#for marlon

[metamorphesque]

[soggyclothes-andbreezeblocks]

‘i fall for you like a fool for gold,

cause you look so pure and i love your voice’

[klaarka]

But iiif

[tinyvipers]

Pensieri (incompiuto).

Io non conosco le parole per descriverti ciò che sento e anche se spesso ho provato a cercare i concetti, i suoni e le armonie per esprimerlo mi ritrovo sempre a combattere con il silenzio della mia lingua che rimane immobile ogni qual volta la mia mente ti ricrea. Tutto quel che faccio e, che mi rimane da fare, è dare forma ai miei pensieri anche se è certo che per farti sentire ciò che veramente ho da offrirti le parole non possono bastare. Vorrei parlarti con i piccoli gesti, con i miei sguardi tremanti, con i sussurri lontani, con le mie candide mani, con la mia pelle morbida, con gli abbracci soffici e con i miei baci caldi. Vorrei poter offrire tutto questo e altro al tuo bellissimo corpo e alla tua splendida anima. Con me vorrei che ti sentissi a casa, che non ti sentissi mai solo e che ti potessi sentire libero di parlare e di fare qualunque cosa tu voglia. Voglio amarti e poterti avere tutto per me per sempre. Quel sempre che anche se durasse un secondo io renderei eterno nel mio universo. Vorrei averti tra le mie braccia e sentire il tuo intenso calore ardere più forte che mai. Con te vorrei passare gli anni più belli e con te vorrei addormentarmi per sempre.

[blasesaint]

But if I get sober, would you swear to love me?

If I get sober, would you care for me?

[blasesaint]

don't look, please don't ask i know you won't like to know that i'm a recovering addict and sometimes i relapse

but if i get sober would you swear to love me if i get sober could you fall for me?

[babelovemepls]

daily thoughts 14/11/18

so i wanna talk about the song “For Marlon” by Soko. such an underrated song that is so good and so true and i haven’t even realized it till i’ve experienced it. 

let me get this striaght. it’s about a boy that this girl is in love with. but the boy has one secret - he’s a recovering addict. she, of course, is not that ok with that but her feelings matter, she can’t get rid of them and doesn’t leave him because of his addiction but she wants to be with him. in the end they break up. but their relationship was full with life and even after that she would be there for him.

two or three weeks ago, i’m too lazy to count, my boyfriend broke up with me. not that big of a deal, we’ve been together for only a week. but i was ready to do anything for him. he’s some kind of an addict - he drinks a couple of days each week, he smokes cigarettes and sometimes weed. and i am okay with that. me - a girl that was not okay with her first boyfriend that he was drinking from time to time - was okay with someone who’s a real addict. i can’t explain why but i had that connection with him that i have never experienced with someone else before. i understood his needs. i just wanted him to be happy because i was happy with him. 

but anyways there’s that line in the song

I thought I knew back then to never ever trust Someone for who drugs come first 

that thought me that i should never ever ever ever EVER trust someone who’s addicted to alcohol, cigarettes or drugs. 

ps. i don’t hate you, i just want to know why you broke up with me and if we can be friends again