I don't think your "abstract" way of thinking is wrong in any way, it's just your way! I've heard of people doing that, maybe it's just less common ^ ^ I'm really curious as how it works, because I myself have this kind of ongoing monologue/conversation with myself from the moment i wake up, so I struggle to imagine something different from that
ive also heard stuff about how not everybody has an internal monologue! but it seems most people do, for most of the time, so that makes me feel... uneasy, like im not taking full advantage of this very human tool called language...
it also doesnt feel right bc i have a feeling i used to have more of an internal monologue when i was younger and then i lost it. but maybe im remembering things wrong?????? like, i can still relate when people talk about their internal monologue. i do have it sometimes, too, but most of the time i dont.
the way i think it's like, for example:
im thirsty, so i get this feeling of thirst in my head, then i picture myself getting up and grabbing my water bottle, then i get this feeling of lazyness because im laying down on the sofa and im so comfortable and i dont wanna get up... but its all feelings. at no point there is any sort of voice in my head going literally "oh i am thirsty, i should get up and grab some water" like, the feeling of being thirsty it's already there, it's like i dont need a voice to tell me ??????
do you have an internal voice in these kind of everyday situations?? it sounds exhausting to me, but it also does sound like the way it should be done. like, put some effort into your life instead of living on autopilot, will you? i really do feel like im not living up to my full intellectual potential when i think about my lack of an all-day internal monologue.
because i DO use words in my head when im dealing with more complicated things than simply being thirsty. when simply "feeling" things doesn't cut it, i switch to words, specially for abstract concepts. the words still sound very faint in my head in those cases, and it would still be hard for me to repeat out loud the words i just thought (?) (??? idk?) and if the thought is just too fucking hard to solve, i use words in an even more conscious way, like im reasoning with myself, and i hear the words in my head with more clarity.
so its not like my thinking is abstract 100% of the time or that im unable to think in words. i just automatically think in feelings unless i have to actually put effort into the thought. like, the more complex it is, the more "clear" the words become in my head. which is kind of funny, now that i think about it: the more abstract the concept, the least abstract my thinking process. hmm. either way... it is how it is, i guess.
