[ 3tan ; 230401 ] back at the house that i was at on new year’s 2022.. when i started writing fireworks. who knew where 3tan would be after all that time since i was last under this roof, walking outside to watch fireworks and being terrified at how some of them were handled. i remember the smoke, the feeling of fresh starts..
the yearning.
it got me thinking about a lot. like how it felt like i was meant to write it, and if other creators ever get that feeling when they work on something—a poem, a song, a work of art, etc. it happened so suddenly and flowed out of my mind so easily. only took about 3 days to finish, which is almost unheard of for me. do others feel this way? it’s a strange but calm emotion, one unlike any others.
then i also wondered what could’ve happened if i never finished it, or was too scared and never posted it. what would’ve happened then? none of what happened in 2022 regarding the series, that’s for sure. it wouldn’t have been a series to start with. we still would’ve only had the original three tangerines up to this point, and i wouldn’t have gotten to meet most of you or created this many fun memories with everyone that’s passed by.
i dunno what the point of any of this is. maybe there isn’t one. but i’m glad that i was able to finally capture the exact same emotions i wanted to convey in a written piece, and i’m glad i took the leap and posted it, not knowing if anyone was gonna be interested.
i guess i wrote all of this to say: just post things. even if they aren’t perfect to you, or if you don’t know if people are gonna like them or not, or if you’re scared about them being a “flop.” because you never know what will happen unless you try, and it’s a piece of you out in the world. and just maybe, someone out there will enjoy it and see its value.