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FUTURE SPOUSE - Channelled message: How will they pursue you (can also apply to long-term committed partner)

I will let your person do the talking, so this reading will be in the style of a channelled message. I feel like this style suits the theme of love readings better.

This is a general reading meant for multiple people. Take only what resonates and leave out the rest.

Your feedback is much appreciated. If you find the reading resonated with you, leave a comment, I’d love to know 🎐

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1. Aventurine

Their energy when pursuing you: Octopus

Please don't feel the need to distant yourself from me. From the beginning, I've already felt that we are meant to be, I'm meant to be your partner, and you're meant to be mine. So I will act like one, I will see our path together clearly. Without a doubt, every step I take will be towards that path.

But you may not welcome it at first, though. You probably will have some reservations about me acting so close, so soon. But I can't help myself. When I'm attracted to someone, I want to give them my all. I have to admit that I find it hot when you push me away a little when I'm acting all clingy.

Boundaries might be an issue between us. Later when we are in relationship, we will act like one unit, two people but sharing one heart and mind, people might even comment that we have similar 'air', even though we might look completely opposite of each other. But in the beginning, I may need your reminder sometimes to respect the boundaries that you have erected around yourself. I think your ability to show clearly to me what is okay, what is not is really endearing and attractive.

I will try to show my best self to you, to act confident and spontaneous. Please don't judge me as a know-it-all or a bragger, I just want to show off a little bit, to show you that I'm capable and open, that I know things that surely will stimulate your mind. We will talk about all kinds of things, whatever you can think of, I will be willing to entertain the conversation, even if I don't know much about it or even don't know about it at all. Every word you've ever said will be etched into my memory, but I may act like I don't remember much of it. Don't be surprised when many months or many years later, I can still bring up the conversation we had for the first time. You mentioned one time that you would like to go to that place or want to try that food ? I will try to act oblivious and then surprise you later.

Sometimes, I will say some ridiculous things. It's just me trying to appear cool but failed completely, I can't help being myself when I'm with you.

Tell me your desire, and I will fulfil it for you, no matter the cost. I have to admit that I may go overboard on spoiling you with material things. It's a deep fear of mine, I'm afraid that without tangible proofs, you won't see my affection properly. It's a kind of pattern for me, it happened before in my previous relationships. Sometimes, it didn't work out so great for me. But it's okay, you probably will give me a lecture about going overboard anyway. I'm good in your hands.

You will never have to doubt my intention or my love for you. No playing around (though I will try to play it cool), I will find thousands of ways to tell you how much I love you, so be prepared to remember it all. Even if you don't remember, I will remind you again and again.

2. Amethyst

Their energy when pursuing you: Bee

I don't know if you will ever have some doubt about my intentions for you. No, I don't have any bad intentions. It's just that you will doubt if I do have any special feeling for you or I am just a friendly person in general. Oh, darling, that 'friendliness' that you perceived is just a cover for my intense desire for you.

I'm not a person of many words, I find it hard to express my emotions eloquently, at least my deeper emotions. Will you see me as just someone helpful and fun, someone to have a light banter now and then and will be put into the back of your mind, forgotten? Ah, that will be the death of me.

Distance will be there, between us, we won't be able to see each other frequently, at least during the beginning. I will try my best to be present as much as possible, to come to you, to erase that distance. It won't be easy, so many things will hold us apart. But slowly and surely, you will find my existence in your life indispensable.

One day, I will wake up with a sudden revelation (believe me, I'm not usually that dramatic). I will see our path together clearly. It will be forward, into the highest place we want ourselves and us to be. Moving forward with you will feel like natural order, the most obvious thing. Maybe during my sleep, my heart and my spirit have been working overtime to give my mind this revelation. At first, I will feel this inexplicable urge to show my heart for all the world to see (obviously I won't do that right away, may be later, don't be too embarrassed by my overt actions sometimes). I will feel like I have been pushed into the ocean, deep and dark, I will try to resist, just a little, you know that my resistance will be futile. Once I've learnt how to swim in that ocean, you will be sure that I will build a fleet out of myself and come to you. Probably a fleet of submarines though, with all the 'friendly and have no other intention' impression that you have of me.

This fleet will arrive at your door suddenly, I will find some practical excuses to be at your door, I'm practising my creativity here. Will you go out with me to see this flower blossoming for the first time, will you go outside and have a walk with me when it's drizzling, I will bring umbrellas of course, but later, we might just forget the umbrellas. How about a trip to another country then come back on the same day ? How about making pottery together ?

I will try to act dependable and predictable, but I can't guarantee that I won't act like a child sometimes. My inner child just feels alive when I'm with you. Maybe later, when I'm more comfortable showing it with you. For the moment, I will just let it sneak out sometimes. Let your inner child out, too. We will play with each other wholeheartedly. Let us hold hands and walk this road together.

3. Tiger's eye

Their energy when pursuing you: Cosmic egg

So I've been searching, going on this seemingly endless journey. The moment that I'm contented with myself, I meet you. It will feel like a reward, no, it will feel like this is what has been waiting for me to find all along. Not to sound like someone delusional, talking about the soul and whatnot right from the beginning. Just know that every action I take is motivated by this inner peace within me. I will know, subconsciously (I don't dare to consciously think), that we are meant to be, our paths will collide and become one. It's just a matter of how to ground it into something substantial.

I will get these nudges, these tips from the universe on how to pursue you. Let me tell you a secret, despite my practical, or even clinical approach to everything, I'm actually a romantic, I believe in fairytale and spirits working behind the scenes, I believe in the inevitable. That is us. So I won't force anything. All I have to do is to trust and to act, carefully and meticulously.

I will go with the flow of our conversations. We might not be able to stop. What is at first just a light banter will turn into hours -long deep talk. We will lose ourselves sometimes in these conversations. We will talk about both the personal experiences of ours and about the social happening around us. Nothing is too weird, too taboo to talk about. I will let you talk more while I stay silent to let your words sink into me. I have to admit that a part of the reason will also be that I want to get lost in your voice, I just love to hear your voice.

I have quite a black and white view of the world, you could think that I'm too intense, that I have strong opinions about everything. I will try to temper that tendency when talking with you, I will be more open to your ideas, willing to be led to a new way of thinking. You humble my ego a little, and I'm grateful for that.

I will get out my safety shell for you. I will be like the kid that looking out of the window to see other kids playing outside but too shy to come out of the house to join them. But one day, when I see this particular kid, you, I will take my tentative steps out of the house to join you. Then, every day, the window will be my favourite place, I can't just wait to find you through the window and then dash out to meet you. I will try to be around you every day, not intrusively, just being around, being helpful. I believe that practice makes perfect.

