#forever second

[fatiguedtoast]

all i want is to be someone's first choice again.

my childhood best friends are still my best friends in my mind, but i'm not theirs.

my parents all have other kids that they'd run to first.

my teachers don't even know me.

[pinkdumpling]

chill is the best song on the war and that's that on that

[go-ask-alaska]

Forever being a second choice.

[thefamouswafflehouse]

i'm done. i can't handle this anymore. There's too many things going on and I have to pretend like I'm okay with any of it. My boy world is horrible. My love life is non exisistant. My school work is everywhere except my brain. I don't know who are my real friends anymore, if I have any at all. I hate that I'm always tired, and wanting to do shit but not having the time or money or car, sometimes i just want to lay in bed with someone holding me telling me it's okay. It is okay, but not if I am everyone's second choice. I will always be second, I will never be anyone's first choice, I will never be important to anyone that is important to me. Even my boyfriend tells me I'm really ugly, and need to put on makeup to look decent, to lose weight, and keep my mouth shut. Maybe he's right, everything I do is the opposite of what he says, so maybe that's why I'm unhappy. Maybe he won't hit me anymore, and he'll love me instead. Maybe I won't need to get drunk or high to escape, maybe I won't feel the need to escape at all. All I know is I'll never be pretty, smart, athletic, funny, cute, sexy, or anything attractive enough to make me someone's first choice, someone's only choice.

[littlemisscraze]

Just finished a 10 chapter Phan fic It's like reading all the Harry Potter books It's over...

[memelordniall]

"whats elise up to?"

i haven't spoken to you weeks, and you want to know how ELISE is doing?

fuck you guys too, grandparents.