#feelsoemptyrightnow

[thelittlelonelylesbian]

how can I feel so empty but numb and feel all of these sad emotions and like I want to run… run as far away from this body, this life, just everything all at once

[thelittlelonelylesbian]

First night back home…

Crying myself to sleep

What the fuck is wrong with me

[thelittlelonelylesbian]

Me: I’m just going to be single for the rest of my life and prove everyone wrong who says I’m stupid for saying it and can’t do it

Friend: No, you can’t do that?

Me: Umm why? It’s up to me…

Friend: You’re too good for that and I want to see you happy

Me inside my head: FUCK OFF

[thelittlelonelylesbian]

Fuck relationship’s and fuck love.

Here’s to a hopefully short life of being alone.

[thelittlelonelylesbian]

How do you get to live this happy life and I’m here suffering from hurt and pain because of the mess you’ve left me in.

You’ve lied to me since day dot, you’ve used me in so many ways and I’m starting to think you even mentally abused me without me evening noticing.

[thelittlelonelylesbian]

I’ve had some pretty painful things happen to me in the past, that could be injuries, self harming and all that other rubbish but the thing that hurts the most… truly hurts the most is loving someone so much but they don’t care or even love you back.

[thelittlelonelylesbian]

The more I talk to friends about how shit my life is the more I realise how much people are driven by relationships. I don’t want a fucking relationship because you get your heart broken and I can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to go on dating apps/websites and seem desperate. My wall is up and it’s never coming down. Stop trying to make me unhappier by saying about it.