I may go out of my way to make myself more presentable and attractive in your eyes. I'm generally a polished person, but with you, I will become even more self-conscious. It's strange how I don't care what you look like, you could might as well be wearing a potato sack and I will still find you attractive, but when it's come to me, I want to be my most beautiful self in front of you. I can't wait to be your beautiful potato sack one day.

4. Carnelian

Their energy when pursuing you: Elephant

Oh dear, why do you have to appear in my life like that. I feel like fate is playing with me. Me, a person that seems to have it all in life, just out and about in my usual routine. You, coming in like a storm, a gentle but devastating storm.

I will have to confess early here that at first, I will just play it light and fun. I won't have a serious intention with you. My life has been like that, a series of fun and lighthearted flings, so I thought that this time with you would be no exception, and oh boy, was I wrong.

You will pour ice cold water on my head (figuratively, though I can't guarantee that it won't become literal when we are playing with each other, iykwim), it will wake me up from my stupor. Soon enough, I will get my act together. But it's not like I will do a 180-degree and become some sombre, pragmatic, and serious person. No, I will retain the light-heartedness when flirting with you, but that will come from my genuine heart, not from some kind of strategy to win someone.

Please don't say that I'm childish. Society has already placed so many restrictions on us. Let us be free with each other. I will act a little needy, wanting to be spoiled by you (and get rejected spectacularly). When it won't work, I will switch up, spoiling you. If that won't work either, then I will just sit down and chat about life with you. Hey, that's might be more effective than I thought. Our ways of approaching romance are just not very similar, but don't worry, I'm flexible. If one way doesn't work, then I will find another way. Once I have my vision, I won't be able to let go. Whatever obstacles lie between us, I will remove them all. And there will be obstacles, I just want to prepare you beforehand. Not everyone will be thrilled about us, about me pursuing you, but pay them no mind, they won't be there, in our happiness together.

I know that I will have to change something, to give up something, or someone in order to be with you. And I will take that risk. Sometimes, doubts will still haunt me, I will be a little paranoid and vigilant, ready to face whatever the world throws at us. You might ask me one day, why am I being so stubborn, why trying so hard for us. But you see, it won't be me trying alone, you will be too, despite your complaints, you will want to give us a chance, many chances, and we will both be trying.

5. Flourite

Their energy when pursuing you: Bear

I may have become a little rusty in this flirting game. It won't feel like a game to me. Everything feels so serious and heavy. Don't be afraid of my seriousness, I've just came out from a long winter, my heart is still a little hard, but spring is here, I will take my tentative steps toward you, the sunshine that I very much needed.

Tell me your pains and your hardship, I will soothe it away, and I will put a stop to any pain, any inconvenience that you have. I will work with you, help you with your daily life, and make your life more comfortable.

I will be restrained and act polite towards you. You won't be able to guess just how much I think about you and how much I feel for you. Lying in my bed at night, imagine you next to me, no, it doesn't need to be anything sexual, I just want the closeness, the feeling of you being close to me, it makes me feel alive. It will take quite some time for us to be physically intimate with each other. Because I feel that being too close too soon is not appropriate, it would cause a lot of issues later on. So let's just take our time, I'm not going anywhere soon. When the right time comes, we won't be able to stay away from each other.

When we are apart, I will think of you and just want to run back to you. So I will send you messages, calling you, we will remember our late night phone calls. We will sometimes laugh so loud that our neighbours will be annoyed. Other times, we will be crying, sobbing quietly or crying aloud, soft whispers, worried thoughts, warm encouragement, and linger desires. I wish to make a podcast show from our conversations, for just the two of us to listen to.

I wonder if you will notice my eyes when I'm looking at you. I wish you could, but I also wish you couldn't. My eyes will betray me, I can't hide my feelings, and my thoughts, they will just spill out. All of them will flow into one destination, you. I will try to look away sometimes, not wanting to make you uncomfortable with my intense gaze. Or will you look at me like that, too ? Let's not make it a staring contest.

If you feel tired or bored, don't hesitate to tell me. I will take you away to where you can just float and relax, we will have our favourite place at the beach, I will watch you float on the water, swoop down then emerge from the water again, like a mermaid. You don't know how to swim ? You will, by the time we get together, I won't say how. Maybe I will draw you, or take pictures of you, the appropriate kind of pictures, of course (not). You make me want to sing, to wake my sleeping poet for you. I have a spring song dedicated for you already. Let's make our songs for the many seasons to come.

6. Labradorite

Their energy when pursuing you: Sea serpent

If you ever feel self-conscious around other people, don't be with me. The more you show me the honest, the more raw parts of you, the more I'm hooked. You just could do no wrong in my eyes. Whatever you do, it just seems like a waltz, a graceful ripple of space. Do you think chomping down a burger in a few minutes is unsightly ? No, no, if you are the one doing it, it will look like a masterpiece of a food advertising. I'm supposed that I'm biased.

If someone says something negative about you, I will defend you vehemently. It's not my nature to be forceful, but I just can't take it when others put their unsolicited opinions on you, on us. You will be my weak spot for sure.

Not gonna lie, I may want to introduce you to my many groups of friends, as a friend at first, of course. I will try to act cool, to show you how knowledgeable and smart I am in a group setting, I might even seek some helps from my friends. Will you be able to see through my tactics ?

When I realise that I love you, I will have this tunnel vision, I will feel like Alice going down the rabbit hole. I will be scared, for all my bravery, I'm not prepared for this intensity. It may take a while for me to get used to it, before that, I'm afraid that I will act a little hot and cold with you. Please be patient with me.

Pursuing you will put me in this strange position. I'm not used to the idea of marriage and children. But somehow I will find myself thinking about it, even discussing it with you. Will you be open to that idea ? If not, then I hope that I can convince you of that gradually. I will also try to convince the world about us, to show them just how right we are together.

I don't know if I will be able to hide it well. But I have this fear of abandonment, of loss, and life just feel ephemeral to me sometimes. So the idea of me wanting to spend the rest of my life with someone will be a little frightening. But i will try to be rational about it. I will think of concrete and practical steps that will prove my fears wrong. Who knows, they may be right, but I would rather be with you and learn to live with those fears than not being with you.

I will just say this much and continue finding ways to improve myself before meeting you. Even after meeting you, I will not stop striving to be a better me, for me, for you, for us.

Love.

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IF YOU CHOOSE THIS CAREER, HOW WILL IT BE? (P2)

This is part 2 of the previous career reading, you can read part 1 here. Because I'm a greedy person, three options in the previous reading were not enough so I added more. Think about a career and pick a group to see how it will turn out if you choose that career.

This is a general reading meant for multiple people. Take only what resonates and leave out the rest.

Your feedback is much appreciated. If you find the reading resonated with you, leave a comment, I’d love to know 🎐

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1. Agate

An online presence that shines really bright. You may work from home and connect to a large community online. Likely a creative career that allows you to show your creations to a large audience.

