Sooooo I had a space out moment.. I randomly thought of this fool I like... alot and I imagined we were together and everything was goin good and we were happy but then all of a sudden I imagined them cheating on me.... >_> WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?!?! lol what would even make me think of that.. now im all in my feelings.. feeling not good enough over a fucking made up scenario... I need to stop listening to Trigga cuz some of them songs gettin in my head.. but thats a good album lol.. anyway.. ill get over this moment in a few minutes
Sorry for the serious picture spamming, but I feel like you fine folks should see my awesome sister.
I could spend the next three days writing you a novel on my sister and why she is so fucking rad, but it's like 6:30am and I don't have my laptop so I am going to write this little list. ( I honestly would like to write more about my sister, but I am having some difficulty forming pleasant and coherent sentences right now.)
My sister is...
G - Genuine, generous, great looking, gifted, grand.
I feel these words also accurately describe my sister - Honorable, deep, loyal, positive, vibrant, honest, free-spirited, soulful, wise, swell, and fashionable.
I dunno man, I miss her so much and am just so fucking proud of her I could burst - sticking it out in the big city and dealing with unreasonable amounts of bullshit, drama, and general suckage, but still finding and appreciating the beauty of life, Fort Collins, and new friends. I envy her summer plans and her gift/ability to manipulate the written word so well that teachers fear she plagiarizes. (Which she fucking doesn't.) I believe in her and even though I worry all the time, I know that regardless of what she does and where she goes in life, she is going to flourish and excel. I believe in the van.
I also believe in the power of positive thought, good vibes, and love, and I feel like she could use some extra good vibes and stuff, so I am sending them her way, and I hope/graciously request that anyone who reads this please either, A. Sends her happy thoughts/good vibes. B. Follows her. C. Sends her note just saying hello or letting her know you care about/dig her.
in which i make sweeping statements and come to unsubstantiated conclusions.
in my relatively short time as a functional human i've been in three longish term relationships, and a couple of shorter term deals. so, like, five total. if you judged me just then i don't know why you're reading this, because that's really not my point. every breakup has been amicable(ish) and i've kept these girls in my life because a) they're excellent human beings due to my impeccable taste, obviously, and b) they've chosen to stay in my life (i mean, it's not like i force it). some i've been friends with for years, others kind of drifted in and out of contact.
you guys, i know it's not me (is it me?) but every single one of them has exited my life in the past few weeks, all in quick succession. and by exited my life i mean one has completely cut contact for no discernable reason and four - FOUR - have moved to other countries (or gone back to the countries from whence they came) in the past three weeks. my most recent ex-girlfriend, sweetest thing as she is, moved to motherfracking ETHIOPIA last weekend. e-thi-o-pi-a. half an hour ago i dropped another very excellent person off at the airport because she's moving to denver to be with her (super rad don't get me wrong) american gf.
so, everyone, just in case you were planning an escape from my life, now appears to be the time to do it. s'cool.
