I want to start a fatshion/body positive blog
You know, because I'm starting to realise that even if I'm trying to lose weight, I need to start loving the body I already have.
I've noticed my daughter has taken to pulling her top up infront of the mirror like I do when I'm poking at my fat.
It's not good.
She's only four months off 2, and I'm already setting a shitty example of body positivity for her. I want her to grow up in an environment where she doesn't feel shame for the skin she's in.
And I think for me to do that, I need to think about what I'm doing in front of her, and I need to learn that even at my current weight I can still love myself.
I need to learn to deal with my insecurities in my relationship, which spurned a lot of the body hate I feel at the moment.
I think I need to forgive him for what he did in order for me to do that and that's the hard bit.
How do you even forgive somebody for cheating on you?