Could be art, fashion or body building related. There's an element of showcasing, how you do it, the process, the end result, the motivation.

This career would bring in a lot of new friends and acquaintances that can help boost your popularity. But you will have to sacrifice a certain amount of privacy for this. This career requires you to constantly share about yourself, your personal matters, your life, lots of exposure. Because it brings motivation and inspiration to people.

Masculine influence is big here. People with masculine energy, goal focused, always looking for ways for self-improvement, independent people. They will be your biggest cheerleaders and will influence your reputation, both in positive and negative way. And if you choose this career, you need to show yourself in the opposite way of these people. To show your feminine energy more, be more receptive and nurturing. Opposite attracts. People who are in their masculine energy will gravitate towards feminine energy to balance them out. You will help them be more open to different perspectives, in a way, you "mission" in this career is to help people destroy the old way of thinking that no longer serves personal growth and build a more healthy perception. You may paint or sing, and the value of the painting or the song perceived by other people lies in how they help people improve their life. It's like showing servitude to the people through your creations.

Your finance will be abundance but it will largely be dependent on the amount of exposure and popularity that you garner, which can be exhausting at times.

2. Flourite

The word "teaching" just screamed in my head. Even if you are not a teacher, there will always be some elements of teaching, guiding in the career that you choose.

This career will need you to be firm and in your own authority. This will not be about yourself, though. It's like you need to fulfil a certain role in society for this job. Contrary to the first group, this group's focus is about the other people and not showcasing your personal life. Your personal life will remain hidden from the job that you do.

The idea is you being a kind of conduit, receiving, observing the collective and then reorganise the information to deliver it to other people. This could be related to spirituality, being a channelling messenger. Or this could be related to the mass media, conducting surveys and analysing the mass to predict and report the trends.

Lots of information exchanges. There's also manipulation in this career. The things that are delivered to other people are not always the raw truths but refined ones with the purpose to achieve certain desired results. You will need to be self-assured and independent in this career to navigate some complicated scenarios.

The job is fast-paced and intense, disciplined. You need to be in your masculine energy more often to address the people, to show yourself. Maintaining your own moral code is necessary because if not, you could get swept along with whatever the current of the place that you are working at. Hidden rivalry will also be there.

This job does give you material comfort, the job might not be too high paying but there will be gifts from other people.

3. Strawberry quartz

This career will drag you out of your comfort zone, in an unexpected manner to boost. It's like the universe is saying : "Oh no, you not gonna hide yourself inside a safety shell. You will need to aim higher."

There will be many opportunities for learning and travel. Travel is the heart of this career. Whether physically or mentally, you will constantly expand your mindset, your well of experiences. And your finance too.

You will need to work hard and put in the effort to sustain this career. This career is not for playing around, it requires serious intention and dedication.

You will deal with lots of feminine people. Women and the people in their feminine energy will be your main focus. They bring contracts, alliance and support, but if not careful, they could also be your enemies.

You need tact and diplomacy in dealing with people in this career. Being forceful and demanding won't work. All things must be in an agreeable and harmonious manner. There could be some hypocrisy or at least, superficial interactions involved.

This career will pull towards the public, the outer world so much that you will need periodic vacations to recharge, ample of rest to re-calibrate your energy and spirit. Be careful not to neglect your personal life and home. If your home life is not in good condition, you won't have enough energy to do this job effectively. Work-life balance is the emphasis here.

While doing this job, there's will be many chances to revisit old places, old friends and acquaintances. You will hone your social skills and learn to embrace changes and newness.

4. Red jasper

This career will be something completely different from your past experience or expectations. There will be lots of newness, things that you are not familiar with. If you choose this career, it will be a move to step out of your comfort zone.

I see lots of pairs, pairs of opposite. You will be in the role of a mediator, standing in between conflicts or disagreements to harmonise different personalities and points of view.

This career will require you to be direct in a gentle way. To know and understand yourself first before putting yourself into the job, to not lose yourself in the job. Because this job involves lots of people and interpersonal skills. It could be about resolving legal conflict, relationship counselling, or anything related to making relationships between people better.

You will have lots of expectations and worries concerning this career. Stress is always around the corner because there will be conflicts, egos clashes, or rivalry. Keeping emotional balance is very crucial for you, having some hobbies that help you relax and detach yourself from the job. Even though the job could be stressful but you will feel a sense of luck with what you're doing. Things usually turn out better than you thought, and helping hands will always be there for you.

Even though you work with lots of people, I see that you will not be in a group but work alone, independently. There will be contacts with different cultures, the workplace could have many foreigners working, so learning new language, learn to adapt to different cultures will be a prominent theme for you.

I will be honest, financial gain will not be big in this job. It will fluctuate and not a stable income. Sometimes, you will doubt if the job is worth it, at that time, reexamine your path and ask yourself if you feel satisfied? Are you enjoying yourself while doing this job?

5. Citrine

I think you choosing this career will mainly come from a concern about finance and stability. Will it satisfy your concerns? It will, it's a logical choice, you will enjoy the job, it suits your personality and your style of working. It won't be demanding or stressful. But you will still feel uneasy, a sense of not enough, still wanting more.

The job will be a traditional one, the kind of job that has been around for so long, not a new kind of job. There will be some kind of performance anxiety in this job. You will want to do the job flawlessly and want to build a professional image in the workplace, especially to the higher-ups. And I think you will, other people will find you to be a responsible and dedicated person, although can be clueless sometimes, but it will make people wanting to guide you and giving you help and support.

This career will need you to put your mind and mental power to full use. If you're someone who enjoys learning and communication, this job will satisfy that aspect for you. There will be lots of new information and knowledge to absorb. Talking with coworkers is welcomed, lots of fun banters and gossip . The working environment is pleasant and allowed for personal freedom.

Doing this job for a long time can make you feel spiritually withdrawn. You are there for the job but the work doesn't bring sparks into your heart. If you value financial stability more, then this won't be a big issue because sometimes a job is just a job, putting too much expectations into it will make it stressful for you.

6. Tiger's eye

This is the career that you already have some prior experience or mastery over it. If you choose this career, you will be able to make use of your knowledge and expertise. If you haven't had any working experience, then this career will feel familiar to what you have been learning. It will feel easy and not too difficult.

Promotion and reputation will be easily achieved. You will feel that you're walking on the right path.

This group's reading would be short because it's pretty straightforward and not too complicated.

You will be in the role of a teacher, a supervisor for other people, you can learn a lot and also teach a lot. Communication is key in this career, how you deliver your ideas, how you construct those into a concrete project and how you can pursue other people of your ideas will be crucial to your advancement.

The problem can be about burning out, you may have a lot of ideas that you want to execute, and you want them to be perfect, it's a kind of self demand that you put on yourself. The dreams and the drive are all there, but to execute them, you will need lots of planning and practical structure to help shape them.

