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I was avoiding hanging out with him I mean, when he was horny and wanting sex I said I most probably couldn't hang out I kept making excuses oh god I didn't know why I was doing that or what was wrong with me And then When I was sad and my heart ached I half wanted to hang out And I said I'd probably end up getting him to come to ibn or something Also I think we're too couply He didn't notice (that'll be apparent in a minute; keep reading) but we are We miss each other A lot It's starting to feel like it's the stupid, sad 'can't live without you' thing I don't like that That's annoying I don't want that kind of missing But I know if it goes away I'll want it from him again And he said 'I'll miss you so much' just as we were saying goodnight (it's 5 AM and we're whatsapping because he's sleeping over at Toby's ;|) and I was about to send 'Ugh this is getting too couply let's just go to sleep now, night' But I backspaced it with some kind of feeling because he'd just said 'Night best friend (:' He doesn't see it Maybe I'm overreacting, then... Or I feel it and he doesn't But I don't think it's that I'm uncomfortable with the couply-ness Although yes I know if it goes away I'll want it back again Ugh I could type for ages A very long time But I just want to go to sleep again good night.