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THIS IS THE BOSS. I’M S I C K OF WAITING! I WANT PIKACHU! AND THIS TIME, DON’T SCREW IT UP!
independent blog for jimmy magma of the magnets archives. art sourced from larkstonguesinaspicpart1 promo envisioned by fogheaded
“I am officially the Cozy Station, and these arms have limited VIP space for front row hugs.” -fogheaded
Elias started a bit at the sound of Martin’s voice, sitting upright in his office chair. He’d been dozing off, massaging the sore spot on his neck in slow, comforting circles that had his eyelids drooping. Of course, he could still See everything around him -- he never stopped Seeing, and had long since grown accustomed to it, such that it wasn’t obtrusive or disconcerting anymore -- but it had felt nice to rest his body after everything that had happened. As necessary as these attacks on the Institute were, they did produce a great deal of paperwork that had to be slogged through. Elias was, on his best days, a filing machine: hundreds of years of the office grind would do that to a man; but he had his limits. He wanted to watch the street, wanted to tune in on what Jenny who worked in the canteen was saying to her coworker about the latest falling out with her boyfriend, wanted to do anything to eke some stimulation out of being in the building... but these forms demanded signing, and he wouldn’t put his name to anything he hadn’t read through. Yes, that reading happened almost instantaneously, but still: the damage from the worms, the hospital bills, police inquiries, time taken off, balancing the cheque system regarding that time off... then the usual scanning for unearned overtime ( he ran a business, after all, and nobody could lie to Elias and say they’d been working longer than they really had ), and purchasing replacement furniture for the archives, and then the upper floors’ carpets needed to be cleaned this week... it was a lot, even for him.
So the smell of tea was more than welcome. Martin’s open arms were not. It took effort not to gawk, and he felt an unbidden gush of sympathy for Jon, who apparently suffered such ministrations daily. Elias loved to be doted on, but in much the same way a prize animal or a celebrity loved to be admired -- openly, and from a distance. He deserved worship and attention, but not the sort that was piercing. Not the kind that said, You’re tired, let me comfort you. And yet, and yet, denying the hug would only seem off. He was Elias, bland manager extraordinaire, at times doddering, usually considered incompetent. The sort of man who could give an employee a firm hug after an incredibly trying experience. He could brush any hesitation or pulled faces as typical older English aversion to open displays of affection in a business setting. More than leaning into it, he just allowed himself to be crushed to Martin’s chest, patting his back a few times mechanically. ( A secret of the staff: Elias was rated high on the scale of ‘desirable hugs’, but in a different category than Martin. Martin was warm and encompassing. Elias smelled of expensive perfume, and seemed to radiate support from a solid foundation. ) “Thank you kindly, Martin.” He pulled away and cleared his throat. “It’s back to work for me, then. And thank you doubly so for the tea.”
@fogheaded said : “God- okay, I’m sick of dancing around this with other people. Everyone says I shouldn’t forget you because it would hurt you. Last time I checked, you hated me. Thought I was just- just a waste of space and energy. Am I wrong?”
WHAT IS MARTIN? MIST, OR MEMORY, OR NOTHING AT ALL? jon used to know. he’d been unimpressed at his colleague, unwanting of his kindness, cruel, even. but he’d known martin. known his steadiness, and except in some moment of deception, in a way, needed it. but something is different now, and it isn’t just the knowing : it’s where his knowing runs out. its in the empty spaces he sees in martin that didn’t used to be there.
he who stands in front of him is not the martin jon remembers, and he is not the one he used to see. jon stares and stares, and sees martin, but something is never right. he cannot look away, but never learns anything. it’s not the thing that has stolen sasha, it’s not a different form in front of him. it’s something inside.
it’s as unclear as staring head - long into heavy mist. jon’s eyes are not the problem. it’s a more fundamental sight : it’s the pieces of him that are becoming that have detected this newness. he knows that he doesn’t know something, and the paradox of it makes his head ache as it had when he’d wandered within the distortion, or felt paranoia crawling as a cold sweat down his bony back. he needed martin. in a strange way, that he cannot understand, that is new to him, he’d needed him ---- and it doesn’t feel good, when martin thinks he hates him. had he been so cruel, or is his ignorance withholding something crucial? does his anchor moor him, or does he grip him as they sink, drowning, toward the ocean floor?
