[ STEADY ]: the sender rests a hand on the shaken and panicked receiver's shoulder to steady and ground them. (cullen, either verse)
The Shoulder Touch @frcstwarden
He was on the battlements with his soldiers when he heard the beat of wings. In a moment, Cullen felt like he was back at Haven, watching an archdemon descend from the sky on them all. This time, there was nowhere to run, nowhere to shelter, no time for any clever ideas or enough, snow - or sand - to bury the whole Blighted fortress.
And Helena was up there. He had spotted the flash of blonde hair in the corner of his eye as he helped to fight through demons and possessed Wardens alike. She wouldn't be anywhere but right at the centre of it all. A second archdemon for her to fell.
Cullen fought like he was possessed. Nothing else mattered but making a path forwards. He couldn't let himself register the ache and tiredness in his sword arm as he hacked through whatever was put in front of him. If Helena was going to fight an archdemon then he would be beside her even if he died in the slaying of it. He needed to get to her. He'd carve through every Grey Warden in Adamant if he had to.
And then the sky flashed that sickly green.
By the time he had carved his way to the edge of the fortress, all that was left was rubble and Clariel's broken body. Helena was gone. The archdemon was gone.
His whole body shook. Cullen wasn't sure whether from exhaustion or the fear of what had happened to Helena. She couldn't just be gone. He didn't want to believe she was trapped amongst rubble, crushed, or lying broken at the bottom of the drop. The other idea, that she was once more pulled into the Fade, he wasn't sure if that was worse or better than her being dead or dying.
Reluctantly, he retreated. The battle was nominally won even if they lost the most important person in it. Orders had to be issued. Surviving Wardens had to be dealt with. He could lose himself in work and shove off the realisation of loss until it could no longer be. By then, he hoped he would be alone.
Yet as soon as he set foot in the courtyard, another flash of that bright green light had him shielding his eyes. In a second it was gone again but the air seemed to buzz with magic. He only remembered feeling something similar back in Kinloch, when the Fade had been rent asunder and demons were allowed to pour out amongst the innocent.
He didn't remember moving forwards until he was in front of Helena. He didn't remember anything except the sight of her, bloodstained and tired but very much alive. Only when her eyes met his did he find himself faltering. All words had flown from his mind. He could only stand and stare at her, mentally cataloguing every smear of blood and dirt on her. He was fretting, he knew it, but he couldn't stop himself. He needed to know she was alright. He needed to see she wasn't bleeding from a hidden wound. Maker knew what happened to her in the Fade.
Her hand on his shoulder steadied him. His hand found her's on his shoulder, warm even through the leather of his gloves.
"I-" Cullen swallowed around the lump that had welled in his throat. "I'm glad you're safe."