#feeling unsure

[agroterablog]

24/09/25

ohhhh how i feel that these next weeks are going to be stressful. i've just learn that my cat has a spine infection, hence why these last days he wasn't walking very straight. now its even worse, he can't walk without falling over. my dad isn't here and my mum is working all the time so its just me and my sister to look after him... i have so many orals and project to do in the next weeks. i also have next weekend my friend V's birthday party, which is far away in the countryside, so i have to take the train etc. im afraid that i might have to skip her birthday party to stay home and look after my cat. that would be a very lame excuse but it is quite literally the truth. if he has to go to urgent care you can wait for hours to see a vet. plus the train tickets that i bought are non refundable. im gonna loose 30 euros just like that... already that i don't have much money. plus i need to go this week end and buy like a skirt or something for her party bc i have zero dressed up clothes nor anything in the themes that she has set (mamamia/mediterranean chic/70's-80's).

this weekend im supposed to prepare and finish a presentation on the tundra biome in my ecology class and i really like the prof so i would like to do a really good presentation, but with these circumstances, its gonna be difficult. i also have an english presentation in two weeks where we have to present two scientific research articles and then criticise them... and im like, we do not have the level to critique any research level article or even anything, we haven't even done any research of any shape of form of our life (not including research on the internet, i mean like actually doing experiments for our own thought-out project). like ???? we aren't masters level ? and all that in english ???? (for nobody except me is eng. our native language)

[house-of-slayterr]

Is it werid to want to default to my first chosen name. Like I really really love Frances, but everyone so used to Finely now and I feel awkward changing it, cause I don’t want them to think I’m just constantly changing my name.

It was between Finley and Frances when I first chose Finley. But something about it doesn’t feel right anymore. I still let people call me Fin/Finn because (Frances Newton) FN, FIN. And any variation of that, because I still like it. And very few people called me by my full name in the first place.

But I think I’ve grown so used to hearing it, and really only you guys call me Frances so I’ve only heard it written out. So it doesn’t feel real and solidified yet. But my dick of a mother only ever used Finely when she wanted to manipulate me. And everyone kept saying it was a “pretty name for a girl” which at the time made me hella dysphoric.

I guess I’m just asking if this is the right thing. Like I know it’s ultimately my choice, lol. But I feel like Frances is properly neutral. I picked it after two of my favorite characters of all time, one male, one female. My dad says he doesn’t care if I change my last name (I’m just sick of people not knowing how to spell or pronounce it lol. It gets tiring when you go to 6 doctors offices a day and none of them can get it right, then you don’t get your meds in time cause they spelled it wrong)

Is Frances Darling too theatrical? Should I pick a more standard last name? I just want something that’s ultimately me. And I don’t think I’m boring lol, at least I try not to be. So what do you guys think? Obviously I’m still Fang, lol that’s then nickname for Frances cause Fran felt weird.

I dont know i need guidance and your guys opinions matter very highly to me. Because I love you all! And you’re my best support system’ ❤️

[m0tiv8me]

Tetter Totter

I'm stuck in this internal battle of wanting to be bigger but also like being leaner without so much bulk. At 195 I started to feel like 200+ was just going to be too big for me, now at 180ish I feel like I'm small and need more size back. Mentally beating myself up way to much lately and I need to stop! Gotta stop comparing myself to others and just be me. I don't feel like a big guy but I guess that's all relative to what an opinion of a big guy is. Some days I feel like I just need confirmation that yes I'm making it happen. I'm much bigger than I once was and i need to remember and focus on that and not put so much stock in others opinions!! Don't be fooled, everyone struggles with some aspect of their goals and journey and pretending you don't isn't being honest with yourself or moving forward. I strive to be better and keep moving forward!

[menopausalpup]

glares at the convenience store on campus that doesn't sell anything savoury

[agroterablog]

30/08/25

its soon going to be the rentrée (=back to school, or in my case back to uni) for me. im kinda stressing out. last night,i stayed up tossing and turning thinking about it. this is what happens when you have 3 months of "holidays", you forget about stuff like taking notes, memorising stuff, socialising with ppl that you barely know etc... euuuuuuh. i also need to go running.

[agroterablog]

13/03/25

today’s my birthday !!! im officialy tweny ! why am I saying this with such enthuisiasm ? anyways, I had class then came back home for lunch. now im having a general culture class online. we had a 1h break in between, so I drew a bit w/ my new crayons.

[freckledsweetpea]

I genuinely cannot imagine spending the rest of my days with a cishet man, but also I just don't feel like lesbian is a remotely correct label for me currently or ever. Maybe someday. Idk. Maybe one day I'll actually start dating and find out. For now I guess being alone is pretty cool. It's worked for 28 years thus far.

[kamdusa]

"Are you mad at me?"

“Are you mad at me?”

I don’t know what I’m mad at. I don’t know what I’m not mad at. I feel unloved. I know I’m not. But I just feel like the waters gone cold again. I guess I expect too much out of my life right now. I must not be learning the things I’m meant to learn. Maybe my ego is in the way God? I’m crying. I hurt. I feel hopeless and helpless. I feel like a loser. I feel like I’m not doing the things I’m…

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