#foreverthevoid

[lonelywhiteweiss]

foreverthevoid

"You are aware it is your turn, right?"

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-Reluctantly starts dropping bedsheets over people-

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"...Why do I have to do the backtracking in this game?"

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"It's quiet tonight ~ ♪"

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~Recovery

Surreal. It felt surreal to finally lay in a bed starting at the ceiling above her. Surreal and a foreign feeling. Aqua sat up, body protesting as she did so, the Master was too restless to go to sleep yet too tired to stay awake. Stuck in a never shifting limbo all she could do was hope for some nightmare to shake her awake from her deep, dark sleeps. Hand clamping over her face, drawing back through her hair across her scalp Aqua let out a long heavy breath as her blue locks slipped back into their previous places.

"...."

Since she'd came back...she hadn't been whole...even wondering if whatever light that saved her was even right in doing so. Wondering if her nightmares of dreaded darkness would persist from the rest of her days, if she'd always wake up in cold sweats trembling from head to toe...

Aqua did not have the answers to them. Slowly, the door to her room opened. Someone popping their head inside. Someone who was nursing her back from the brink of dark...Aqua could barely meet their eyes, her dull ocean blues dragging down to her sweat soaked downy covers.

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"It's almost been a year. I wonder, if we all shared our adventures just how long would the book be? Sorry! I get a little sentimental during this time of year!"

"I guess. I hope I'll be able to form more connections in the coming new year - and even if it was the same faces. I just hope we all get a chance to make some new happy memories together! Heh, silly huh?"

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"Christmas might be over. But there is still plenty of snow outside!"

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~ ooc ~

So I guess I've held off on making this post for a while. Don't worry! This is good news X . x NOT BAD! Before some of you go running to the hills screaming 'Voids gloomy again!' Heh!

I just wanted to, well, say thank you. To the people who have stuck with me. I know I've barely moved in like, what...3 or 4 months maybe? A little bit off and on? Well, in terms of serious roleplay and structured threads! But honestly I've needed that time to get my head together. Shits not been right in my household for a long time and I guess I let it eat away at me more than I cared to admit. I would just slap a smile on, pretend everything was okay and filter out any negative feelings. A lot of times I even thought about just giving up on tumblr, Aqua, life altogether. Heh, silly huh? With my old friends I just felt like a unwanted relic, meeting new people was scary since I was in a bad way - not myself, I let people that were my friends or that I wanted to be friends with just drift away, I couldn't think of anything positive either. So, I just suffered in silence. To be corny, I guess I let the darkness win for a while.

But it's no longer the case now. I've met people, and again excuse me for being corny, that were a light in the darkness. People who listened. Now before people rip my head off, I COULD have said something on here and maybe gotten some help with it but I chose not to. Why? Well because I thought people had enough on their plates. I didn't want to add to that. Besides, I'm used to doing all the fixing and never being fixed when it comes to people! So I just stayed away. But these people, they helped me. Fixed me. Helped me pick some of the pieces up and put them back into place - hell I'm far from being fine but I'm back to being alright. I managed to trust in people again, shake this fear of making friends. And to know there were people nearby that cared!

Being targeted by those fuckwades as well was actually beneficial. It gave me an outlet to get rid of some of this anger I had built up, a chance to just be nasty to some very nasty people! Some might frown on that - but then to those people I'll ask, why defend people like that? Anon hate is just pathetic. If it was one of your friends you should talk to them, not the people that take that hatred and turn it right back round on them. Far as in concerned if you come into my inbox, and you act hostile, well expect sarcasm or to have it thrown back at ya!

Maybe I'm just talking to a brick wall right now. Maybe I'll even lose a couple of followers by posting this. Hell! Maybe a few people will even jump into my inbox and throw some hate my way, because that's just how some people are. And you know what?

I'm fine with that.

Because there's so much more left to live for. :) It's nice to finally be back.