The financial aspect will not be too stable, but you will feel satisfied with what you get. After a while, though, you might want to shake things up a little, to make changes to the routine work, to be bigger. Be sure to not let unrealistic idealism or restlessness overshadow or sabotage what you've achieved.

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How to love yourself better? A request letter from yourself. (Channelled message)

This is a general reading meant for multiple people. Take only what resonates and leave out the rest.

Your feedback is much appreciated. If you find the reading resonated with you, leave a comment, I’d love to know 🎐

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1. White

Dear myself,

If I could light a fire right now, I could, just to see if that fire can compete with my light, our light. And yet I got a feeling that fire will burn brighter than us, just because it had someone to start it. But ours didn't. We stowed our fire away, our light, for fear of burning the eyes of the world? Or for fear of being engulfed in the sea of darkness outside?

Have you ever seen a solar eclipse? People gathered to watch it, a brief moment of the sun being eaten. A brief moment. Imagine how the world would be if that brief moment turned into a very long moment, an eternal one? Panic, fear, despair. We have prolonged our solar eclipse for far too long, let the Sun has its shine. Does it sound arrogant when I talk of us as the Sun? No, you should get used to it. To be the light, the be seen. Even when the Sun seems like a solitary existence on the sky, it's not, so are we.

I wanted to tell you many beautiful words, give you praises and a pat on the head. Sounds embarrassing, right? We should learn to do that more often. And then practice it with other people too, we all need it sometimes, a lot of times.

Do you know what will happen when we turn the anger on ourselves? Somehow, it will ricochet inside us and finally shoot out at other people. It's painful, for us and for them. Let's hold it in our hands, watch it breathe and stroke it gently, find where does it hurt and tend to it, then poof- it's gone. You catch anger not by throwing it around and putting it in a cage but let it heal and fly away on its own.

I'm sure that sometimes you will find yourself drowning in life, in other people's water. Losing yourself could be your worst nightmare. But you will never lose me. It's odd how we're surrounded by people but feel like we are alone in our struggle. Where did all the people go? Are they also drowning like us? In a different sea? I hope that all the seas are connected to each other so we can all find others to swim with us.

Till the next sun rise, yourself.

2. Pink

Oh, how I want to just throw away everything and run barefoot on the sand. To lie face up, watching the clouds passing by for hours. To paint the wall bright pink and yellow (this combination might hurt your eyes if you stare too long, though). But we're not a kid anymore, or so people have told us, much like how we've told ourselves, convinced ourselves to behave.

It's fascinating to watch the process of our resistance to what is taught to us. Why do we resist it so much? It feels like being gravely offended. We have our principles, and now we have to listen to others telling us what is right? What is wrong? Let me tell you, in a small whisper, it's actually nice to listen. Just listening, not obeying. It will feel like swallowing a rock. Maybe we could learn from the chickens a little, metaphorically. They swallow small rocks to aid in healthy digestion. So let's swallow some of the hard lessons.

You always like to think in concrete fashion. You try to touch your thoughts with your own hands and knead them, mould them into whatever you want. And when you're dropped into a relationship with someone, you find yourself lost that ability. It's all a jumble mess. You find your hands reaching out, grasping for something. How about the other person? Are you afraid that you will lose yourself if you hold on to them? It's fine, you won't. It's just an outdated belief that you've held on for far too long.

As we were talking about swallowing, you may want to watch what you're swallowing into your stomach, literally. Watch what you eat! Don't make yourself, ourselves suffer by bringing unhealthy things into our body. We may want to live long, you know.

Hey, if you find a dance class is too embarrassing, how about we turn off the light and dance with each other in the middle of the night. Nobody will know, but we will feel good (I'm not trying to be a flirt with myself here)

Your best friend, love.

3. Red

Make me a cup of tea, please.

Let's have a chat, just us, lying around lazily, sipping our favourite tea, imagining some weird scenarios to entertain us, playing some puzzle.

I don't have much to tell you because we talk to each other every day and I know you always try to be better for us. I love you and I'm proud of you. Let's be vain and give ourselves applause every day. Make it a pinky promise.

A reminder when you're feeling sluggish and slow, we are going to exactly where we need to be. You are guided and protected.

Keep on shining and be the little kid that runs around in the rain.

I love it when you're running wild, letting yourself, me, free, splashing colours everywhere. I just want to grab other people's hands and drag them to the dance. I love it when you're laughing, loudly, even better when you jolted others around you, oh, their surprised look, priceless.

Just be sure to take care of your body. Don't over tasking them. Work hard, play hard, but rest hard also.

Have you been thinking about going on a trip somewhere? No? Then, allow me to make a gentle request. Let me put the idea in your head. Go on, go to wherever you're thinking, there might be a surprise waiting for us, *hint: it will make our heart flutter*.

Let's make it a ritual to go on a trip every year. Let's give our mind and spirit a makeover. Dust off any tangled mess we have and prepare a space for new things to come into. I'm so excited.

It's got me thinking lately, there's this small blinking light in the back of our mind, sometimes I can see it, sometimes I can't. I want to find out what it is. It's like a signal, trying to reach us, can you feel it? Sometimes, there's this odd feeling swelling inside that you can't put your hand on and naming it. I think if we can sit still, quiet, in the dark, we could see it better. It's guiding us. To where? I got a feeling that it's somewhere deep, somewhere with a treasure, waiting for us. If we can uncover it, it will be the greatest gift that the universe has ever given us. So let's go and find it.

Love, myself.

4. Green

I have some news for you. Brace yourself for changes. They're coming, very fast, very soon. Sit yourself tight. I don't want to give spoilers, but I guess we will receive some sudden confessions or offers. What you will do with those confessions is completely your choice. You don't have to feel guilty if you don't return their feelings, my dear.

I think the way the universe is sending us this kind of surprise is telling us to reconsider our 'single' thinking mode. We have stood alone, strong and independent for so long, I think it actually makes us a little too comfortable in being alone that the thought of getting into a connection with someone can be daunting. Will we lose our freedom? What if we are dependent on them? This time, the universe is saying: 'you and your worries will not make a good journey together, break up with those worries, here, I will throw in some opportunities for you to practice '.

If you don't want romantic connection at the moment, fine, different types of connections will come. No matter what, the universe is determined to get us involved with other people. It's for our own good. I have to admit that it's hard. It's not easy to change our way of thinking and believing. So surprises will be needed.

When opportunities come, the gate is opened, we just need to receive them. Walking through the gate will feel like walking out of a confinement into the wild, lively world outside. We will be propelled into a new path that we hadn't even considered in the past. Beware of what you said in the past about how you don't want to do something, you can't imagine yourself doing something. Well, guess what, we are going to do just that, joke on us.

