#first painting

[this-love-is-maze]

[starsanarchy]

finished ahsoka tano painting 31.01.26

[czaryork]

hey tumblr bots.

the year is finally ending. thank god.

it’s been a terrible year.

i lost my brother.

i dealt with someone who made me doubt my own sanity.

i held my grandmother’s hand as she took her last breath, after my mother and i spent two and a half years caring for her while she fought cancer with everything she had.

i survived two attempts on my life.

i checked myself into the grippy sock hotel.

and yet — here i am.

grateful. not for the pain, but for what survived it.

the best thing that came out of this year was inheriting my grandmother’s art supplies. she was an incredible painter. she gave the love of art to me and all of my cousins. i always wanted to paint, but i was afraid of it. intimidated. an art teacher once told me to never paint because my hands were too shaky — and i believed her.

after my grandmother passed, i felt an overwhelming need to paint. it was all-consuming. i couldn’t ignore it. so i did.

i still don’t know what i’m doing with paint. but for the first time since my grandmother got sick, i felt something. painting stopped the nightmares of my brother lying in his casket. it quieted the noise the way my stipple work does — at least for a little while.

this is my first time sharing this.

The Invasive Rot of Grief: A Mycology of Self

if you made it this far, thank you for witnessing this with me.

if grief has changed you too, you’re not alone.

[that-one-untaken-username]

Fiddling around with Acrylics

Inspired by various art pieces on Pinterest

Not super happy with it, but for a first time working with acrylic paint I think it turned out pretty good.

Free will! Hehe

[teruoturtle]

this is my first painting, I don't think it's that good, but maybe you'll like it. Or not, it's fine.

[frogmonsters]

✨ My first painting check ✨

I actually did the sketch for this months ago before giving up bc I couldn’t paint. It’s abt my mom. I almost didn’t post this. Idk why. It’s not like it’s rlly a big deal to me I think. Maybe it’s bc it looks so bad 😭 Anyways I gtg I got a Biology final tomorrow :(

[rayisnthere14]

Spider-man Painting

[thebigtear]

My first ever painting i did for a person🥲

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for a coworker😇٩( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝) 人( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝)و

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im definiertely gonna remember this day..

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