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This isn’t hockey related.
Every relationship I’ve ever been in I’ve always let things go on longer than they should. Hell the first real bf I had it took me 2 years and a lot of mental abuse later to finally say enough is enough and leave. (He stil gives me anxiety and it’s been 7 yrs) Anyway, I’ve always just kind of let things happen. Being not treated as well as I should be; nothing horrific just allowing them to be total assholes and make me feel worthless.
I’ve come to realize over the last year or so that I let all of it go on because being “wanted” and not treated greatly was better than being unwanted and alone. If it isn’t obvious I was really fucking wrong! I’d rather be alone than treated like I don’t matter by someone who supposedly “cares.” Life’s too short to be treated like anything less than you deserve.
After the last relationship (a little over a year ago) ended I made myself a promise. I wasn’t going to settle anymore. I wasn’t going to allow myself to be treated that way. I was going to wait until I found someone who was willing to put as much time and effort into a relationship as I am.
I’m making this post to say that I’ve kept this promise. I thought I found a good one; got my hopes up and everything. That’s not the case though. The last couple days I’ve stood up for myself. Called the guy out and told him that what he was doing wasn’t okay. Normally I’d back down but I haven’t. I’ve stood my ground! I hate being “a bitch” but sometimes it’s necessary! He still hasn’t texted me back so I guess that shows where we stand. Oh wel, fuck him.
Wow this got a lot longer than I thought it would!! If you’ve made it this far thank you for listening to my rambling! I hope your days is fabulous. And remember never settle for less than you deserve! 💜
