Me.
It’s sad that all my friends get a different me because, honestly, it’s exhausting to be a different “me” with everyone. But I can’t stop myself. The hardest time though, is when I’m with friends from different groups, which me am I supposed to be?
We always tell people to be honest and open, but half the time once they do, we reject them. They are left to fend for themselves. They lose everything. How do we expect honesty from them after that?
We all are always saying “don’t judge,” and yet we continue to constantly prey upon one another. We ask for honesty and then tear each other to shred once the shields come down.
I try so hard not to judge people, but I can’t help myself. It’s one of our greatest problems. And because I can’t trust people not to judge me and just accept me, I won’t be me.
I love my friends and would trust them with my life, but I can’t trust them with the rest of me. My mind, my thoughts, my secrets.
Each of my friends and family get the me they can handle.
When I was in 7th grade, my best friend went through something life-changing and didn’t tell me about it until after. When she brought herself to tell me, I wanted so badly to reveal the secret I had been keeping, but I couldn’t. I didn’t trust her to look at me the same. And that was the moment I created my Kingdom of Lies. The moment I lost myself to my secrets.
How many people are like me? Forever changing? Lying? Keeping secrets?
I just have to say, sorry if you are.
I hope one day you can escape your Kingdom of Lies, as I hope one day I can escape mine.
Xx
Adley Reigh
