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There’s a quote from Bert where he says he‘s “known big bird since he was a little bird” and the thought of it makes my heart cry so here’s that

im szo mad

#btich im exercising #im going out #the only thing shit is my sleep but i dont thinkl thats #supposed to make me feel like i want to kms #im jsut so mad bc im doing ev eyrtthing right and im still like this #what the fuck is wrong with me #im eating good too what the fuck bro

bc

#we're not gnna talk abt how my breakdowns started #when i was put on birth control #this ius a sCAM #yeah my uterus isnt gnna atrophy #but at what cost. at What Cost

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#now i feel worse bc i havent even done Shit im going to fail uni #LMAO #maybe i should have them on speeddial

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#btich what dfo u even say toa suciide hotline #IKLSDFNJKSDJKFNSDF #i dont want to die im jsut emotional and lonely #hello i dont rly wanna kms but i feel like i could kms bc im in so much pain #EMBARRASSING.

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#im miserable #i cant do this

struggling to keep making mature and responsible and careful decisions about how to cope with anything

#cried 5 times todsy about being ugly #idk why i care so much #i dont want it to matter but it dows #no matter wjat i do i always end up there #knowing im ugly #i feel like thinking of myself as not ugly is delusional #i dont want to be a fool #or be seen as a fool #for thinking im not ugly #i am #i know i am

i havent changed at all im still weak and sensitive and cant handle anything im a failure and will always be and no one really loves me becuase no one knwos me for who i really am theyre all lying to me they dont udnerstand me they pretend to understand me but they really dont and they dont love me theyre lying to me and to themselves

#how many lives would be better if i didnt exist

u would think after 10 years or something i would become a b etter person and someone more lovable but im not im still me : ) disgusting rotten awful and i need to die why wont i die

i know i dont want to die i jsut want the pain to stopn but it keeps coming back and im nto strong enough to handle it i cant do it anymore im too weak i cant do it

#my mom shoudl have aborted me