So, in the meantime, even if you're resisting, it's fine. Just take care of yourself, of us. Obsessive worrying can sadden our body.

Something is going away, giving space to a new energy coming in. This new energy will be softer, more loving. The harshness of the past will go away soon. Trust me.

Love, Your companion.

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CRYSTAL READING: How does a healthy love for you feel like ?

This is a general reading meant for multiple people. Take only what resonates and leave out the rest.

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1. Agate

🎐Your energy when you are in a healthy relationship: Bear

This is the love that elevates your spirit.

There is no restriction or confusion. You will know this love for what it is, without any doubt of where you stand in the connection.

Something feels so sure yet so exhilarating and free.

You will feel brave and curious. Your inner child will be given freedom to roam and explore without restriction, similar to The Fool energy in Tarot. You may not notice it immediately, but your speech and actions will gradually show more joy. Others may notice that you are taking interest in more hobbies and creative pursuit, you are more open to the joy and silliness of life. Like a bear waking up to a verdant spring after a long winter hibernation.

You will feel expansive, this love encourages you to look for a deeper meaning in life, to imbue the road that you walk with more love and share your light with more people, you could even find yourself be more sociable and more willing to go to social events.

Oddly enough, even though this love feels exciting, changeable and passionate, not too much grounded and predictable, it will build a solid foundation for you, you will feel so safe and stable in yourself amidst life's changes so much that you can face hardships in the world with an open and optimistic attitude.

This love will be gentle but firm at the same time. You may feel triggered sometimes by it. It will make you look deeply into yourself and shed light on the fears that you have concerning relationships. You might even feel reluctant at first to accept this love, but with time, you will address those fears and ready to be transformed. Your demeanour and outward appearance will change. Some could be quite drastically, a more open posture, smiles appear more frequently, a certain quiet confident about your sexuality that creates charisma.

This will be the love that makes you feel like a child again but not small. Tomorrow will always feel brighter and worth looking forward to.

2. Carnelian

🎐Your energy when you are in a healthy relationship: Gazelle

A love that can keep you on your toes, not in a hyper vigilant way because you feel insecure or worry, but more like the kind that keeps you from stagnation.

This will be the love that allows you to leave your mental restrictions behind and strive for something higher, with more meaning. This love gives you ambition. Your passion will be felt by everyone. People can clearly see that you are following your desire and ideals for something higher, more fulfilling, almost like you have found your own meaning of life.

I see two parallel lines of stones. You will be able to harmonise contradictory parts in yourself and make them walk side by side. Something feels dualistic, some parts of you may be more on the dominant and active, while some parts are more soft and submissive, gentle yet intense, connecting yet detached, overall your feminine and masculine energy will be quite balanced.

This love will give you the opportunity to explore your sexuality more. You can be both the student and the teacher, willing to learn and to try new experiences. Some of you may had some fear about submitting yourself to someone, to love in the past, because you were scared that you would lose yourself, boundaries would be breached, you couldn't ground the relationship. But not with this love, you will realise that when you're with someone, you don't have to lose your identity, you can just be your most authentic self, just like the child in The Sun Tarot card.

There is no shame and barriers, communication about intimacy will be open, you will feel comfortable talking about things that you considered taboo before, secrets will be easily shared without fear of ridicule and betrayal of trust.

3. Flourite

🎐Your energy when you are in a healthy relationship: Phoenix

A healthy love for you will feel like good karma, a treasure found after a long arduous journey. The kind that no matter how many hardship you and your lover have to face, the love remains, it burns through all and rise again, not in the destructive way but in the purifying way, always burn bright even in the darkest hours. There may be a certain Plutonic influence in your relationship.

This will be the love that forces you to put down your egos to let the hearts do the talking. I used the word "force" because it would not be easy. You will come to understand that behind every stubborn remark, every rigid mental stance is a kind of vulnerability and insecurities lurking in the shadow, and you will learn to address that in a more calm, rational way. A healthy love for you is the one that bridges you and your lover's hearts and minds to see each other's strengths and weaknesses without judgement and resistance.

This love will also help you purify your social connections, to see clearly who is healthy for you, who is not and break out of the society's confinement of roles and images.

It's like a healthy love will help you build more healthy relationships with others. Sometimes, you will have to face your own loneliness and learn to be alone. A certain isolation is much needed sometimes to reevaluate your values and to rest and recharge. This love will allow you to have space without the worry of abandonment.

4. Aventurine

🎐Your energy when you are in a healthy relationship: Horse

Some of you may have a small social circle, or your life was uneventful, the energy feel reserved, introverted, and keep to oneself. Like some barrier was erected around you, maybe to keep you safe at first, but after some time, it could keep you from expanding your life more. I feel like this barrier could be from your family, your community's consensus, from people that older than you and want to take care of you, but they have lots of distrust and fears for the world, and that fears could affect you subconsciously, making you more fearful of life. The stone of mercury, mars, and soul are all on the edge of the circle, so ready to break out, but the circle is surrounded by the stone of saturn, fear, moon, and neptune.

A healthy love for you will be the one that somehow liberate you, make you feel more free, like the horse energy, you will want to ride on the horse's back to explore a world larger than your previous known one. As I was doing your reading, I felt the urge to just stand up and move around. Maybe you would also feel more active with this love.

You will want to stand in your own light and be an individual instead of just a part of a crowd. This love could even instil some rebellious spirit in you, making you question the social beliefs.

Before, you life may just revolved around a small space (figuratively and literally), with this love, you will learn to still stay firm and safe in yourself but be able to give out love to many more people. Others will also be able to sense this change in you. You will have a glow from inner contentment and open spirit. I see a gentle wind curving around on an open field.

Love.

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CRYSTAL READING: How to feel more secure in yourself

This is a general reading meant for multiple people. Take only what resonates and leave out the rest.

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1. Tiger's eye

There is a conflict within yourself about how you should present yourself to the world.

On one hand, you desire harmonious connections with people. You want to feel a sense of belonging. Because of that, you might even have a habit of people-pleasing, you are afraid that if you don't act nice, people won't accept you.

On the other hand, you feel restrictive of that habit and want to assert yourself more, creating some sudden outbursts that could take people by surprise.

You put weight on social interaction but also want to be free from the rules of that interaction.

There is nothing wrong with the desire to belong, but you may need to be more aware of the place from which that desire comes from. Is it motivated by fears? You have lots of compassion and a genuine desire for connection, to share, to nurture. Don't let that beautiful side of yours be restricted by fears and be confused with being just a means to achieve something.

To be secure with yourself is to be able to speak your truth. There will be always someone who doesn't agree with you or go against your opinions, but that doesn't mean you have to go along with them or, on the opposite, act defensive about it. Just communicate yourself clearly, with compassion and understanding, for both yourself and the other person. Practice being direct and firm yet soft and considerate at the same time. Finding the balance.

