An open letter for my boyfriend on his toughest days
If you ever feel like no one is there. Or that you cannot talk about something, Remember even though I am your girlfriend. I am always the one you can talk to, I am always the one you can tell secrets or feelings to, without any judgement. Even when you feel that I’d be the first one to judge you... that would never be my intentions.
My job is to not only love you. But to be the best friend you’ve ever had, the most understanding friend you’ve ever had. My job is to continue being the friend I’d always been BEFORE we put the title “boyfriend and girlfriend” into it all. Before the i love you’d became a part of it all. To lift you up when it feels like the world or life is just not what it should be for you.
I remember a time when you said I was the most important thing in your world. And I mean no disrespect, because I love that you said it, it made me feel important. But I don’t want to be THE most important thing in your world. I want to be ONE of the most important things in your world. Just as you are one of the most important things in my world.
I could write a novel on all the things I absolutely love about you. I could write chapters on how you make me feel: but none of that will change the most important thing. How you feel about yourself. All I can do as the woman that loves you is be here for you no matter what, even when you don’t want me to. My job is not to “show you the world” this is not Aladdin. My job is to keep showing you that there’s someone out here who loves you with flaws that you carry. Someone who loves you when everything is kissing you off. Someone who will take time out of there day to do anything they can for you, when they can.
Do you remember that night we sat in your drive way until 5 am? And I just let you talk. I listened to everything you had on your mind that night. And you told me you wanted forever. Then the next day I told you the same thing. Wanting forever with you mean seeing you not be yourself, but only hope that you seem to remember the things about yourself that are amazing in my eyes, on your own time. Night like that night have always been my favorite. Where you and I are together and we lose track of time just talking, and being together. We used to have a lot of those nights and every single one of those nights have always meant the most to me
So I ask you, please remember on your hardest days that you feel that nothing is right, or you’ve done something in your life that may have lead to unhappiness for an amount or time. Please remember I am here, and please remember that I love you more than you can imagine. Please remember that you do matter to someone. Please remember that I won’t let you be lost. Please just remember that I will always be the person you can turn to, even if that means letting your guard down. Please remember I can’t fix everything, but I will always be there to try to keep your head up when it wants to hang low.
Please remember the word , “Always”