#freedle rants

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Me: Okay so I didn't wake up super early as I had planned but it's still a decent hour and I can work a little before heading to class ...

my phone: oh yeah about that ... I changed off daylight savings but I wasn't supposed to do that. Oopsie :D

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My therapist today: "What I'm hearing is that you are trying to find a very polite, british-like way of saying fuck off to him"

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I got accepted on a summer school to which I had originally been rejected. A part of me is really happy, but obviously the imposter syndrome is getting the worst of me right now.

Anyway, I wanted to share it in here <3 I'm panicking because the school seems advanced, but I'm trying to stay positive

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Does it even happen to you that you try to come with an explanation for something unclear on the canon, and it takes only a minor detail you missed to shatter your theory?

Yep, I had such a cool headcannon for Beatrice's white shirt/blouse on the post-credits scene and this morning I woke up with the thought "wait, that doesn't work because of this" and yeah, sad :(

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My roommate is taking her profesional exam right now (the one that decides if she gets her degree or not) and I am so nervous ;-;

I know she can do it, she is one of the smartest people I know, but the evaluators of her school had proved to be extremely strict and harsh. I really really want her to get this, she deserves it.

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Girl, you want to write this. You have the idea and we've agreed it wasn't completely bad. The deadline is in two days.

Why aren't you writing it??

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For reasons outside of my control I'm going to a Christian church today and I'm struggling to decide it is safer to say -if questioned- that I'm catholic than I'm not religious

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omg, re: aroace jillian, yesss, i am like: (see below meme) w you over the hc, it’s galaxytier, always one of my favs

do you have any other aspec hcs for other wn characters? personally i like to hc camila & mother superion, and a good chunk of the ocs as ace and/or aro without realizing it, they just think god’s being super helpful and helping them avoid ‘temptation’ lmao

i also love aspec lilith hcs and alternate between aro sapphic jillian and aroace jillian, and alternate between aro bi lilith, ace bi lilith, aroace, or aroace bi lilith depending on the mood

and then i love ace, gray or demi ace beatrice & aro, demi aro or gray aro ava hcs

also love hcing em as qprs

Hahaha loved the meme. WN really uniting people out there right?

Also thank you for this question and sorry in advance because you just opened my bottomless trunk of rants :D

god’s being super helpful and helping them avoid ‘temptation’ it's the ultimate catholic aroace girl experience (been there haha)

I also hc Camila as aspec, the scene when she says "how hot" Todd is just serves me to reassure the fact that nuns aren't blind haha, they can experience attraction (independently of gender, see my other hcs) but at the end they've taken the decision of remain celibate -or not- and that comes from their personal values/principles, regardless of attraction of any kind. * I think Camila doesn't overthink in terms of attraction because it isn't something that common for her, therefore not "that hard" for her to ignore it.

Mother Superion is one of those characters I don't feel we have enough info in order to hc her orientation, and I don't feel comfortable doing so when that happens. Honestly I see her as straight haha, one of the clearest examples of women who actually experience attraction but their love, faith, and desire for service were stronger. That happens and it's ok. Same case with Yasmine.

I'm more inclined by aroace Jillian (she never mentions romance or sexual attraction in any way), but I can see why some hc her as sapphic. In KTY's words "whatever goats your boat :D"

Yes for aspec sapphic Lilith as in "she might or might not be attracted to girls but doesn't mind, because she's just focused in other things".

And yeees! demi Bea for the win <3 There's actually an amazing fic that explores asexual Beatrice and how that happens alongside her being a lesbian (i.e. how both identities can go by hand and how religious trauma doesn't "cause" asexuality). I can't remember the name but it must be somewhere in my blog under the ace beatrice tag

I'm not entirely sure if I'll hc Ava as acespec or arospec. She actually seems -to me- like that one character of the complete opposite of the spectrum haha, either pan or bi.

*the conversation of attraction and religious women its is actually something I find deeply interesting. Having grown in a religious environment (read: being close with nuns haha) I can assure you that there's as much variety of orientations as in any other community. More than once a nun had told me that "they can find someone attractive, they just don't act about it ;)". Many had relationships before joining the church, one thing doesn't change the other.

I think that the idea that, historically, many many nuns have been queer (mostly sapphic and aspec) comes from the fact that from a very long time, religious life was the only "acceptable" role a woman couldn't take that didn't require her to marry a man. It was also a way to guarantee themselves certain grade of freedom and education, but that's a conversation for another time because this has already gotten too long and I'm digressing from your original question.