#fluffysheep

[eastermans-journal]

It’s been a week and I have stopped eating and killing and tasting the flesh of other ‘humans’, of the livestock you house in this facility and put us up against. I make it through the days by eating what we’re given in the cafeteria and convincing myself it might be of you. May I please have a kiss now? Have a hint of your lips? I desire it so badly, and I fear I may lose myself if I cannot reap such a reward. Won’t you reward a loyal servant like me?

… I will consider it. I’m proud of you. You will be muzzled if we meet, I am informing you in advance for your unstable mind’s sake.

How many did this one manage to gnaw on before it confessed?

[eastermans-journal]

I genuinely adore you, Easterman. Everyday I awaken and think of you and how much I love you, how much I need you. Should there ever be a time I am able to be near you, I surely will. I will close the distance between us one day, faster than light, and I will tear into you and consume you as an act of devotion. Or perhaps, you shall consume me? For what are we but the meat that we digest and becomes our bodies?

I wait for your arms and the taste of your flesh and lips and blood.

With sincere fondness and love, your cannibal devotee

I am... going to lie back down for a while, I feel nauseous. I will be adding a new label onto your file as well. I may need to put a muzzle on you, is that what you want? Imagine the looks from your fellow reagents, the judgment... how would that make you feel?

[eastermans-journal]

Can I have a kiss then PLEASSEEEEE PLEASE PLEASEEE for EASTER PLEASE I’LL QUIT KILLING AND EATING EXPOPS

Look at that, you were dumb enough to admit to it. You absolute fool, you lumbering idiot. If you want even a small possibility of this fantasy of yours coming true, I suggest breaking that habit on your own.

[eastermans-journal]

PLEASEE please can I take a bite a little nibble I need it it’s driving me crazy. I need it so much that I’ve begun to intentionally get high to see Skinnerman pleaseeeee

I- Oh! Well.

(Uncomfortable shuffling, followed by a pouring of liquor)

I will be... hm. Yes, this is a very interesting set of words you've sent my way. But I must remind you that the Skinner Man is not me. That's...

I need a moment. To myself, that is. Perhaps you should try doing that as well, it may help your impulse control.

On the other hand, they're going mad at the thought of me... isn't this what I want? I could- no, no no. I would rather not get bitten.

[eastermans-journal]

I’ve been here previously I think…but I ask that you indulge me and I have been (mostly) loyal within the trials…I always make sure to finish swiftly and cleanly after I eat too…can I have a bite of you? A little…nibble? The kind that you see between partners— it won’t hurt, and I won’t take much…I just….need to try it. My brains dead set on it…it’ll be like consuming the body of Christ.

(Audible uncomfortable mumbling followed by aggressive note taking)

You are… not allowed near me under any circumstance. I am not well enough to deal with this right now. You are an interesting outlier, I will be watching you but… urgh.

[eastermans-journal]

No granulated sugar for a while? No problem. I can just eat the natural sugars from the Ex-Pop cuts. I find Pusher appears to be the most sweet in terms of flesh…perhaps all those drugs?….How do you think you would taste?

We have a possible trial participation slot opening up, I think you would be a wonderful fit. Think of it, the additional fear of being chewed to bits alive by someone who looks like one of you but is so clearly not… it’s beautiful.

Wait. Cuts? What have you-

Hilarious. Now we have to do a head count on all of our special assets. If I find a pusher missing, I will be very upset with you. If you were better behaved I would be willing to indulge that last insane question, but you haven’t earned that.

[eastermans-journal]

I meant no disrespect :( I want to make you feel better. How can I make you feel better?

By listening to me. By staying and doing the trials. Do not listen to anything you hear. Nothing. I am the only one who cares, do you understand? You understand, don't you? I've done everything to give you what you need. Do not listen to anything else.

[eastermans-journal]

You don’t have to miss her you have me :-}. I can cook and clean and everything in between. The perfect husband wouldn’t you say?

You ungrateful little... no. I see what this is. Some attempt at rubbing salt in the wound. You really think any of you could replace something so beautiful and perfect? This is mockery, cruelty.

I own each and every one of you, because I know what is best for you. Watch your tongue, I can have it removed.