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[painhaver]

hey i h8 2 make a post like this again but im abt 2 run out of kratom which me n my bfs use to manage our chronic pain [were all disabled]. well have money soon but not b4 we run out n 2 of my partners r starting new jobs soon nd will need the pain relief. i cnt do anything w/o it as my chronic pain is severe most days

ill probably need abt $50-$80, idk xactly how much itll cost here since we just moved 2 a new state but if we can get @ least $50 ik well b able 2 get some

cashapp: $ophanim

paypal: [email protected]

thx 4 reading plz rb even if u cnt donate, anything helps ❤️

[painhaver-moved]

almost got arrested in indiana moodboard

[painhaver]

srry for posting so many updates but like i said before, i think it's vitally important that this flag have real, thought-out meaning behind it. u can find the original version of this post here :-) once again a huge thanks to everyone who's helped refine this flag. i hope it can become a recognized symbol for our community, i hope that within it ppl can see all the love, all the bravery, all the uniqueness of the G in lgbt

im gnna keep this short n sweet, additional info can b found in my original post wrt why i chose this color scheme, original stripe meanings, n why i chose to make this flag in the first place

COLOR MEANINGS 3.0!!!

DARK GREEN: masculinity, manhood, masc gays. our unique style of masculinity that's different from any other

GREEN: love, gay love being natural, the tenderness of gay love. this stripe is meant both to mirror the green stripe on the rainbow flag, which represents nature, n also to represent the softness we express to one another n fact that our love is natural, normal, n smth to b celebrated

LIGHT GREEN: nonbinary gay people, including those of us who dont identify as men but r still gay for men

LIGHT BLUE: gay trans men, including those who identify only partially as men but still consider themselves trans men

INDIGO: freedom, self-expression, gnc gays. the courage to b our authentic selves openly, the freedom of being gnc

VIOLET: femininity, feminine presentation, fem gays. our unique style of femininity that's different from any other

pls rb this version if u can/want to whether yr gay or not! this is 100% free to use for anyone who falls under the G, no credit required [tho yr free to tag me in anything u make w it!] i hope u all love it as much as i loved making it :-)❤️

[painhaver]

ok take 2 lmao...i decided to scrap the 7 stripe version of this flag as i was told it was too similar to the lesbian flag, which id like to take a moment to apologize for: it was never my intention to mimic the lesbian flag so closely n i apologize for not making sure my flag was different enough. from now on the only version acknowledged as the "official version" is this one

this is my proposal for a gay flag, specifically meant to represent everyone who falls under the G. ive seen mlm flags proposed before but i wanted to make one specifically for gay ppl that's also explicitly inclusive of nonb gays. my goal with this flag, if it gains any traction, is both to give gay ppl a flag to represent our community, as well as encourage people to use the rainbow flag for the entire lgbt community again, since that's what gilbert baker designed it for in the first place

some notes on the color scheme: the green tones were chosen bcuz green carnations r a long-standing symbol for gay men. i chose blue and violet tones because blue is a traditionally masculine color, and purple is a color historically associated with both lesbians and gay men/ppl. purple is also used in part as a subversion of expectations regarding traditionally masculine/feminine colors; subverting expectations is another thing i feel our community excels at

COLOR MEANINGS:

DARK GREEN: masculinity, manhood, gnc masc gays

LIGHTER GREEN: love, gay love being natural; this stripe is also meant to mirror the green stripe on the rainbow flag, which represents nature

LIGHT GREEN: nonbinary gay ppl, including those of us who dont id as men but are gay for men

LIGHT BLUE: gay trans men, including ppl who id only partly as men but consider themselves trans men

INDIGO: freedom, self-expression, and tenderness. the way we express our love to each other and the freedom to do so

