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The seventeen asks post from a bit ago :3 Swimming fool? Habit? When I grow up?

Fuji asking me a kpop related ask I must be lucky c:

swimming fool: can you swim?

yes I can! how I learned is a rather funny story though...

habit: what is one good and bad habit of yours?

I’m not... very aware... of my good habits... Jeremy says I’m conscientious of my work ethic (like, my actual job work ethic, not at home, which I guess is true?)

first bad habit that comes to my head is my uncanny knack to fixate on things that stress me out

when i grow up: if you could give any one piece of advice to your younger self, what would it be?

going off that bad habit I listed, I wish I could tell myself not to obsessive over the standards my parents set up... definitely has led to a little bit of perfectionism in me and a lot of anxiety ^^;

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hi RRRRRRRainahhh!!!!!!! 5,20,32,45

HI FUJIJI- I wonder how far this question thing is on my blog lol

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?

Tons of people~ There are some that I can think of make me smile without a doubt, though: Jeremy makes me smile, obviously. For little reasons usually, he doesn’t normally do anything “special” per se. My friend Anna makes me smile. She has a lot of little quirks that when I’m in her presence I notice, even if she isn’t aware she’s doing something, and it’s amusing. My friend Caity makes me smile, as well. Mainly because she sends me snapchats of her cat or she’ll say something really sarcastic when she texts me, and her humor is very unique to her so I enjoy it. You make me smile, as well. Hearing your voice on dolby really highlights the end of my day and I’m excited to see you again in December.

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?

I don’t like questions about choosing favorites I suck at this T_T

I can narrow it down to about four but I can’t go any further than that: Nillili Mambo by Block B (all-time favorite and will always be a favorite of mine), Scoring Drive by Casey Dunmore, Addicted to Memory by Zedd, and Tag You’re It by Melanie Martinez.

Those are a few of my most-played songs recently. I really suck at “favorite” questions ;~;

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?

Guys, lol. I literally only have two best friends that are girls: Caity and Anna.

I have online friends that are female that I’d like to meet in person some day, who I feel I am very close with. But honestly I connect better with girls when there isn’t any physical presence needed to the relationship. I get annoyed with other girls very easily and although I have feminine traits to my personality, I also have very boyish traits as well, too. Caity and Anna are two that don’t test my patience.

45. how you found out about your idol

Okay so I have different idols that I look up to. Two of them were found through media outlets because they’re famous, as in celebrity status. The other one, although famous, is an artist and I actually discovered him through my photography teacher in high school my freshman year.

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EROS?

E - Easiest person to talk to?

my friend Paige! she is an awesome person that i met a few years back that i instantly became friends with, we talk about everything and anything without much of a filter on topic or response.

R - Reason to smile?

there a million things to smile about, but mine would be seeing any person get excited to tell me something. seeing someone teach you or tell you something very enthusiastically is what makes me swell up with joy.

O - One wish?

to learn all, i wish i could understand and have perfect understanding. i also get that if i knew everything i would have nothing to learn but then i can do the other thing i love to do and teach people.

S - Song i last sung?

No Strings (RAC Remix) - Mayer Hawthorne

a nice song that gets the good vibes going for me

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I am done

I am so tired of writting papers. I love talking and discussing verbally but when It comes to papers I am quite finished with this bull shit

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I think I am ready to let it all go.

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I miss being intimate with someone i learned to love.

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tonight i have been told:

i dont know how to respect my mother

i dont know how to act and do things for others with out trying to get something out of it.

i dont know how to appreciate anything for me

that i was never taught how to be a better person and like will show me eventually.

"if you could have been raised differently i could have have a better personality."

these all came from my mom

i am not mad

i am just bummed

i deserve it.

i am a bastard. i have done nothing to deserve the treatment and compasion i have gotten from my mom.

i am constantly procrastinating and i leave my room a mess and i care nothing for my appearance and demeaner.

i love my mom and she is stressed and mad recently and i don't expect anything different. i should find a better way of showing it than just saying it.

this makes me very worried of the type of partner i will become and the person that is under my apathy.

i am not a good person.