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Tried drawing Eemeli again
I promise I'm still working on the fanfic this guy's from
It's just now I gotta rewrite all of it because my wording was sh!t and I did not even try while writing
“ I left a fandom because someone showed up roleplaying a character that others liked more than my take on them. I’m scared it will happen again. It’s so discouraging when someone new shows up, gets popular with my group, and then everyone just drops me for them... I feel so replaced. ”
feeling replaced
I know I was the one to push a good friend away but seeing him posting stuff about another girl he's now very close with again makes me feel so unwanted. I know it's not his intention and I still matter to him, he tells me that a lot. but knowing that they lost contact, had a really bad relationship and now after me being out of the way suddenly seem to be best friends again feels kinda weird. like being replaced. I know it's my own fault, it was my decision to distance myself from him. but somehow, it still feels weird, like you can be replaced so fast.
74!
Have you ever felt replaced?Yes. I think we all have. Sometimes legitimately, sometimes just when feeling particularly poorly. I promise though, you can’t be replaced. Even if someone tries, they’ll fail. Their pride may keep them from admitting it, but they’ll miss you. You’re the best at being you.
June 2016 rant
Okay, so, I'm go on a rant.
I apologize, but I've been feeling this way for a while, but haven't been able to talk to anyone about this. So, I'm just going to word vomit on Tumblr, cause, hey, I don't really know many of you, so I don't really care if you think I'm a winy bitch, or anything...
Anyways, here goes.
I'm tired of being stuck in Olympia. More so, I'm tired of being stuck at Evergreen. I mean, considering I was basically harassed to the point of failing class, thus getting put on academic probation, and nobody doing anything (despite the fact that I tried to go a handful of people to talk about it. But nobody listened), I’d say the school has fucked me over. I mean, I’ve taken four quarters off in the past four years. That’s over a year. And I still have two years to go, I’m honestly not sure if I can do it. But, there’s a (fucked up) part of me that’s scared to leave, because no matter how fucked up it all is, it’s something familiar. And I don’t know what’s outside of Olympia, and I’m terrified that I might go out and try something new, and it’s going to be terrible, and I’m going to be miserable for the rest of my life.
And in 10 hours, most of my friends are going to graduate, and they’re going to go on with their lives. They’re going to find new friends, ones that are more interesting and not as broken as I am, and they’re going to forget all about me. I even have one friend - probably the one person that I’m closest to here in Olympia - who isn’t leaving, and I still feel like he’s already replacing me. And I hate it. I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I know it’s selfish, and I know he can have other friends. But, I feel like he’s pushing me away - I mean, I was gone for a month and a half, and when I got back, he literately told me that this other person was his replacement for me. And I know that that might not be what he meant, but it’s effected how I view things now...
Even just sitting here, thinking about it is, making me have a panic attack. But I can’t not think about the future, cause that’s all anyone ever seems to talk about right now. I mean, I get it, everyone is graduating, and I couldn’t be happier for them.
But I’m scared that somehow, everyone is going to forget about me, and then I’m just going to disappear. I don’t amount to much myself, and it’s really nice when I know that people need me... no, that’s the wrong way to put it. When I know that people enjoy being with me, I guess (validation from other people is what gets me through the day - again, selfish, I know, but I have such deep seeded self-loathing, that it’s hard to see myself in a certain way without people’s help). And I really feel like I’m loosing that.
Despite that, though, I’m not looking for pity or anything. No, if that we’re the case, I’d get on Facebook. All I want is for someone to listen. Someone to hear what I’m saying / read the words that I’ve written, and just acknowledge that this is in existence. You don’t have to tell me that I’m right or wrong for feeling this. I just want my feelings to be out in the universe, for someone to know.
Why...
Just as things start to get better everything goes to shit and I can't cope...
“i hate it when ur not ur best friends best friend”