tagged by forlornes! ♥ sorry it took so long. ive been busy procrastinating.
1) How long can you go without sleeping? I have a record of 38 hours before I had a panic attack and passed out. I think I was drinking then?
2) Favourite scent? so MANY!! It depends on the mood and the day and the people I’m surrounded by. this sounds so crepy lmao but usually people, especially people who are close to me and I care about. I will remember them mostly by scent, and if we’ve been far apart for a long time I have a really hard time remembering their faces or their ‘atmosphere’, but I remember their scent very clearly. So, that, and sweat that doesn’t smell like BO - actually, even if it does? God this is such a weird question. There’s something awakening about it, especially if they’ve been working hard at something, and you smell that sort of summer-sweat that reminds you of greasy hair and getting soaked under the sun. fuck i dont know.
3) Least favourite colour and why? Yellow, definitely. Too bright for me. Weirdly enough, I paint with yellow the most.
4) ‘Memorable life’ or ‘remembered after death’? ah, i’m torn. i prioritise having a memorable life the most, but i have a lot of ambitions so i would also like to be remembered after death because of something ive shared. memorable life tho, definitely.
5) Worst nightmare? i woke up as an adult and had a swarm of responsibilities. my parents were far away, i had no one i loved to take care of me - only clients, pissy workmates, demands.... minions were also there.
6) What would make you happy right this moment? To meet One Ok Rock. I mean really the last 50 posts on this blog have been OOR/Toru. That, and to keep doing what I love doing without it costing me anything big - like, say, dead relationships, too much money, or my health.
7) A secret that no longer matters? im a weeaboo nerd and im gay?
8) Would you go back in time? No, but I would jump into the future.
9) What is something you are looking forward to? Finishing high school, setting up a schedule for myself that would keep me making art, studying art, working and getting paid hopefully, as well as spending time with family and friends because I tend to forget about that in the midst of things. Playing guitar again and getting better at it, as well as possibly learning the cello!! Right now, though, it’s passing my exams and making it out of them alive. Come November, I’ll be facing NaNoWriMo and the end of high school.
10) Last daydream you had? BeiNG SUPER GOOD FRIENDS WITH TORU TBH! Talking to Taka about a lot of deep stuff, them coming to Australia, u know the thirsty drill.
11) Who can you rely on in your life? i dont want to, but i rely a lot on the people around me. or maybe the thought of being able to rely on them - it comforts me, even if i dont reach out to them, or if theyre far away or if they have theyre own problems. its nice thinking that i can be doing all the things i want without worrying about them leaving me. aside from all that, ME!
1) What is your strongest feature? my jaw, lol. i dont know what else. im pretty weak. i hope to have built myself a strong spirit by the time i’m 20 or so.
2) Do you see friends as a necessity or a liability? i fear thinking of them as a necessity, because then i would never be able to live with myself, because i would always be uncomfortable. i definitely need them though. i think this attachment comes from the fact that i used to think of them as a liability - i never went out, rarely hung out with friends outside of school hours because i thought they were distracting me from learning and working on my art. now they are the source of my inspiration.
3) Favourite season and reason? autumn is the tamest. summer kills, winter kills 3x, spring makes my nose all sorts of itchy. autumn has done nothing but make me horny, so its okay.
4) Have you ever been driven forward in life by a question you want to answer, or a vision you wish to fulfill? Definitely a vision. Several visions, actually. Questions are malleable to me that they can have different answers at various points in time, but the visions I see for myself, in my future or others’, constitutes my ambitions. They’re there, and they may change and vary according to my passions, but they never stop existing. I can never define exactly what those visions are - they’re more like feelings, I guess. It has a lot to do with sharing, children, and teaching people.
5) Do you believe in the supernatural/paranormal? in a world as wide as this one, i think i have to.
6) What do you consider to be your area of expertise? aaah, besides art? (i’m not even that good!) maybe... keeping yourself together - taking care of your mental health because iv ebeen through that shit - and then writing, then perhaps music.
7) Does physical appearance matter to you when forming your opinion of someone? no. political/social beliefs do, definitely... also their zodiac sign.
8) Which makes the biggest impression on you while reading - the world itself or the characters that inhabit it? aaagh!! the characters, man!! chances are i wont tihnk twice about the world they’re living in unless i really really connect with the characters. then i’ll take them out of that universe, place them under different circumstances, before i come to immerse myself in their world.
9) Can you describe your dream home? a place with someone, or two or three people very very close to me, where i can work on my art independently or with them. comfy, cozy. one with a roof.
10) Has your family ever tried to control you or stop you from developing a hobby? yes, and they failed spectacularly. they’re still scared of me turning out to be one of those starving artists with fruitless labour - and i dont care if i do, ill deal with it!! - but im stubborn, and my interests are usually connected to my emotions and my heart. its like trying to peel my skin off. sorry.
11) Do you believe relationships can last without physical intimacy? yes!!! for me, its definitely okay, but the relationships ive had with people have driven me to reassure them constantly through physical affection.
tagging bakchangg mxchking ??? idk wtf wtf im sleepy GOODNIGHT (u dont need to do it i just dk)
