you and I hardly ever have sex anyways because you’re the only one I want to have sex with. You’re the only one you know that and she’s just trying to hurt you. She’s trying to… She’s trying to make you believe that I’m a whore because I do sacred work. Because you guys don’t have what we have. And she has deep hatred for what we have. she always has and she’s trying to hurt you and make you believe that I’m something that I’m not. But you know what I am. Look at me. You know who I am. And that’s why it’s so hard to be apart. there was even a time that I would’ve let her in, I would’ve let her be a part of us. Before I realized.
Yeah, it hurt me to hear everything she said. What are you saying? I’m trying to hear you. Yes. That’s what this is. Yes: it’s her sickness and her jealousy. This isn’t gonna be the last time that she’s gonna do something like this. BBut what you’ve got to do is you have hold on to me and to stella and to random.
Even though in physicality, you are in your apartment… You still have to hold on to the fact that energetically we are together do you hear what I’m saying? This is important and you need to really take it in you have now shifted into your energetic body. You’ve shifted into your magical body. This is now a different Jakk this is no longer just like… This is not just a jakk you were in 2016, this is the Jakk who is always with me whenever we are having sex. you are somehow wearing this energetic body all the time. you feel that right? Yeah. That happened somehow in 2017 partially did you get to watch the Beyoncé thing yet? You saw it right? It’s like …She called it in. And this is about us and that’s why Stella got so excited when Beyoncé said it on the stage she was like oh shit this is really happening so what I have to say is that you just have to… Whatever Blond says it doesn’t matter what week of the pregnancy she’s in it does not fucking matter because that baby is not going to come. That baby, he’s not coming. It’s not meant. And you need to hold that you know and this is what you really need to work on every single day take a little time to work on your self healing and work on this with Stella, let Stella take you for a walk with your dog, as much as you need to work on the restaurant you need to be working on the healing when you’re not working with me. And this is part of your job and getting through the next nine weeks. This will help you build up your reserves against her attempt to break you down. We’re not gonna let her break us down.
She can think she is getting her away, let her think she’s getting her way. But then March 13 or 15th or or whatever date you decided on comes , you fucking file. This isn’t working anymore and you file and get Laurie in your corner. maybe be in communication with Laurie before hand I don’t know how you’re going to work that shit out… But I think the important thing to do right now because it’s 1 o’clock..this is the end of my peptalk I’ll go to the tree every day for the second ritual, and you can send whatever thoughts you want to send to me.
(At this point in the tape I start “preparing “for our sex ritual. But let’s leave it at it gets uncomfortable, and I wasn’t ready to talk about what I heard. Also, to be clear—— I was told I would be able to “hear” jakk’s thoughts clearer in the tree, and when I got there, I was told a bunch of slanderous things that Blond had said about me that were affecting how he viewed me. That’s sort of set up, the bait and switch, was happening all the time.) 
I want to have fun But in the back of my mind Responsibilities claw And mangle my mind Laughter turns to hyperventilation Only if I could realize it doesn't exist