VIOLET: femininity, feminine presentation, gnc fem gays

this flag is free for anyone to use with no credit needed [though youre welcome to tag me in anything u make with it!] and ive included a 500x500 icon friendly version above

a HUGE thanks to both @luciformz and @casinonight for helping me with this flag! the color alterations were sorely needed, the original version wasnt the prettiest lol. and an even bigger thanks to the lesbians who gave me input so that i wldnt make a flag too similar to the lesbian flag, many of u chimed in n i cldnt thank u enough ❤️

[painhaver]

hey op i actually kinda like ur gay flag!! but i also feel like gnc got binarized by it? it feels more like gnc should just be its own stripe so that all types of gay gender nonconformity can be represented without explicit ties to either the masc or fem stripes

ok so i thought abt this n talked to a couple of my friends abt it n decided that i agree w u actually! gender-nonconformity doesnt need to b split into a masc/fem dichotomy. i chose to keep the masc/fem in the dark green n violet stripes bcuz, tho i wldnt necessarily consider them identities per se, they r long-recognized terms to denote the presentation n behavior of many ppl in our community. masc n fem ppl can b n often r gnc in their own ways, but gnc isnt limited to being masc or fem presenting n as someone who's nonb, gay, n considers my presentation to b gnc masc/androgynous, i cldnt agree with u more

all that being said i rlly dont want to add a new stripe, i feel honestly that it wld upset the visual balance of the flag [which im v happy w as it is] n i cant think of a way to introduce a 7th stripe that makes sense. so i came up w a compromise!

i realized that the indigo stripe, which already represents freedom n self-expression, can also represent gnc gay ppl. i feel that being gnc, the freedom to b gnc, n the way we express ourselves thru gender-nonconformity, r all linked, n therefore shld b on a stripe together. ill rb my flag post w this addition in a minute but i wanted to share my edited version of the stripe meanings w u first since yr the one who so kindly brought this to my attention :-) i appreciate yr input n i think the indigo flag makes even MORE sense this way, including gnc gay ppl along w freedom n self-expression just makes the most sense n idk why i didnt do it this way in the first place lol

COLOR MEANINGS 2.0:

DARK GREEN: masculinity, manhood, masc gays

GREEN: love, gay love being natural

LIGHT GREEN: nonbinary gay ppl

LIGHT BLUE: gay trans men

INDIGO: freedom, self-expression, gnc gays

VIOLET: femininity, feminine presentation, fem gays

[painhaver-moved]

if i dont kill at least one person before i die i will literally kill myself

[painhaver-moved]

hey im remaking my blog, it's not 100% set up yet but if anyone wants my new url just like this post and ill send it to u :-) itll b basically the same content as this one

[kenderman]

had a very interesting nightmare where i

was trapped in my childhood best friend's home (arranged like a tower, 10 floors, ornate furniture) bc the ladder leading up had two bugs the size of my forearm, were resting. the whole home had the same colouration with the filter used for that baseball scene from twxlight.

looking in the mirror to see something wiggling under my skin just below my eye. throwing up half dead grubs and caterpillars to 'you're never fully dressed without a smile' playing in the background. then contemplating whether I should go to the doctors (which almost made me wake myself up bc I couldnt believe even in a dream I am crippled by no health insurance LMAO)

was in line getting lunch, the person making my sandwich couldnt comprehend that I only wanted turkey and cheese which became a bologna and mustard sandwich and I was like okay, fine. got to the register where my anxiety got bad and I couldnt locate the card to pay (ended up trying to swipe my school id?) It got declined. Having to count out $11.20 in exact change multiple times while asking the cashier 'is it 11.20? I failed algebra you see?' all for a botched sandwich.

The two lion deities engage each other in combat both wielding a katana. The battle COULD have been legendary if it wasn't all happening in a dank gymnasium. both lions had high ranking colour katanas (two different shades of pink) but some kid on the bleachers challenges them both while pulling out their own katana which was sterling (the strongest colour on the power scale) and proceeds to kick both their asses while barely being able to hold their weapon. I woke myself up at that point.

all in one nightmare, gave me whiplash. I've been a lucid dreamer since a kid and I normally wake myself up during nightmares but this one was too bizarre and in character to NOT watch.