Also, I think that having a sense of direction for your life will make you feel a lot more secure in yourself. To feel that you're the one behind the driving wheel, that you are independent.

Learning and expand your knowledge of the world, to satiate your inner child's curiosity will help you feel more secured, as in, you will feel like your words have enough backbone to them and will be more confident in saying what you have to say.

2. Amethyst

There are lots of pairs in the image. It's like you would need to supplement one trait with another. To pair them up to create a more coherent story.

Sun with Mars, vitality and willpower. To spark and to act. Creatively.

Saturn with Moon, structure and nutrition. To build and to have. Steadily.

Pluto and Uranus, transformation and upheaval. To destroy and to change. Fundamentally.

Neptune and Jupiter, ideals and faith. To dream and to believe. Openly.

Mercury and Fear, thoughts and worries. To think and to feel. Gently.

Venus and Place, affection and destination. To love and to focus. Freely.

Child and Life, core and flow. To be and to go. Deeply.

For the question of how to feel more secure in yourself, the answer for you is simple, to know all of yourself, every nook and cranny, everything get to be acknowledged, no more hide and seek. The more you know about yourself, the more you will feel secure. Understanding of the self will lead to understanding of others. You will feel the flow of life and see that there is no need to hold on or to force something.

If you feel aspired towards something grand, like wanting to change the world. Don't ever think that you're too small for that. You have the ability of self-transformation, going through the birth of the self multiple times in this life.

Give your worrying mind a rest once in a while.

If you feel a lack, give yourself time and act steadily, your self worth is built over time, not in the blink of an eye.

3. Citrine

I get a story in my mind when I see your layout of the stones. A group of travellers finally settled down, built a place for themselves, and welcomed anyone to take shelter in their new home. They still go on adventures, but now they have a home to come back to. And those that are lost also can find a new home for themselves.

For you to feel more secure would be to do just like that, build a home for yourself to come back to, welcome others in, and go on adventures whenever you want. The home is not necessarily a physical house that you need to have. It's your inner home. The sense that whatever happens, you won't feel lost.

This inner home is built from inner faith. It may be religious beliefs, but it also may be just a holistic view of the world that formed in you during your journey in this life. But nonetheless, faith and spirituality are very important to you. It is the force from deep within your psyche that motivates your actions and desires. It can also manifest as physical symptoms and changes in the body. Keeping your heart healthy (figuratively and literally) will also keep your body healthy.

You may want to have a routine to practice spirituality. Conventional and well-known methods are good, but formulating your own from real-life observations and experiences is also important. Observe your dreams, have a conversation with the self regularly, and tune in to the collective stream.

But don't be too immerse in the inner working to the point of neglecting your mundane life and day to day responsibilities.

Life may throw you some crises along the way, but that is how you're tested and given opportunities to know and to be in your power. You may be taught the lesson of life's transience and how to respond with changes. Not by forcing your will or try to bend the situation to your desire but by self reflection and bring about transformation from within. That's how life is helping you build your inner home.

4. Amazonite

You may feel uncomfortable or challenged when having to put yourself out there. To promote yourself more. Maybe you feel that doing so is being egotistical and showing off. When you actually have to be in the spotlight or to be show yourself to an audience, because of that reservation, you would try to dim your light, almost like a desire to be egoless. It may also muddle your communication. You don't feel safe to deliver your thoughts in a more direct manner.

I feel that it's because of your soft inner self. It's vulnerable and a little fragile, easily bruised, or getting lost in the collective current. It feels very open. You may have the ability to tap into the collective feelings and delve into the subconscious. But be sure to bring back something with you from that trip. Not the burdens though, it's where you need to put discipline in yourself, to anchor yourself in somekind of physical form, to identify yourself as an individual self, not just a part of the whole. It's okay to have an ego. It helps us survive and navigate this world.

What you need to bring back are the insights that help you understand the world in a meaningful way. It may sound like a cliché but finding the meaning of life will help you be more secure in yourself.

And also, have compassion for your fears. No fear is unreasonable or silly. It's actually the source of your transformation. Whatever your fear is, be it the fear of the dark, fear of a certain animal, fear of intimacy, fear of death, etc. It's a human thing to have fears. To be alive is to have fears. So there should be no shame and guilt about those fears. To be secure in yourself is to accept your fallibility.

Love.

[fishnapple]

Things you can do to be more confident in yourself.

It's a full moon tonight, our confidence can also wax and wane like the moon. So let it also be full tonight. This reading will assist you in understanding how to build a relationship with yourself based on trust and compassion.

This is a general reading meant for multiple people. Take only what resonates and leave out the rest.

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1. Clear quartz

There's something that you should accept. That is, we can never hide from people's eyes and their judgement. Putting ourselves out there for others to see is a brave act. It can sometimes feel like being put under the mercy of others. But daring to show the love we have for ourselves is even a braver act.

Starting from the inside, the root, the part that you feel the most childish and vulnerable inside you, hold it gently and protect it, do little things that make it comfortable and feel loved. Like decorating the place you're living in. Surround your home with beauty and comfort, especially the place where you sleep. A soft pillow for tired and hardened thoughts to rest on.

If you have a desire to be recognised and applauded for your achievement and your individuality. Don't ever feel shame for desiring those. Some people will call that vain, but even the feat of living and existing is worth recognising and celebrating. Be honest with your desires and put in the effort to achieve them. As long as those desires don't harm anyone, there is no reason to deny and feel shame about those.

You seem to have a very creative energy, but that creativity is stifled by the focus on security and practicality. Before you create something, you may consider will this bring you any material merit, will it make a profit, will it have a practical use in your life. In doing so, your creative flow can't flow freely. Who knows, maybe the thing you created might not have a practical use or bring you any material gain, but through the act of creating, you can connect more with your deeper self and discover your inner wealth, not everything has to have a solid, physical and logical meaning, emotional and spiritual meaning are just as important. And by doing that, more opportunities for your growth will be presented to you. So the next time you find yourself wanting to do something that you think or other people think is silly and a waste of time, give yourself a chance to experience first, you can always judge it later.

2. Citrine

I sense that some of you in this group feel stifled in your expression of love and desire. There are pressure and expectations coming in from society and your peers about what is right, what should be done concerning love, relationships and sexuality. Being truly you could mean going against a certain society's standards and expectations. There could be a struggle of whether to conform or to rebel.

Relationships would feel limiting and demanding to you. You would feel like you have to sacrifice your freedom and a part of yourself in order to keep the relationship going smoothly. It's a big compromise.

Every relationship needs compromise but you may not realise that in some communities, some people demand more of that compromise than the others simply because your values are not matching with each other. Maybe you just haven't found your crowd yet.

Community and friendships play a big part in helping you shape your own world view and your sense of self. So you should consider these questions regarding the people you're surrounding or will surround yourself with.

