For your deep questions ask! 2, 13, 15, 17, 25 <3
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
So here’s the thing: I am *so* bad at getting angry. I get annoyed, I get sad, I cry a bunch, but I have to feel very safe to actually feel/show my anger. Last time I got angry I was on a phonecall with my dad about the never-ending shitshow that is my job atm. Between the lines, he suggested that I can’t handle critism. And honestly, I can still get angry if I think back on it. Because I can handle critism, as long as it’s constructive and reasonable. But when people are nagging about my personality...Fuck off.
13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
Oh god. Ehhhh. This is the Fem is bad at *feelings* edition of question answering. Again, I have to feel safe or my feelings must be overflowing, which they have been a lot lately. Last time a friend and I were the only ones still in our online meeting and we were just catching up, so he asked me how I was doing and I had to tell him that I have made some very hard decisions regarding my job, because I noticed that my mental health was getting so bad that self-care was being thrown out of the window, including but not limited to lack of eating decent foods (i.e. resorting to candy or cookies instead of healthy, nutritional food) and letting my house get into a mess. That was difficult, because I hadn’t had the courage to tell anyone else that.
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
If the pandemic has taught me anything, it’s that Humans can deal with a lot more than we give ourselves credit for. If you had asked me this question a year ago, my answer might have been very different. Ofcourse, with the pandemic we still presume it’s all temporarily, so let’s assume this means losing something forever.
In the end, I think relationships are by far the most important thing we have, so losing my friends and immediate family would be devastating to me, as loneliness is one of my biggest fears.
If we’re talking about more material things: Eh...I guess not having internet access is hard in 2021 (I assume that there is internet, but I just can’t access it at all in this scenario) or books. Not having books would suck too.
17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
I mean. Dude. Shit has been so messy lately. I mean. I could pick the moment I forgot to call someone even though I promised I would and make it so I wouldn’t forget so I didn’t have to deal with an angry co-worker again, or one of the many times I cried my eyes out or procrastinated because I was too tired from crying my eyes out or...Damn, there have been many I-want-this-differently moments in the last month. I’m sorry, I just don’t have a clear answer right now. ‘
25.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
Ehhhhhhhhh. Pfff. In the end I guess my biggest wish is to not have that pesky muscular disease, because it does impact my life in a negative way quite a bit and it’s something I could never get rid off unless it’s in a wish-scenario.
