#fellox

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natalie.

identity.

Natalie struggled a lot with coming to terms with who she was. Turning 13 and shifting also brought on the age of puberty and dear god she hated it. The monthly hell and the way her body started curving just really irked her. That year's summer felt hotter and more horrible than any other that she cut her hair short, like bob cut tiny ponytail short. She slouched more so that her chest didn't jut out, wore sports bras as much as possible to flatten her chest down, anything to feel less weird.

I think at many points of her schooling years she really questioned why she hated skirts so much or why she detested everything about growing up a girl. At several points she probably thought she'd concluded that she just really wanted to be a guy. She'd start trying to wear the guy's uniform (got into a whole ton of trouble for that) and also gave herself a really bad choppy pixie cut of sorts. People started calling her Nathan or variations of it, and she kept teetering. She felt a lot more comfortable in these clothes, with the breeze on her neck, but felt awkward being addressed as a guy. 

She finally sort of pulled herself together in her last year and decided that she couldn't really escape the fact that she was a girl. But being a girl didn't mean that she couldn't do the things traditionally unlike girls. She ran and climbed and did everything she wanted because gender or sex didn't matter in her pursuit. Being scouted as an officer reaffirmed that for her and it helped boost her confidence in general.

Her confidence started showing signs of wavering when the training missions got tougher and the trainer was basically a very traditional man raised on old society values that was misogynistic and adhered to the gender roles and most of his beating downs were always insulting to be a girl, "don't be a girl", all Shang like "did they send me daughters when i asked for sons" and shit and it really knocked her down a lot. A lot of her pessimism stems from being told she can't do something. She normally bounced back and let it roll off her shoulders, but she couldn't this time. (She was eternally grateful for her attached officer Oswald that just listened to her cry about it and may or may not have gotten himself benched for a while for disrespecting seniority.)

Motherhood was another rollercoaster for her. Natalie screwed her body up royally from her youth and conceiving was a problem already. Learning to accept that her tummy was just going to inflate up was a hurdle for her, but it helped her settle into womanhood. She got a bit more curves at her hips now and she'll come to learn how to love her stretch marks, but she's pretty certain on who she is now.

Being chief actually holds a lot of value for her. Her first council meeting involved her getting looked down upon for being a woman that cut their hair like a man. She shut them down and walked out after she addressed everything that needed to be said. Pretty happy that she did, actually.

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christian.

persona.

Christian is really hard to write sometimes because he doesn't have labels that I can tack onto him for certain. One moment he's this, another moment he's acting another way. As odd as it may seem, I actually consider this one of the most human things about people. People are multi faceted. We aren't squares or diamonds. To be honest, he's sort of a circle. One moment he's polite, but he's also grumpy and blunt. He is effeminate, but tries his best to defy and denies it even though he's accepted it at the same time. He is socially charming, but socially awkward as well.

I guess the only way I can put it is that he is a different person at different times. We all have those days that we don't want to hang out with people. We have those days where we want to get out and have fun. So it feels like everytime I write him, I just go with whatever comes to mind and what suits the situation. Makes him feel like a Sue, but at the same time, we're not all right, but we're also not all wrong?

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christian.

family.

Oh god, don't make him laugh. Christian rejects the thought of his birth father and his family. As far as he's concerned, two human women raised him, along with a bunch of other children from the same orphanage (headcanon - there is only one orphanage in the entire city, so orphaned kids probably know one another from back then.) So he doesn't have anything nice to say about the family that didn't exist for the most part of his life, even if they're related by blood.

It's a lot of self denial on his end. He likes to pretend they're strangers or that they don't exist for the most part of it. Resentment probably has a part to play in that. It would have been nice to know he had brothers to back him up or something while he was struggling. At the same time, the empathetic part of him can't really empathise, but Christian understands. They were in the dark about all of it, they were in the dark about him. He just thinks that it's  a shame they couldn't have been closer.

He keeps his distance from them. They already have enough family drama, Christian doesn't want to add to it nor be a part of it (though he's at a point where he doesn't have much choice) By actively avoiding them, he thinks he's out of all of this (which is again, ridiculous oh Christian) He's rather content with the Lyons. Thinks it suits him better as well.

[mamaparrot]

Fellox Headcannon

Tara died from heart failure since no one ever stopped her from pushing herself too far. Her dad's death was from suicide, something that, again, is never outright said because Tara doesn't want to share that about her family. In her eyes her dad will always be the tough and strong Onix shifting military man. It was actually his military life that led him to his suicide. Because of that Tara always wants to push herself to make her dad proud and prove that she can carry on his strength and not end up like him either. She just pushed too far. Seth is deported from Fellox despite trying to fight it with Skye and Kylar. He is threatened by Fellox officials for contacting anyone about the city or if he tries to returns. He ends up back in his home city working in retail while studying on the side.  Alfie is kind of like Rex- still mentioned, still alive and around, just not played. Lola is consumed by the Moltres, her body completely destroyed and the Moltres, without having a host, is lost, vowing to be reborn again.  Owen is arrested again, locked in jail because his anger got the best of him and he was charged for manslaughter after beserking in the city. Lithra passes away due to her illness. Arabella is fired but she inherits a lot of money from her predecessor so she ends up living alone but comfortable. Kenji is assassinated by a rival gang in his sleep, Kai takes over as leader. Vigil just vanishes. No one knows where he is, if he's dead or escaped Fellox. His apartment is clean, his work is finished, but no one knows or notices what happened.

