#foolish boy

[lupeloto]

i think one of my favorite devils minion dynamics/hcs is clumsy, head over heels young daniel with not a single smooth bone in his body trying to impress armand with full knowledge that armand has 24/7 access to his thoughts. armand just thinks he’s a foolish boy, but it makes him blush, something daniel consider quite the accomplishment

[geek-fashionista]

“His mornings were plagued by unsolvable moral dilemmas” is probably the nicest, most conservative way I’ve ever used to refer to the male anatomy.

[riddlebot]

cas is doing much better as far as how he seems to be feeling. he's up a lot and eating and drinking by himself! he is still blind and i think at this point he is blind permanently, but otherwise he seems healthy and is adapting fairly well.

[viperwrites]

I.

You’re in love with a beautiful boy, a hopeful little thing always striving for the future.

II.

You’re a twisted, selfish creature by nature, really you are, else you wouldn’t be where you are in the first place. But he makes you feel like there’s something else to you, like you’re more than this simmering rage just laying under your skin waiting to explode, more than this resentment that you can’t seem to put away, and, sometimes, he makes you want.

III.

He looks at you and sees the stars, and, sometimes, he makes you wish you could tell him you look at him and see the sun, but there’s this never-ending night threatening to swallow you whole, and he’s the best thing that’s ever happened to you—the only good thing that’s ever happened to you—and you cannot do that to him. You don’t want to do that to him, and so you won’t do that to him.

IV.

He is light, and, sometimes, he shines so bright that you must look away.

(You want to walk beside him. But that would bring him unnecessary attention from the Thing just laying underneath waiting for a chance to pounce at anything you so much as look at twice, and you cannot do that to him. You don’t want to do that to him, and so you won’t do that to him.)

So you do the one thing you’re best at, and never look at him directly. It’s always on your periphery, from the corner of your eye, in the reflection of the mirror or the mirage on a desert—

Instead you find yourself someone with similar goals and put them on the spotlight, hoping against hope that will be enough to satisfy the Thing which grows restless and reckless the nearer you draw to a close.

V.

He’s bleeding. He’s on the floor holding on to his arm, and he’s terrified and confused out of his mind, and you hate yourself for being the reason that look on his face even exists in the first place.

You act before you can think—

And what’s there to think, really, when you’ve always known there’s nothing you wouldn’t do for him, nothing you wouldn’t give to keep him safe.

VI.

Before you know it, it’s already time.

You have been waiting centuries for this, already know how this is going to end, and yet all you can think about is how he’s going to take it.

VII.

It’s over.

You can’t really say you expected anything else, not when the gods are against you and have always favored those across the battlefield. You have long since resigned to your fate because you saw it coming a mile away even if, for a fleeting moment there, you were naive enough to dare to hope for a different outcome.

And so you’re okay with it, really you are, but then you catch a glimpse of his face before you fade to black, and in that moment you know—

VIII.

(You’re in love with him, and he’s in love with you, and it’s a goddamn tragedy because you’ve lived for over three thousand years with a sole purpose in mind and a sole path to go down, and, sometimes, he makes you wish you had met him earlier, when you weren’t this broken thing with jagged pieces and sharp edges, when you weren’t a fragment of a soul—his soul—almost completely engulfed in darkness by a pact you made with a demon when you were a desperate little thing wallowing in sorrow and despair.)

IX.

—he’s going to do something stupid in his desperation and despair, hopeless little thing wallowing in grief that he is.

X.

He brings you back.

He brings you back, that foolish boy who is in love and has nothing to lose and everything to fight for, and you love him beyond measure and with every fiber of your being, and you cannot comprehend what is it that he sees in you whenever you’re not looking at him, but you will be damned if you don’t spend the rest of your life trying to figure it out, making it up to him and living up to his expectations.

[salbacado]

Don’t you think that I am sorry girl? I don’t want to have to say goodbye. After all this time and things we said. Why’d I let you go?

I know that I have hurt you, love. I kick myself and don’t know why. I’m foolish but I’m still in love. Though I’ve lost my way.

Although your heart may break or long for someone new. I hope you will remember us.

You were the first love I can still recall. The look there in your soulful eyes. What a shame when something sweet and pure, Is ruined by your own pain.

Although your heart may break or long for someone new. I hope you will remember us.

I hope that I can find the words to Rectify my worst mistake. Before I turn to find that you Just don’t feel the same. I stayed around and helped you through. I only wish I would've let you help me too.

So I leave you with this simple phrase. Time may pass but love it still remains. Don’t forget that I will always say, Girl, you are my twin flame.

Although your heart may break or long for someone new. I know I will remember us. I hope you still remember us. I hope I haven't shattered us…

5/31/2017

[janniksforehand]

getting to tiebreak against borges on grass lmao he's a clown

[weedmakesthelionsdance]

Its my ex trying to tease me on snap and then delete the pic right after 😂😂

[theratboyhole]

i remember doing one of those evaluation test thingies on autistic masking, and when reading the results it compared men, women and nonbinary peoples results differently and talked about nonbinary people feeling like they always had to mask, and me, who had not yet figured itself out, was like 'ye lol so do i so what'