Do they bring a sense of comfort to you?

Do you feel nurtured by them?

Do you have the desire to nurture and comfort them?

What can you learn from each other?

Do you feel joy when talking with each other?

Do you truly want each other to move forward?

Can you imagine them being in your life in your future and vice versa, you in theirs?

If you can answer these kinds of questions with a positive answer then naturally the pressure will feel less pressuring, the demands will feel less demanding. Instead acceptance and freedom will be more present.

Another thing that can help you build more trust and confidence in yourself is learning. Learning more about life and yourself. Maybe the stifling and suffocating feeling, the anxiety, comes from the lack of space in your inner self. If our space is small, it's just a matter of time before the place is cramped, everything is pressed against each other. Learning helps expand your capacity to hold enough space for each experience and thought, feeling and a little spare space to reach out to the future.

3. Rose quartz

Usually, when I see a specific formation or combination of crystals together, I interpret them as a message to expand your life, go out into the world, be brave, express yourself, etc. When I first saw your group's layout, I also interpreted it like that. But on a closer look, the message was the opposite.

Sometimes we don't have to do any grand gestures or make some big changes, achieve something significant to feel more confident in ourselves. It's the small actions in our everyday life, those little wishes and small joys, the peaceful feeling when we're home that can ground us the most.

With this group, the messages for you would be to leave out those big dreams, those spinning thoughts and those faraway ideals for a moment, and just focus on the mundane, daily life in front of you.

If you have the tendency to stay in your head for too long or to imagine and dream about the what-ifs, then there's something you can do to ground yourself more, to anchor yourself.

There's an emphasis on the small acts, careful and slow, little by little. 

Organising and doing something repetitive can actually help you to build a more concrete result. If you want to do something new or something that you're not sure of your capability. Start practicing in small steps and routinely. If you have a vision and that vision may look too faraway, be in a myopic mode, look at what's in front of you and what you can do with them first, but not forgetting the vision of course, just let them take the back seat for a while.Break down steps that you find too big to leap. In the process, you will find that many things are doable right away and that can help you feel more confident in yourself.

You don't have to show yourself in the process. Being visible to other people can be considered brave and confident, but sometimes it can be a careless act onto ourselves. We open ourselves to the judgment and influences of other people while not fully aware that some part of ours just prefers to stay hidden, in a quiet, peaceful place to do its own things. Like a production chain, having people visiting can have a positive effect of gaining encouragement and understanding, but too many people and too often can obstruct the production, unknowingly bringing in hidden trouble factors. A place like that should best be left to the operators and the professionals that know it best, and they are you.

4. Flourite

I believe that there are some messages that are meant to be delivered to people, by you. Something that you can do for other people. In a way, doing things for other people, helping them can actually help you ground yourself more.

Maybe you have reached a certain degree of being comfortable with yourself, knowing how to take care of yourself. But I sense a protective feeling, like self-protection, but a little too much, sometimes to the point of building a wall surrounding yourself. That could make it hard to open yourself up and be more vulnerable when dealing with others. You have your peace, you don't want other people or outside factors to come in and disturb it. But this could create isolation and the feeling of being apart from everyone else.

The inside has been well taken care of, maybe it's time to step outside and help others too. To nurture your relationships with the same love that you have for yourself. To share your experiences and knowledge. You could be a strong pillar for others to look up to. Even when you think your foundation is shaking. What you can do is to look forward, there's always something that you can share and bring into this world and one way or another, it will help somebody, even without your awareness.

I think some people could find you a little intimidating or hard to get close to. But with closer interaction, they can learn a lot from you.

There could be some anger or unspoken thoughts hidden inside you that are fighting to be out. They can create hurtful words that are hurled at other people and yourself.

Being able to face those calmly and channelling them through a healthy route, like writing in a journal, for example, will bring you more awareness and resilience, in turn, helping you to be more sure and stable in yourself. 

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CRYSTAL READING : Shine the light on your hidden fears and give them a hug.

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1. Strawberry quartz

I keep seeing the troupe in movies and books about the pairing of an innocent child with a jaded, big grown-up who ended up travelling together through some fateful encounter, like the series Sweet tooth in Netflix (recommended)

Your outer appearance and the image that everyone sees may not fully reflects who you really are inside. This is a subconscious fear that you yourself not really aware of.

A fear of letting your vulnerable side, your childlike, innermost pure part of yourself out into the open. Some part deep within you yearns to let go, to be able to just exist without fear, worries and restrictions, to feel as one with people, to be soft and be taken care of. Somehow you find it’s hard to accept it, to act in that way would be considered as ‘weak’ by you. So you try to drown out that inner voice by speaking in a louder voice to the world.

In the eyes of the world, you show no trace of fear and insecurity. A confident, secured, friendly image. Your words hold weight, people listen to you but sometimes your communicating style would be perceived as rough and forceful. The repressed part in you would somehow find some ways to sneak out, to be expressed. If you ever have had some sudden emotional outbursts, some hurtful words blurted out unconsciously, take a deep breath and think carefully about what is the cause of it. Anything that is perceived as restriction coming from others would trigger a lash out, like a challenge to your unshakable confidence. Your inner-self has been already under so much restrictions by yourself, any outside force would just put more oil into the fire.

Just your acknowledgement of this part about yourself would help tremendously. Instead of always trying to be strong and powerful, being more open to the tender part of yourself would bring a wave of awareness to other people also. You have the potential to be a great teacher that can bring changes. You can show to others that sometimes it’s okay to be weak, it’s okay to just float, to feel lost sometimes. Let the child walks with you side by side, not fearfully hiding behind.

2. Flourite

The stone that represents you landed right on the center of the chart. Somehow whatever fear you are having, there is this part of you that is just immovable. The lesson is to always find the way back to that center place.

You have a very open aura that is warm like sunshine. Others could see your optimism clearly. You express what you believe in without reservation and judgment, the same is applied for other’s belief and opinions also. But then later on, you would sometimes have doubts about how would your way of living your life and your beliefs are perceived by other people.

You stay true to yourself. Your authenticity is shining, because it’s so visible, there are bound to be some clashes with others. Not everyone can agree with your way readily.

Your fear would be about saying something that is considered outlandish and then be judged harshly for it. Would your closed ones and people around you accept your authenticity with open arms? Would their affection decrease when they are not agreeing with you? Would you be considered weird if you speak the truth? Those would be some doubts that you have.

But there is something that you need to consider. Would a clash in opinions or the way you live really would bring estrangement? Of course, you will always be judged by someone. You can’t control other’s judgment, but not everyone is like that. Some will embrace your quirks lovingly. Maybe you can’t charm the mass, but there will be some crowds that will appreciate what you have to offer, your insights, your compassion, your generosity, your authenticity.