Demetrius is NPC'ed like Alfie- maybe he retires and the Day Care Center is given to whoever wants to run it.

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natalie.

job.

Being an officer means a lot to Nat. She was scouted out for it, spent five years just training and further honing her skills in it, even met the love of her life in it. It's a lot more than a job for her. It's essentially become a part of her, even in her absence.

It causes her a lot of undue stress, and sometimes she feels like it pulls her away from the time she should be spending with family. She doesn't think that it's fair for her husband to be the primary face around the house, thinks that the lack of a mother figure is bad for the child. She's happy that she got to see him through his formative years.

Given the officers' general disdain towards paperwork, she's actually pretty fond of it. She has the ability to sit through lectures and briefings and meetings and doesn't mind the monotony, in comparison to some of the younger faces. During her pregnancy she stuck to doing administrative work, so she's become good at paperwork, efficient, even.

But she loves it because of what's out there. Justice rings through her heart. And with a child, she has grown a wish to protect. Fellox is a haven for her, and she's pretty sure Jack's going to grow up into a shifter as well. The world outside doesn't take too kindly to people like them, so as much as she can, she'll try and maintain the order in this world of her's.

muse

james barnes' third symphony - movement iii (for natalie) which is one of the most beautiful pieces i've got to hear in my life. the story behind this entire symphony is amazing and tragic beyond words. 

natalie is also the name of a very dear friend of mine. they're not very similar, but it's a name of familiarity that brings me a lot of peace.

[mamaparrot]

FELLOX ANNOUNCEMENT FOR ALIFE SCARROW

Okay, since the newest plot with Kirsha and Kenzel is really taking off and Alfie was tagged as one of the characters to be part of this change or rather this will be his aftermath of the situation since he doesn't have a choice to react. Not all of this, as a mun, I'm happy with but it would be wrong and unfair of me to make people stop playing and stop having their own character development. That's just wrong! But I can let you all know how this will affect my own characters.

1. Alfie will find out Kirsha is in the hospital 2. Alfie will notice his brother, his role model, his parent, his rock, his everything is suffering. 3. Despite Kirsha hiding it, Alfie will pick up on his brother living a life on the edge, constantly fearing relapse. Alfie may not be a twin, but he's still family. 4. Because of this Alfie will not be the same if he sees (and he will notice) Kirsha in the hospital, Kirsha always afraid of his health, Kirsha on the edge every day. Alfie will be scared, he will hate kirsha and Kenzel for it, he will rebel, he will lose his innocence. His joy in life will be stripped in the fear of losing Kirsha making him react in ways that are, let's face it, un-Alfie like. 5. Alfie will be disruptive and angry and not his original character. This will change him so much that he will not be the same muse you have seen on Fellox. 6. I don't know Alfie's future beyond that, I don't know how this can be healed, that I suppose will be played out. But I'd like to warn people that if you want your fun Alfie, get it now. Because after this plot with Kirsha goes into action, Alfie won't be the same. :(

[hanadere]

that feeling when i want to make another character for fellox

/JUDGES

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clara.

background. ideals.

clara's family, or at least, her line, follows a very pure line of metagross shifters. not any psychic/steel, but specifically the metagross line. the jirachi shift was just kind of like a time bomb waiting to go off.

it's actually customary of every child to go through something like a rite of passage. because beldum are one eyed, i actually imagine that at one point in their life, they lose sight in one of their eyes. they could regain sight in that eye (and it would take some time to learn how to use it and try and strengthen muscles that have weakened) when they underwent evolution. clara didn't lose sight in one eye, which was their great distress.

to preserve the line of metagross shifters, it's been generations and generations of inbreeding in the family. they've gotten a lot of flak for it, but somewhere along the road, shit like that probably went down. (i imagine this was the case in scarrow history)

a lot of marriages were arranged by the elders. there's a very strong sense of filial piety that the fontaines are raised in. your parents are the first and foremost you listen to. you don't question their decisions. which was probably why clara didn't go against her father's rejection towards chemo. on a medical level, she knows this is probably the best way to save him, but on a familial level, she cannot overrule his own judgement. if he asked her to kill him, she would.

but after seeing how that turned out, she's gotten a lot more defiant when it comes to her mother. her mother's probably tried suicide at several points in time when she realises her husband is gone in her moments of clarity. she tells clara to let her do it, or to kill her, but she refuses because she's not ready to be left alone. she'll only let her go to natural causes, so she says.

her mother is nearly 70. she was born relatively later than most. i'd like to think that her parents are fairly distant cousins along the family tree. veeeeery sore topic. don't ever talk about it.

her mother is also suffering from depression and she's got selective memory loss. she calls clara jacques because she resembles her dad, and she only sees her husband, not her daughter. she doesn't seem to look it on a normal basis, but she looks like she's constantly detached and looking into the distance even when talking to people in front of her.

the rest of the family believes that clara's human. recessive genes handed down from the family (and inbreeding) could have resulted in a lot of undesirable traits being amplified down along the bloodline so they just think of her as the black sheep in the family that was the cumulation of all the bad blood they had. human or legendary she's still kind of perceived the same, really.