#for joey

[tilthedayidice]

This video is for Joey and Joey only, discord won't let me send it and I'm not payin extra for that right now

I got this mod to dance with withers but I guess we're in love now

Ignore the fact I can't get my fat face to work

[grieve-and-bereave]

I wish I could call you and tell you about everything that’s been going on with me like I used to. the other day I was on my way home after class, and all I wanted to do was call you and tell you everything and get your opinion and advice and thoughts. but then I remembered that I can’t and that even if I did, you’d never answer.

today I saw a guy with dark hair in a man bun like yours and for just a second my heart got all happy and hopeful and I fooled myself into thinking that I’d come around in front of him and it would be you. but then he turned his head and I saw his face and I remembered that it couldn’t be you. that it will never be you.

i really really fucking miss you

[xaconite]

consider: Joey wearing butterfly clips like it’s the early 2000’s. anyways, thanks for coming to my ted talk

[juusebox]

☹️

[grieve-and-bereave]

It hit me the other day that on my birthday this year, I will be older than you ever got to be. You should be graduating college this year, but instead I’m sitting here thinking about how I’ve now been in college more years than you ever got to be. You were supposed to start your junior year at the end of the summer you died, and now here I am in my junior year. I don’t know how to deal with this, or how to process it. Baby sisters shouldn’t be older than big brothers. It’s not fair.

It hit me the other day, on my birthday I will be older than my big brother ever lived to be. That’s wrong. I will never be okay with that. 

[grieve-and-bereave]

everyone keeps asking me

about my future

what am i going to do after i graduate

what are my plans

have i thought about any internships

but i don’t want to think about my future

because whenever i do

i keep thinking about how

you should be thinking about your future too

you should be making plans

but you can’t 

not anymore

your future is no more

you will never get to graduate

or get an internship

or think about your career and jobs

and you won’t be there to see me graduate

or to talk about our future plans together

but everyone keeps on asking about my future

and i don’t know how to answer them

how to tell them

that it is not fair

that i have to plan my future

knowing that you won’t be in it 

// future // m.k.

[grieve-and-bereave]

today I saw a man who reminded me of you, and for half a second I got so excited, like “oh my God, it’s you, you’re here” and I almost got up and ran to him to hug him, forgetting for half a second that it couldn’t be you. and just as quickly as the feeling of excitement came, it disappeared and turned to sadness as I remembered that it will never be you, not anymore. you’re not going to come home and show up at the door, or call me, i’m not going to run into you out somewhere. i’m not going to see you again, except for in my dreams. i miss you