Honesty time. I have terribly low self-esteem and this especially shows in how I see my writing. I was telling my wife earlier that I was a mediocre writer at best and how my last romance novel was too angsty and not good enough. She immediately opened up amazon and read me the two first reviews from the top (pictured here) and then gave me a meaning look. And yes it did (for a while at least) make me think I was more than mediocre. So thank you to anyone who reviews books when they found something they liked! Oh, Amanda did also show me my sales figures and yes, they show I’m doing pretty good. 😊 But still… is it weird that I’m convinced that everyone who buys my books and everyone who reviews them only do it to be nice?! (Yes, I know that’s impossible considering the numbers of sells I get.) Nevertheless, my brain think it’s all some elaborate prank. That I can’t write. That I’ll wake up tomorrow and it’ll all be gone. The books, the reviews, the readers. Those are the times when sales figures don’t feel real. But words from readers/reviewers… they still make it through some of the walls of self-loathing. So thank you. (For all your kind words but also for reading this long ramble! 😂)
