I Should Have Changed That Fucking Lock
This is just something quick and rough that I wrote because I’ve been listening to Cake’s cover of I Will Survive. It’s a breakup fic between Bed and Criken set in an au of my gta au. It really just came about because I love writing arguments and intense emotion. Enjoy.
This was it. He was done this time. No more second chances, no more apologies. This was the last straw and the camel’s back was officially broken.
Bed grit his teeth as he walked through his apartment, Criken hot on his heels and jumbles of words flowing from his lips non-stop. “Bed. Bed. It doesn’t have to be like this. I didn’t mean it. I didn’t know.”
“That’s what you said last time, Criken,” Bed spits. “And the time before that. It’s starting to sound like you don’t know anything. At least I know I can do better than you.”
“And what? End up in jail this time? You know no one else can keep your hobbies under wraps like I can, Bed.” Criken pauses in the hall, pleading as Bed pulls his clothes from the closet and dresser, flinging them across the room.
Bed pauses and whips his head up to glare at Criken. “Are you really trying to do this? You really think you can manipulate me on top of everything else you’ve done? Get out of my apartment, Criken, and don’t ever think about coming back.”
“I’m not trying to manipulate you, Bed. I wouldn’t do that. Not to you.” Criken tries again, picking his clothes up off the floor and folding them carefully.
“I think that’s something you would do, Criken. I’ve had a lot of time to think while you were out cavorting with Strippin and it made me realize that you’ve been playing me for a long time now.” Bed’s words are soft but deadly serious. A knife blade ready to fall. “I’m not allowed in your apartment even though you practically live in mine, all I ever hear is that my “hobby” is going to get me caught but I was fine before I met you, and you’ve stopped putting me on missions or even inviting me to briefings. If it wasn’t for Buck and Tomato checking in on me, I’d have no one to talk to besides you.”
Bed grabs something off of the dresser and hurls it across the room. Criken shifts to dodge it and hears it smash against the wall with the sound of shattering glass. He peeks down to see it’s a face-down picture frame. Kicking it over reveals Bed’s favorite photo of them. They’re on top of Maze Bank, wrapped up in each other’s arms after a successful heist; a helicopter just visible behind them.
That night, Bed had told him that he’d never felt that alive in his life. That just standing on top of the bank made him feel like he was flying; like they could take on anything in the city.
“Bed. I didn’t mean for any of that. The only thing I did was keep you out of my apartment, but that’s my control center. No one’s allowed in there.”
“Not this again. I know everything, Criken. I know Tomato’s been there.”
“Tomato’s my second in command!”
“And I’m your-- was your-- forget it!” Bed stomps out of the bedroom and in the bathroom, he grabs a basket and starts shoving stuff into it. All the little toiletries left over the years are piled up and unceremoniously shoved into his chest.
“I can’t just forget you, Bed,” he says softly. “I came to this city with Tomato searching for something - anything - and then I found you. You were the missing piece, Bed, and I’m not just going to give that up.”
“Well, you better start figuring out how, Criken. I’m done with you. I’m done with you and with Strippin.” Bed stops to glare at Criken, his teeth bared. “He knew - they all knew - how much I loved you, but I guess that means nothing to a bunch of petty crooks. He let you pull him into your bed, while I sat here...waiting.
“I did everything you asked. I laid low, I played distraction, I killed whoever you wanted and spared everyone you asked me to. I gave every secret and hope and dream, but this entire time that wasn’t enough for you. I’ve just been your attack dog while you’ve been loving someone else. Someone who wasn’t me. Someone who was everything I couldn’t be.” Bed’s gone again, stood in the middle of the living room with tears shining in his eyes.
“That’s not why I did it, Bed.” Criken tries to argue.
“No. No. You can just say it. You told me that you knew what you were getting into when we started dating, but apparently, you didn’t." Bed scoffs, the sound hollow and mirthless. "Cold, analytical Bed with his collection of knives and his love for the streets at night just couldn’t hold a candle to sweet, generous Strippin with his heart of gold and endless supply of advice. I get it. I really do. I just wish I wasn’t stupid enough to keep loving you for so long. It was fun while it lasted, but I can’t anymore, Criken.”
Criken just stares at him and Bed's not really sure what's going through his head. There's some anger there, but is it because he was finally caught or because he's losing his attack dog?
"You're right, Bed. I did bite off more than I could chew, but you telling me how you are and me experiencing it were two very different things. We're criminals, but I wasn't ready for you to disappear in the middle of the night only to show back up covered in blood. I wasn't ready for how snappy you get in between hunts or the long days of silence and distance. I couldn't take that, but I didn't want to lose you either. So Strippin filled in the holes."
Bed goes very still and looks to Criken again. "Get out."
"What?"
"I said Get Out. Now! Leave your key and leave my life. I'm better off without you. I don't want to hear any more!" Bed's face is contorted in anger and pain as he shoves Criken towards the door, his basket of things still clutched in his hands.
Criken doesn't fight too much and just stares as the door is slammed in his face and locked.
Once the door is closed and the heavy deadbolt is latched in place, Bed slides to the floor, silent tears streaming down his face. Criken had already caused him so much pain. He thought he was done feeling it, but it just wouldn't go away. He wanted control back, needed to get himself back together, but he couldn't do it on his own.
He slides his phone out of his pocket and typed up a quick message, still curled up on the floor.
Can you get over here? And bring Tomato? I need your help.














