I don’t know how to say this without coming off as weird or like I’m hitting on you or whatever, but basically I wanted to say that I think you’re really goodlooking. I’ve had this idea in my head forever about what kind of person I find most attractive and you’re like 100% it and it’s really cool.
wow that’s incredibly nice and flattering thank you so much
my p-jammies. it is saturday and im writing so its fine, except someone knocked on the door awhile ago and i couldnt ignore them, and it was my brothers boss, so that wasnt super ideal that is the one downside of pj days
1) Top 3 favourite songs as of right now?
Ughhhhh ahhhhhh, um, ok! in no particular order:
drag me down by 1d
girls like girls by hailey kiyoko :))))))))))
mm something by ke$ha cos i finally got the rest of her discography recently but agh. ok, this isnt a ~new~ fave song, but i started relistening to it alot lately and The Harold Song is my forever love tbh (im listening to it rn like D:
3) First kiss experience?
im putting the rest under the cut cos its getting long lol
ok, so like at New Years eve at my friends house on the lake there was a party like, god i dont even know how many years ago that was, i was still in high school, so like 5 maybe?? no idea, but anyhow, and so on midnight i guess ppl kissing is a thing, and so at midnight one (actually 2) of my girl friends kissed me, like for real! right on the mouth and i rmr being kind of like freezing up a lil bit afterwards, not bc it was bad or bc i liked them or anything but i was like, that is the first time anyone has ever kissed me on the mouth holy frick!!! i was extremely shy awkward baby child back then, even moreso than now, and i had like next to zero self confidence but yeah~~
and we were talking about the party in the fb event after or whatever and the girl who kissed me first said something about kissing, cant rmr what and i commented ‘that was my first kiss….” and she immediately went and wrote on my wall: I AM SO! HONOURED TO BE YOUR FIRST KISS!!!!! and i was like :)))) and it was very cute and nice lol
4) Who do u look up to most and why?
giraffes bc they are very tall. actually i dont know any giraffes, so hm, a more thoughtful answer…. personally, i really admire ppl who are able to express themselves about sj really well when they are talking to bigots, and ppl who can actually calmly and thoughtfully engage rlly ignorant ppl, because i Cannot do this, i lose any kind of thought that would be even remotely helpful if i feel like im in any kind of confrontational situation, (hopefully not if its something like im being called out tho, i think i can usually tell when that is, although i still get really anxious :/ but its nothing like if im talking to ignorant ppl whom i know for a fact are wrong) like it literally feels like im just seeing white inside my head, i think i go into flight or flight mode or something bc i just feel extremely pressured and im usually like really angry and/or crying if it gets to be really bad and the op isnt actually trying to listen to what im sayin, and i think its been getting worse over the years and i Hate it so muuuuuuuuuuuch bc i would Love to be able to change someones mind by making a thoughtful, eloquently worded argument and yet! it is literally impossible for me apparently..
5) In your opinion, cutest way to be asked out?
ok well, first off, i would highly recommend Not doing it if im drunk bc i will probably connect it to bad past things and be kind of really ://// about it
however if im sober then i’ll be SO anxious about it bc in theory being asked out would be cool…. but its a thing that requires a lot of thinking for me bc relationships seem very stressful and its been kind of super nice not having to worry about them? (also bc im an anxious mess but thats beside the point) plus like, if i wanted to go out with someone they would have to fit very specific qualities ie, intersectectional feminist, not expecting *** to be a thing that happens, not a massive music elitist, etc, etc.
also i hate boys and im super distrustful of them, and it is almost impossible to find boys who would meet these standards, so like in theory i think i would much, much rather date a girl or non-man cos i tend to be very nervous around boys in general :/
but also that would involve like, coming out @ some point probably i guess??, even tho i have no idea what i identify as romantically besides ‘questioning’ and i dont feel like telling everyone bc of reasonnnns besides just not knowing exactly
god, i dont know tho, going on dates would be so fun, and like.. i dont know how any of these thigns work but i suppose that just bc u go out with someone, that doesnt automatically mean ur gonna start dating or anything right? (u know what, i wish it was more of a Thing where u ask ppl out bc u want to be friends with them, that would be so cool and sick wowee but anyway) sighhh, im just a panicky overthinking childe :/ if i didnt have anxiety, it would probably be Fine but just thinking about this is stressing me out lmao
Lol ok, i think i took this more thinking from like, who would i want to ask me out, so im gonna take a shot at the original question assuming the person is like, idealio and all that
(oh and another thing, i probs wouldnt be comfy about someone asking me out if i was like, working probably, since theres a bunch of stuff in that kind of dynamic that is Not cool at all, or like any kind of situation where theres like a bunch of pressure, like really public stuff where u feel like u have to say yes, unless we have talked and they know thats a thing id be cool with cos im gonna for sure say yes anyhow, but!)
i think like… probably something involving puns? like if its a really sexual/sexist pickup line u can hit the road jack, but something cute and ridiculous would be really :))))))))) hell, even if it was delivered in a fumbled up way that would still be really cute and im sure id be into it
or something involving 1d!!! :D oooh, or a one direction related pun would absolutely 5000% win my heart
(but Doooont try to woo me by singing like, wmyb or something like that, cos i Know i am beautiful and i dont appreciate the implications of that tune, esp if it were coming from a Dude~)
like, in general, something that doesnt make me feel icked out bc it’s unfeminist, so like, something that doesnt have sexist/dehumanizing implications would be fab, and if it were 1d/pun related then that would be literally perfect tbhhhh and i would be absolutely, totally charmed :3
I live in Nelson BC and theres a forrest fire here too! Been going on for over a day now, over Duhamel and Sitkum creeks covering over 150 acres. No recent updates but the air is thick with smoke. Campers beware!
