[ 250518 ] just working on 3tan and suddenly got hit with a wave of nostalgia and emotion thinking about the series inevitably coming to a close one day, knowing i’m gonna sob my eyes out and curl into an inconsolable ball because this series has been part of a literal sixth of my life. 3tan will turn five whole years this november, and will either be done by then, or very, very close.
it’s crazy how realizations and perspective just crash into you and pull you under, and you never know when that wave is coming until you’re thrown into it and spiraling in your own head. did i do my best? have most people moved on? could i have taken less rest and given more people reasons to stay?
but in thinking about the end, i’m also thinking about the beginning. and i really am proud of that girl for taking writing back up in the first place and pushing through during a time we were all locked in our homes and needing something hopeful to push us along.
three tangerines is hope. it’s hope that things will get better despite it all, and hope that someday, somewhere, we’ll all find love in others and ourselves.
so i just wanna say thank you to everyone that’s still here, whether you’re lurking or actively engaging and interacting. even if you’re just checking in from time to time, or if you were only here for a brief while before moving on, thank you for everything you’ve ever given me and this series. it’s meant the world to come back here and still see 3tan yoongi and reader—and the gang really—getting love. these characters live in my heart forever now, as do all of the wonderful people i’ve gotten to meet, talk to, and know in real life because of them.
i know this is more of a ramble more than anything, so the main point i wanna make after all these years and pages and thoughts is this:
3tan is my letter of hope to you, but you guys give me hope, too.