Life Update #12: 10/06/2019
I returned home after three weeks with the boyfriend and I'm still on a job search. Luckily, I applied for Bath and Body Works and Rue21. Still waiting for the manager of the latter to give me a call. I've heard nothing from the former, so I'll be calling them later this week. I'm also thinking about applying to Walgreens (who I personally believe need a mascot). I have to because of my "father" financially raping my mom and leaving her with really bad debt that she had to borrow money from her own dad and ME just to make ends meet. My "father" also refused to pay child support and won't get a job because a chunk of his pay would go to my two youngest siblings. He would later cuss her out when she asked for money to help the kids and I out. I put father in quotation marks because he lost that title after I learned about not only what he did and didn't do, but he also lied about loving his OWN CHILDREN. So, now you know why I have a fucked up mind as of now. He's currently living across the country with his girlfriend (who is around my age; creepy, I know) working under the table at her father's auto repair place while abandoning me and my family in the south east. As a result, I have abandonment and daddy issues... *sigh* No, I am not saying that to "be quirky". I'm saying that because my mind is, again, fucked up. And apologies for rambling; I'm just so damn angry at what my "father" has done that I want nothing to do with him anymore. Hell, I don't even want him at my wedding; if I did, he'd bring his girlfriend along and she'll try to make the wedding about her. Instead, I'll ask some of my mom's friends if they can walk me down the aisle and share a father-daughter dance. It's for the best. I think I'll go meditate and see if I can get advice from Amphitrite. Maybe she knows if what I'm doing is right for me or not. In the meantime, may the universe guide you on your path.
Namaste darlings