“If you sleep I’m gutting you like a fish and hanging your skin on the wall.”
MISC . DISCORD CONVERSATIONS
at the sound of krueger’s voice nancy flinches, jumps a mile. reflexively, she hits herself hard on the head to keep herself awake. god, either she’d almost dozed off or she’s beginning to hallucinate ———— one of the two. oh, GOD. ( stay awake. stay awake. stay awake. )
she’s begun to lose track of time. perhaps she’s been awake twelve hours, or thirty three, or fifty one … nancy has no idea. practically sleepwalking at this point, she gets up and makes herself another pot of coffee and takes another pill, hands trembling with the excessive amount of caffeine she’s been drinking this week. ( it’s practically an addiction now. whenever she finishes a cup she can’t go too long without having another. but it’s not an addiction, she tells herself, it’s survival. ) when she tries to put the coffee pot back on the counter, it slips and drops on the floor and she has to cover her mouth to stop from screaming and waking mother. in that moment she feels so HOPELESS, absolutely shattered, like nothing she can do will ever end this endless cycle of torment.
she doesn’t let it last long though : she won’t. not if it kills her. this is what freddy wants and she knows it and she’d rather kill herself than let it happen, shaking as she kneels down to the ground to pick up the smashed glass. well, she’s going to need to ask her parents to buy a new coffee machine. and she knows what the answer will be. nancy curses under her breath. ❝ damn it. damn it ! ! ❞
when the coffee is cleaned up and the glass is thrown in the trash, nancy buries her head in her hands and lets out a strangled moan of frustration before popping yet another pill for good measure. she can’t go on like this. but she will. she WILL. nancy forces herself to straighten and open her eyes wide. she won’t give in, not to krueger.
when she finally brings herself to answer him, her voice is filled with absolute VITRIOL. ❝ how’s about you MAKE me, freddy ? i’m WAITING. ❞