Immensely disappointed with how the feedism community feels less and less like the hedonistic oasis that bonds and connects us all on a deeper level that we long for , a part of The human experience... And more and more like a shallow arena built on competition where we throw shallow compliments to those who gain weight but have no actual desire to know them past their weight. A lifeless soulless capitalistic attention grab to fill ego rather than actually connect with a feeder / admierer and build something beautiful with. Why are we all so shut off from each other... Is it just me? I'm a feedee and this is something I struggle with when it comes to the community as a whole. I just don't feel included. And I can't tell if it's because I'm right about the lack of vulnerability and trust in this space or if I'm the only one receiving this treatment,where I'm always being held away at arms length 😕
Environment and community have so much to do with it our experience.
Candidly, I used to feel this way before I felt comfortable in my own skin and put out what I wanted to do in myself. (HRT helped a LOT for me.)
There's a lot of people in the world who don't share chemistry with us, and that's okay! People should be allowed to choose their company as we do.
This kink is hedonistic, but a lot of people are just looking to be seen in their expression, just like you! I personally do not consider people who do not consider me when it comes to vulnerability.
I am unapologetically going to be myself, and I'm going to walk away from situations where I'm expected to change that and be palatable in a self betraying way. Many people move on and I have lonely episodes, but the ones who stick around are as fiercely into me as I am into them and there is no apology for who we are and what we love.
Feedism is something we can all relate to, but finding a mutual vibe in it takes time and patience, like in any relationship. I know it's all about craving and desire here but, it takes time.
Stay positive, I think you just need to find out what sorts of experiences you want to have with it and learn how to communicate it <3 keep learning until you find what works for you.