#feeling…

[sciderman]

lefty's waking up?? yay!!!! I hope you feel 100% better soon!

thank you!!

it’s hard to say what “100% better” really feels like, because the abnormal was my normal for so long, and I’m still tired and like, not itchy, in a way that is so abnormal to me. I used to be so restless and couldn’t sit still and felt like I had to be doing something productive all hours of the day and now that part of me feels so distant, and I’m kind of wondering if it’ll come back or if that’s that, you know? I don’t feel very strongly about it - I feel happy right now, but - I don’t know, it feels strange to have some things feel so, so important to me before and now - it feeling so distant. you know?

[freakybugeyedweirdogirl]

thinking about jack and mary again, but specifically how jack feels safe enough around mary to let his mask slip a little and be more rough and jagged around the edges since they’re war buddies, and specifically how she was one of the few people to actually see jack as his own person despite her own experiences with Lucifer, and specifically how she still calls him sweetheart and Understands™️ him after seeing those jagged edges, and specifically dean’s line from game night that implies they’d regularly go out to eat at diners after a hunt, and specifically how they met when jack was the same age sam was when mary originally died, and specifically them

[bedardlover69]

I want to insert this into my veins 

[whimsyclairo]

maybei. should be sick more often. i just wrote 5000 words. How did i do That.

[afterthedreamer]

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[quietcuriosities]

I’m just… tired.

Sleepy tired, but also… tired. Bone tired. I just want someone to give a damn. I want one day where people give a fuck about me and hear *me* out and do dumb kindnesses for me.

And I know how this sounds. I know I sound petulant and whiny and selfish.

People make fun of me for always telling them I appreciate them, or giving them praises, or thanking them, or pointing out the ways that they shine… and like, I’ll never stop… but sometimes, I’d like to know if I have a positive impact on peoples’ lives like they have on mine.

I’m just fucking tired of being the cheerleader. I want someone to cheer for me.

Filed under: grow the fuck up and shut the fuck up, Amanda.

[smoreal]

Just scrolled through three different hopecore tiktoks… hm.