I’ve never had so many close friends for such a long time, honestly I don’t know how to deal with it... I finally find myself able to trust these select few people, at least partially, and that makes me uneasy. I hate the feeling of being tied down to one place, to people, to friendships, relationships. It scares me. It absolutely terrifies me. I have so much love to give, but only for so long. I can never commit to anything, that’s simply boring. I never fully trust anyone because I never feel fully understood. I just hope the people I love understand my intentions and that they know that everyone in my life is a part of the fabric of experiences that make up my life; a fabric that will never unweave, threads made up of experiences that I will treasure until my time on this earth is up.