Aug 10, 2019
Lorgar and Songbird got me this bath bomb with this lovely ring inside as a surprise gift. It’s very aesthetically pleasing. Things have been going rather well between Songbird and I as of late. It’s been.. nice.
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Lorgar and Songbird got me this bath bomb with this lovely ring inside as a surprise gift. It’s very aesthetically pleasing. Things have been going rather well between Songbird and I as of late. It’s been.. nice.
One hundred and nineteen times. I had Fabius clone him one hundred and nineteen times. I tried, and tried, and tried.. I just wanted him back. I wanted to fix things. I made my mistakes and I wanted to fix them but he.. he just. He was so impossible about the whole thing! I don’t understand why he wouldn’t just listen and be happy with me. No matter what I did and how I tried he wouldn’t listen and I..
I remember every time I did it. Every time I killed him. Every time I saw his blood coat my blade, stepped in puddles of it and held his body. The numerous robes ruined by the staining..
We should have had a good life together. It ruined.. everything. Horus and Lorgar and that ruinous sword. We could have ruled our parts of the galaxy, joined together and spent the rest of existence together. He would have been mine.
There is nothing I would not give to speak with him again. To.. to apologize. To ask him to forgive me.
Mrs. Fulgrim “Phoenician” Manus has such a nice ring to it.
This is the mood for tonight, my darlings.
I destroy everything I touch.
It's been years since he left me, and nothing has filled the void since. I thought having a child in Care might. She does bring me deep joy, but motherhood isn't the thing I've been missing. I've felt so..... hollow, since he returned, and decided he couldn't love me the way I truly am. It's been too long since I've been this drunk and eager to hurt us.
I wish I could understand and accept why he didn't love me.
I wish I didn't have to be here. I only exist to take care of a person who doesn't care about my feelings, I can't even front anymore without being beaten over the head with reminders of Ferrus, and I'll never be a parent. Our living situation is miserable at best, we're broke, the body is in pain constantly.... I really do wish the Host would get their head out of vaer ass and kill vaeself already. They'd be doing everyone in here a favor.