“ of course . . . martin, of course you’re wrong. ” jon uncertainty wavers in his voice, and he clears his throat, and a tape recorder is running in his pocket, unbeknowst to him. “ you’re not a good assistant but you’re not a waste, you’re not worthless. not to me. ” he’s never been one to convey emotion, but there’s a tension in his throat that he cannot ignore.
“ after what’s happened . . . you’re important to me. i want to be better ---- i know i wasn’t always good. but i want you to want to remember me. we need each other. you, and i, and everyone else. i can’t do this alone. ”
@fogheaded / martin?
“Wh-“
It was true, obviously. He didn’t belong here. Some royal fuckup of a time flex had brought him to the institute, had mangled his mind and left the gorey bits to crawl around and cry. Levi knew things, but never the same things. Sometimes things seemed to slip their mind between meetings, even. He related to that too much.
Still, he clung to Levi, doing everything he could to keep from losing them. He barely had anyone left. He couldn’t afford to lose even one.
Levi tugged uselessly at his arm, trying to free himself from Martin’s grip. A mangled mind they could mostly handle, and the lingering press of the Lonely that clung to him like mist before the sun was up. What they couldn’t take was the back-and-forth, never knowing what to expect. There were days when Martin held tight to him, seemed to want him around; and there were days when he seemed to want nothing at all to do with Levi, spurned their attempts to talk, and withdrew into himself. That in and of itself wasn’t an issue -- maybe it was to be expected, given what Martin had been through, and the way that isolation had marked at him. Surely being around other people ( in a temple of the Beholding, no less ) was stressful, perhaps even painful. Even so-- Levi had lived with hot and cold before, and their nerves were worn down to stubs. Not knowing what to expect, they’d just as soon avoid the anxiety of guessing. If they were stronger with the Eye, maybe they could have read Martin ahead of time, to determine whether or not he was willing to talk on a given day, at a given time... but his mind was so fragmented, they could barely get a hold of him.
( And there was no guarantee, none at all, that this wasn’t because they felt like Jon. The thought made them nauseous. ) “Martin-- I-- a-alright, why don’t you, uh, sit with me while I do this box.” But they couldn’t abandon him. That wasn’t what friends did, and even after everything, they’d kept those early memories of their Martin, and what he’d meant to them. Their only friend. And the turning wheel of memory, where things rose to the top in clear detail only to be crushed again the next minute, that was something they understood intimately. “Just-- let me have my arm, okay?”
@fogheaded asked: “Tim. Listen, I... I know I’m not the most stable person in the world. I know everything seems awful. But I need you to hear me, okay? You’re enough. You’re doing enough. You couldn’t possibly have done any more, and the fact that you’ve already pushed this far is incredible. We have already hit the climax. It’s time to take a moment of rest. You can relax now. We’re safe now. Let the tension out, okay? I love you.” -fogheaded
it feels like a punch to the chest. each sentence makes his chest ache. he swallows thickly, presses his forehead into martin’s and he squeezes his eyes shut so he doesn’t have to look into those washed out, grey ones. so maybe martin can’t see the way he’s about to cry. the way his words reach into tim’s chest and wrap in a vice grip on his lungs, squeezing all the air out until he’s gasping, taking a shaky breath.
❛ i-- ❜ it’s not that he doesn’t believe martin. he’s got more self-confidence than just about anyone he knows. he knows he’s enough. he does. ( then why does it hurt so hard to hear ?? why does it claw at the inside of his chest, make him feel so small ?? ) another breath shakes through him and he leans into martin’s bulk, curling into the welcoming space between his arms. martin’s not that much bigger, all things considered, but tim’s always been good at making himself small. ❛ i don’t-- ❜ he opens his eyes and the first tears spill over, stinging and hot.
