#feel dead inside

[anna-something]

...it’s been reported on The Guardian. A British newspaper. they don’t report about kpop. 

[a-fluffer-nutter]

ugh

Alright y’all (i don’t know why I’m going to bother writing this since like two people are going to read this, but oh well). I’m having writers block and fic writing isn’t fun for me right now. I still enjoy writing, but there is no fun in writing fics if no one is going to read it. 

My last 3 fics have under 10 notes, which low key pisses me off. I’m not mad at you guys, y’all are great. I’m just pissed I’m taking time to write something which probably won’t be read (like this little rant). So, my fics won’t be out as constant as they once were. I have no WIPs right now and no motivation to start any. 

I’m still taking prompts and there are a few I really like and might write, but I want feedback right now. If you read this god forsaken rant, can you shoot me a message on what prompt(s) you want to see me write? This way I know I’m going to write something that people are actually interested in in what feels like the first time in forever. 

So if you have given me a prompt, I’m probably not working on it and I’m sorry, but I have no motivation. Also, if anyone can motivate me, I’d kill for that. If I’m ignoring you, I’m also sorry. I’m just in this weird mood where I don’t want to do shit or interact with other people. Sorry. Despite this, everything above stands so send me shit.

In other news, I’m writing a novel, which some of you may know. It’s going very well (60,000 words well) so I am writing, just not for you guys. If anyone is interested in talking to me about it, I’d be happy to comply. I want to tell people about it, but no one seems to be interested, so if you are, shoot me a pm or an ask or whatever. Thanks y’all!

[a-burning-dill]

I was put on door duty at work today, meaning I was the host/bouncer. My job was to check everyone in that came through the door. My boss chose me specifically because of my demeanor lol. She said I have a "teacherly attitude" but I know she just meant I was the only one working who could be mean/assertive. And you know what she was right and I did do a really good job. But oh my God I had to talk to so many people today I kind of wanna

[the-lifestyle-17]

Son I don’t know how to live without you….every day is harder and harder to live knowing you’re not here….i don’t even feel alive any more. My heart stopped the moment yours did 💔💔💔

I wonder the house all night long trying to find you but you’re not here😣 I miss you son! I miss your love, your eyes, your face, you in my arms. Forever you’ll be there my boy.

[smellious]

Trust is just a lie that we keep telling ourselves.

Ellen Szklany

[smellious]

Girl and boy

Boy: will you move for me

Girl: yes anything for you

4 days later

Boy: I think going to leave

Girl: see you...

(Boys go to see Girl) 

Knocks the door

Women cry :(((

Boy: Where is she

Women: She is... You said leave. She took the knife you put in her heart and end it

Boy: Speechless “cries” 

[smellious]

I am a pain in the ass and I know most people know that. But I stopped trusting people and start believing myself. Now I am just alone, I just answer to people when they talk to me. When I see people in their friendships or even happy. Some part of me craves that feeling that someone is so fucking happy that I am alive or even notice me. I even get so tried being fake or even tried listening to a conversation anymore. They say you are not alone like that's going to help anything.  But all you can think is that you are alone and the only decent person that will talk to you is a teacher. You feel horrible that not even a person your age wants to talk to you or even laugh with you. All I think is that my computer is my only friend at school. Can't stand the real world anymore. The thought of trusting or even smiling with a person sounds like a twisted dream. All I say to myself is it's soon over and everything will go back to normal. I say it so often that, I know it will never be true. All I hear is sad and angry that it seems like a happy place for me. That aching feeling of sadness is the only emotion you know so well that seems the only feeling that okay.

Ellen Szklany

[imagesinhead]