dreaming absence as my future, confusing accents whine and inner-line my thoughts. Opposing forces shifted and intertwined, forcing for my forfeit. Waking up early morning, fake a smile, and force it, upholding lies just like I'm law enforcement. Mentally contorted, can't change how my words escape me and I'm transparent like porcelain. The worst case scenario; it's how my visions of the future become concluded; Clouded and deluded, still not used to it; this sickness that I grew up with. "Chin up, kid" preached to me abruptly, mistrusting, Some get disgusted when sharing my point of view from the basin that I threw up in. Smug grins that mask sin, marched in regardless of how I feel half dead and anxious while manicially laughing. Don't beg my pardon, spread your arms and fly high to discover how your heart's been hardened. Mentality Sharpened like glass shards, such fine art in similtaneously building myself up while tearing myself apart; self-sabotage at last I can sit alone at a bar with a glass in each hand holding together a broken heart, Disheartened when we're world's apart as past tense is still present and the future's lacking my presence. Its money well spent; habits have me seeing straighter when I'm bent, out of shape and I apologise to my parents. I'm out of place refusing rat races and accepting a neverending list of my demerits. Am I the result of genetic inheritance? Broken at birth or through what I've learnt? will I make a place to live or dive deeper in regret? The fat ladies sung and I've made my bed, get these monsters out my head but I'd rather sit around and think of all the pathways I wish I walked along instead. #melbourne #melbourneartist #abandoned #urbex #urbanex #graffiti #streetart #photography #film #35mm #filmphotography #filmisnotdead #buyfilmnotpixels #olympus #olympusmjuii #mjuii #kodak #portra400 #kodak_photo #finkelcaptures