If you seek a sense of belonging in people, just find the right people for you. Know that differences don’t have to mean solitude.

3. Amethyst

So scattered and distant. I sense a fear of hopelessness, that life would one day becomes bleak and empty without meaning.

Loneliness and solitude.

Fear of having the loved ones going away, of having the love in your hands to offer but don't know whom to offer that love.

Fear of losing control of one's life, being pushed around by outside forces. That would be some twists of fate, sudden change and lost that make you feel helpless and can't act against them.

I get so many fears in this group, it feels so heavy, I wish you peace and love. I don't know your age but the energy feels young, a young heart having to pass a mission from the early days, have to endure so much and carry a burden on the mind so that the a resilient spirit can be forged. Imagine a story about a young one going on a quest to gather lost treasures and making friends along the journey, there would be both loss and joy. I think that the treasures that the main character, you, seeks and need to bring back home is your inner child, the guiding light within you. By having that light back, even when you travel alone in the dark, you won't feel lost and powerless.

In the face of confusion and loss, keeping a light and tender heart, talking with friends, making something, cook your favourite dish would help you feel more connected with life. Keep your faith in the joy of life, there is always something worth living for.

If you feel that life is moving too slowly for you and crave some changes, think very hard about what you really need from that change, maybe you have been holding that treasure all along.

4. Citrine

I'm seeing a Torii gate of Japan (image below) with the sun rising behind.

Venus stone is standing in front of it, small and distant. I feel a certain fear concerning learning, self-worth and life enjoyment.

There is a gate being open in front of you but you are afraid to cross over, the light of the sun is calling you but you are hesitant.

Is there anything you long to say or to learn but couldn't find the right time or opportunity for it ? Something you enjoy learning but fear that it would take so much time and works, that it would take you away from your safe and familiar environment.

This is the hurdle that you need to pass. Always keep the inspiration steady, follow it and don't look around, you will find you self passed the gate already.

You may have a fear of facing changes, big one, both with relationship with people and in your career, people's perception of you would change if you make some big changes.

This is a call to focus on finding more about what you want to learn, what you are taking in to form your own life's philosophy, finding the "meaning of life". It needn't be something grand, the meaning lies in each step you take.

You may find yourself becoming more interested in spirituality, being fascinated by other cultures. There would be some hidden force at play here, nudging you toward the gate.

Take one step at a time, you may find help and abundance along the way, with so much opportunities to connect and trading thoughts with new people.

*The Torii gate*

5. Obsidian

A kite is flying. There is some kind of fear concerning relationships. Once a relationship has taken off, you fear that it will be scrutinized and judged by everyone around you, maybe you even fear that it goes against the moral code of your society.

There is a desire to be free of restrictive rule and the fear of being overshadowed by some authority figure deep within you.

I sense a lot of overbearing and harsh energy around you. Maybe they come from your teacher, some kind of mentor, someone you look up to, a feminine figure close to you or someone in the role of a nurturer but their nurturing style is quite dominant and smothering. They may mean well but their words are sharp and cold that could deal a heavy blow to your sense of self worth and shaking your confidence. Making you stay behind them under the name of protection.

The message for you would be about finding your voice, be the authoritative voice for yourself, step out of the shadow. Especially in relationships. Whether it is romantic or platonic, relationships with families and authority, be aware of any imbalance in the power dynamic at play. Be mindful of the role as "helper", who is serving whom, who is getting served.

Maybe you would develop some kind of obsessive routines or perfectionism in how to carry out your job to counter-balance the feeling of passivity and the lack of freedom.

Having control of your daily life to strengthen your sense of autonomy, from the small decisions such as what to eat, when to sleep to big decisions like how to do your job, what habit and routine to practice and adopt.

Love.

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CRYSTAL READING: The universe is giving you signs that you are on the right path

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1. Obsidian

Number 2 or Z character or anything that has the formation similar to the shape of 2 or Z, two options, two choices, etc. If you see these two a lot, you are being guided by the universe.

These signs will show themselves to you suddenly, you won't see or hear about them from a far, they just show up.

The image of the sea or a large body of water at night time with new moon. I see that going to the sea, where there are lots of rocks, the time would be at night or when your surroundings are in the dark, when the moon is absent or very thin, when there is not much light around. Take a look outside, look at the sky, let the sight of the sky communicate with you, listen to the thoughts that appear in your head at that time, they will be the voice of guidance for you (the true voice of your loving self, beware of the voice that nudge you to harm, your shadow is talking).

When you are surrounded by many people, at some public places,especially where there are foreigners, and then you catch some words, that may hold some clues as well. Of course, you are not supposed to actively listen to other's conversations. It's those words that your ears suddenly catch that are special.

2. Red jasper

The phrase "when the stars aligned" immediately comes to my mind. The day when the sun and the moon are conjunct in the same sign (new moon), even better, when mercury is also in the same sign as sun and moon.

Solar eclipse or when the sunlight is dim, the sky suddenly gettingdark, a thunderstorm, the approaching of heavy rain. The release of something heavy. Maybe at that time, you would feel heavy in the heart, lacking joy and fun, but that's when you could get some sudden insights.

I feel that some of your dreams will spill into the waking life, reenact the sights that appeared in your dreams. Take notice of familiar sights in the public places, your working environment, place where there are many higher position people, people of authority or elderly people.

Abundance is also a sign showing how the universe is taking care of you. It may not be something of too big value but it will be a gift, a gift that makes you feel joy and comfort, so open yourself up to receiving, don't turn down helping hands when you are in difficult situations.

3. Aventurine

Pretty flowers and sunshine for the weary souls.

The 2 groups before and this group all have heavy Saturn's influence. When you are in a difficult situation, feeling down, your thoughts are stagnant, you are called to look for joy in life.

From the small, intimate flowers trembling under the wind and sun to the large and all-encompassing sky crowned by rainbows.

The moment you start noticing beauty in life, a spiritual gate opens up for you. You will feel inspired to take part in some community activities and social causes, feel the interconnectedness of everything.

Things that have warm colours will catch your eyes. You would see lots of things with oval shape, maybe the food you eat will be served on an oval plate, seeing mirrors, large jars, light shining through window glass. Anything that shows life's warmth and juiciness.

4. Amethyst

Music and words will guide you.

You may receive invitations or have some impulses to go to some concerts, movies, book/poetry reading events, live music at a café. Don't turn down those invitations. Don't ignore those impulses.

The universe is whispering to you through lyrics and screens. You may even get inspiration to make something beautiful and creative.

Pictures or sights of water, seashells, and rocks may show up a lot.

You may see the image of some masculine figures in your dreams, watch closely how they act, what they say in those dreams. Some people embodying masculine energy would show up in your life more, their gender doesn't have to be male but they embodying the archetype of the sun. Warm, energetic, authoritative.

Love.