❛ i want to. i just-- i don’t know if i know how anymore. i’ve been wound so tight for so long i’m-- ❜ the words catch in his throat and he presses his face into martin’s shoulder. ❛ i’m so tired, martin. ❜
[Inside, a short note.
Hey boss.
Sorry about kicking you in the ribs. Not sorry about punching you in the face.
Martin]
How... charming. And from Martin of all people. He turned the card over in his hands, then chucked it into the top drawer of his desk. Maybe he’d burn it, maybe he’d keep it. It all depended on whether or not his desire to preserve the experience outweighed his embarrassment at having been knocked flat by Martin.
❛ I guess you don’t get that, you don’t really get it until you fuck up. ❜
This had not been how he envisioned this week going. The arrival of the... other Martin had caused problems that frankly had Elias’s head spinning, though he was doing his best not to show it to any of the staff. Was this Martin from the “future”, then? Looking into his mind, through the fog, he could occasionally catch glimpses of a large house sprawling across an otherwise empty stretch of moorland. Sparse furniture. Poorly decorated. Yes, that was the Lonely, but not as they knew it now, in this time. A more powerful Lonely, a more fully-realized Lonely. Had Peter’s ritual somehow worked, without bringing all the rest of the entities into the world? He was going to get that information out of Martin somehow, even if he had to have circular conversations with him for hours; and if it was true, he would eat his own foot -- and then he would figure out a way to stop it, because there was not a snowball’s chance in Hell of Peter outdoing him on the one thing he’d been fighting two hundred years for.
But that was for later. Right now, he had to deal with the fallout from the dropping of this particular bomb. It was a good thing that the Not-Them possessed no powers of Sight, and that Elias controlled every room and hallway in his Institute. He couldn’t rearrange them like the tunnels, no, but he had Eyes everywhere. If it began to move, he would Know immediately. If it even realized what was going on, he would Know. He would feel that shift in the air. And he’d brought Jon, and Tim, and Martin up to his office for that very reason. “Not helping, Tim,” he said scathingly, and felt the gushing wave of outrage from everyone else in the room. Not helping! was the echoed thought again and again. Right, they were all mad at him.
“I’ll admit, I... could have devised a way to tell you sooner. But I’d hope that, given the situation, you know why I didn’t rush to say anything. What we’re dealing with is quite capable of killing any one of us.” Well, not Elias, but the way he’d phrased it didn’t make it untrue. Any one of them could die, if that one wasn’t him. “I’ve been keeping it in check, but having any of you rush off to confront it would have been disastrous. I’m sure we can at least agree on that.”
@fogheaded / martin?
He sighed through his nose, and brushed fog from his lapels, watching it cascade to the floor and break in a way that was distinctly un-fog-like. Or had been, when the world had been bound to such silly things as logic and physics. Fog could shatter like glass now, he supposed, if it wished, but maybe then they’d need another name for it than fog. It was difficult to categorize, in the new age, but he was Learning rapidly. Every day, his mind expanded, as he sat on his throne with his Eyes rolling in his head-tower-sky and his heart racing fast enough to kill a man, but he was no longer a man. When he had become Aware of Martin -- not that when made much sense; he had always been Aware of Martin, was becoming Aware, would become Aware, infinitely. But, for tradition’s sake: when he had become Aware of Martin, it had been a sort of bump in the waves of his consciousness. It had actually been difficult for him to withdraw back into something even resembling a human form, to materialize in a way where communication would be possible. He chose Elias, because Martin had known Elias, and wasn’t he there to comfort? Not really, no. He was there to Observe. Which he could have done perfectly well from his tower.
But he was here now, no point in going back so soon when he’d gone to the trouble of putting himself together. He wrinkled his nose customarily at the mansion’s expensive and tasteless furniture, and settled himself into a straight-backed chair that should have been plush, but was decidedly not. If he could have been uncomfortable, he would have been. He wasn’t. “Martin,” he said, and allowed the Clarity of Knowing to form a channel through the fuzzy coldness of the Lonely. “You look unwell. How are you faring, hmm?”