#feeling big

[emptyovenboy]

Calling it a bulk until I go into labour 😏

[randombrowngirl]

Can I lose 10 pounds in 1.5 weeks??

[valinellas]

Reached my 19th week 🤰🏼☺️

I'm officially 4 months and 3 weeks pregnant as of yesterday! Gosh my tummy is getting more pronounced and I'm feeling heavier everyday 🥲

At least little Ella is feeling safe and cozy in mommy's safe haven 🤍

[vital-information]

you must send your letters. you must embarrass yourself with too much feeling and too much sharing. can you ever feel loved if you’ve never done anything you expect someone to hate you for? i am desperate to be overwhelmed by you and to navigate my own angry labyrinths. I’ll still find ways to love you anyway.

[desroundtree]

Learning How To Feel

It seems as if there are rules for how we are supposed to feel.  An unwritten set of rules that guides acceptable exposition of feelings, good and bad.  We try to fit into these cookie cutter molds, which don't prove to serve everyone, our emotions bubbling over the sides.  

The hardest thing to understand is we don't have to play anyone else's game.  We don't have to exist in that space created by someone else for their well being.  We are in control of how much we feel, and if those feelings deem to be too much - they shouldn't because that's ok too. 

Feeling “big” isn't something that comes easy, it has its own baggage that is already hard to unpack.  This so-called evolution of society makes it seem like that is some kind of weakness, when the truth is it can be difficult to allow things to come to the surface.  

There is no such thing as too much emotion.  There is no such thing as too much passion, or too much creativity, or too many ideas.  When we are emotional it's almost as if there is no right to feel strongly about something, regardless of how attached we are to it or how big a part it plays in our lives.  Is it that we are being frowned upon, like feeling just about anything is not worth its weight in salt?

Society has decided that feelings make us weak, and even fragile.  Being empathetic is somehow the last thing people want to accept about someone else.  I don’t know when or how that happened but it has, and it’s jarring to learn that too.

Are you allowed to experience emotion, as long as you keep it to yourself?  

There are these rules - no being extra or acting out.  No crying for fear of being called emotional or too much, even if that is exactly what you are and there's nothing wrong with that.  Most people expect you to swallow things, to handle them on your own, especially if it is inconvenient for you to share those emotions with them.

Learning how to feel shouldn't be something we are forced to do, learning how to accept should be.

[bigmountaincat]

How Trash Am I?

HOW TRASH AM I?!

I’m the epitome of G/T Trash, yo! 

I intentionally hold on to shirts and pants that don’t fit anymore because when I wear them, it makes me feel bigger, like I’ve grown.

I sleep with 5 pillows so I can imagine that they’re all King Sized mattresses, and that I need that many just to sleep.

I have purposefully volunteered to have the smallest room in every apartment I’ve lived in because it makes it seem like I’m too big for normal-people apartments.

GET ON MY LEVEL

[pahtoosh]

not sure if this is happening to anyone else but lately I’ve been having an issue with tumblr mobile opening links to posts in a web browser instead of the app and tumblr.com creating a new tab for each post link I click on. I’ve just updated all of the links on my masterlist and it seems to be working okay! if anyone else is having this issue with their masterlist, I’d be happy to explain(there’s a slight difference in the two types of links for tumblr posts)